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Thank you for coming.

- I am so sorry for your loss. - Thank you.

Should I go?

Okay.

Hi.

I'm the actor of the group, so...

I'm going first.

I've been, um, preparing this speech for the past few days

and I have been asking myself,

you know, "Who was Dory?

"Who was she?

Like, who was Dory," right?

And it's a question that

I've been asking myself a lot,

kind of almost obsessively,

since I was cast as her in an

upcoming film about our lives.

Um, it's kind of embarrassing for me to admit,

but I actually was, like, recast,

which has never happened to me professionally,

because, um...

I couldn't figure her out.

And that was very confusing for me

because she's my best friend.

And sometimes I honestly felt like I didn't know her at all.

And towards the end, I...

got the impression she felt the same way about herself.

And...

maybe we all feel a little that way

and we're kinda scared to admit it.

As an actor, I'm always trying to understand

my character's motivation.

But I've learned I don't really think people work that way.

I think, like, we don't really know what motivates us.

We just kind of, like, are the way we are.

We don't really know why the way we are

the way that we are, but we are the way that we are,

and that's the way that we are.

And the thing about Dory...

is that I underestimated her.

And I think a lot of people underestimated her.

And she had, like, this secret power

that I've never seen in anyone ever in my life before,

and I can't help but feel like she had more years in her

to figure out that power and understand it,

and I'm just really sad that I will miss out on that.

I'm sorry. It's just...

Dor was my best friend, and...

maybe I didn't understand her.

But I really loved her.

Are you gonna clap?

- Okay, so, um...

If Dory were here, she'd want me to be real.

She'd want me to tell the truth.

So in that spirit...

We all know Dory was not perfect.

She was a procrastinator.

She was controlling. She was pushy.

She was perhaps insane.

Sometimes she would go three days without showering,

we'd be like, "Dory, please take a shower, please."

She was--well, I'm not gonna say she was stupid,

but she did make stupid decisions.

And of course, she was a lying,

manipulative bitch.

- Whoa. - El!

- And I know, I know you all wanna boo me offstage,

which I'm fine with, by the way, okay?

It's happened at every college campus I go to.

But I just wanna ask you a question.

Aren't you all of those things too?

I am.

Except I do shower.

But that's 'cause I smell like shit.

We all smell like shit. Sir.

I want us all to indulge me for a second.

Everyone turn to the person next to you.

And I want you to look that person in the eye,

and I want you to say to that person

the worst thing you could possibly tell that person.

Even if you don't know them. Go ahead.

Elliott.

Seriously, guys.

We're all open and raw right now, you know?

If not now, when, right?

Just do it. Do it now.

- You can be so sluggish. - I slept with the movers.

- You look like you have a thin penis.

- Okay, now I want you to think about what you just said.

And now I want you to say out loud,

"I'm that, too". Go on.

all: I'm that too.

That too?

- You feel that? Yeah.

The things you don't like in other people

are the things you don't like in yourself.

We are all unlikeable!

Every one of us!

And Dory was no exception.

Okay, in fact, she was exceptional at being unlikable.

If you have complicated feelings still in you

about your love for Dory,

just remember that there is a dark side in all of us.

But that darkness is connected to the light, people.

Maybe she was controlling.

But that's just another way of saying that she was passionate.

Maybe she was pushy.

I see that as her being strong-willed.

Yeah, she was violent.

Or maybe that was her being protective.

Yeah, she was crazy.

Or was she was an out-of-the-box survivor.

My point is,

we have to stop shaming darkness.

Because when we do so,

we stop understanding human nature.

This country was built on darkness and deceit,

and it grows stronger with every day.

We cannot ignore the past,

but we can change the future, y'all.

And that requires owning all of ourselves.

May we all stand wisely

in our own darkness without fear or hate.

May we seek to understand the darkness in others,

for it is there,

and it ain't going nowhere, honey.

Thank you, Dory,

for teaching me that.

God bless you.

God bless us all.

And God bless our country!

Whoo!

- Go, Drew! - Go, Drew.

Um...

Yeah, it's gonna be tough to follow that,

so thank you, Elliott.

And me.

- I'm just gonna try to speak from the heart.

And, um...

You know, the Dory that I remember

was the...

sweetest person that I had ever met.

And I'm not too good at speaking, you know,

so I'm just gonna, um...

try to do what--

what Dory hated the most, and, um...

and I wanna try to sing her a song.

- Drewbie! - Drew!

- I'll have a Mystery Solver Margarita.

- Oh, enjoy. - Yummy.

- Ugh, who even are the people? Okay, this is disgusting.

Barely anyone here even knew Dory.

They're just, like, mooching off the grief.

Sorry, but who would do that?

- Honestly, I don't even wanna know.

- - Oh, my God.

- Hey, Marc. - Hey.

- I gotta go. - No, no, Portia, no.

Oh, Portia. No.

Hi.

I really liked your speech.

- Thank you. Thank you.

Thanks for coming. - Of course.

Dory was...ahead of her time.

She--she was, yeah.

And who's this little one?

My sister gave me her baby.

Her name was Laura, but I hate that name,