Ferro

"I'm sorry, I was wrong."

Understanding the mistake, admitting it.

The truth always cured me.

I've finally found a way to say it,

and it's this story, this movie.

So I'm gonna tell it for real.

After a three-year absence,

Tiziano Ferro, a few months away from his 40th birthday,

is back with a new album.

I left at the end of the month With no pretension

MILAN NOVEMBER 21, 2019

I left for a few days And I'm still away

Milan. The temperature changes when a new album comes out. The wait is over.

Meeting who listened to the album is exciting,

but there's that permanence which scares me.

I think, "What will they think? Are they waiting for me, happy,

"bored, tired, excited?" That's the moment.

I noticed it from the beginning. The first drop comes down.

You're about to get wet, you're not sure

when and how the storm will be over, right?

I think this is the core and the essence of my job.

Don't touch me because I hate you Don't erase me because I need to

Be kept in your mind Until I prove the dream false

And I will laugh until it is over

And I understand you because it's the same

Melancholy as when everything is back And nothing stays

What shall I leave you of me? And what shall I take of you?

I'll take a tattoo, I'll take that night I'll take this tear

What will you leave me of you? And what will you take of me?

Choose a song Choose my silence

I choose not to see you again

A new life starts From the color of a withered rose

Few ideas I've got, always the same No more promises, I promise

And I changed, and I changed And even if it's the last stop

I leave my life much better Than how I found it

Than how you left it

How you left it

And with everything I've seen It's hard to understand if I exist

And despite everything I look at myself Now and then I wonder where you go

Motionless behind the obstacles I accept miracles

It's about to be midnight in Europe, in Italy.

The new album Accetto Miracoli is about to come out,

after almost three years.

I hadn't made a record out of a personal crisis for a long time.

You embrace the crisis

and turn it into inspiration, tears, smiles, songs.

Since I was a kid, music has always been

the only thing I've had, like a channel

to express myself in a world where I didn't feel I belonged.

Tiziano Ferro.

The beats fall down

From the clock

And they don't stop

They set me apart

From those infinite moments

Into your arms

Incomprehensible...

I was never the first of the class. Always the second, the third. Anonymous.

I wasn't handsome, not athletic at all. In fact, I was fat. Shy.

Girls trusted me, 'cause they didn't think I was a threat,

boys used to call me "fatso," "pussy," "loser."

And if I didn't help them pass the test, they would wait for me outside.

I was never able to defend myself.

I hoped in vain somebody would do that for me,

and I was constantly feeling frustrated.

And pissed off. And even humiliated.

And I was ashamed, so I didn't tell anything to my parents.

But then, I sang for the first time, and everything changed.

...one more minute and then

We look each other in the eyes

I want to watch your eyes Falling asleep your

Eyes

Your eyes

Your eyes

Excuse me. After the theme song, Tiziano will enter from the side

and will make a speech about bullying, as close-up as possible.

Come on, Tiziano!

-That one. Perfect. -Yeah, the close-up is this one, Tiziano.

There's no tolerance. I've lived my whole life destroyed by comments

and attacks because I was fat, I was a misfit, I was different, I was...

I always had some issue, and every time one of them

was solved, there came a new one. I mean, if you're unpopular in your DNA,

you'll always be.

Now I'm 40, I have the ability to filter this information,

I don't care.

I stop and step back. But I couldn't when I was young,

and it's thanks to music that I'm alive now,

'cause it always gave me a window through which I could scream.

It saved me, 'cause there are some more subtle forms of decline

than poverty, than, than, than, than...

Than war... Those are very bad forms of decline,

but inner decline is no better.

Words have a weight, but we tend to forget it.

This is the tragedy behind bullying.

Words have a weight. I repeat, they're dangerous,

and be aware of that when you unleash them onto a teenager who is too fragile

to choose or decide.

Words have a weight.

Fat, slut, midget, misfit,

faggot, criminal, nigger, hag, redneck, spoilt, beggar, retarded,

whore, loser, anorexic, wuss, handicapped, frigid, inferior, moron!

Words have a weight,

in life and on the screens.

And please, let's stop defending ourselves by bringing up humor and sarcasm.

Not everybody manages to do that.

Meanwhile, I'll wait for the day when words

will have a weight, maybe.

Thank you.

See you later.

I started as a choirboy when I was 17.

While at the Sanremo Academy,

I met Mara Maionchi and Alberto Salerno, her husband,

who made me sign a contract with their company.

So, when I was 18, I was feeling like I was at the center of the universe.

Then, there were three years of oblivion and frustration, doors shut in my face.

My producers only got rejections, they thought my songs were amazing,

but there was always tension due to my being overweight.

So, I stopped eating and I went from 111 to 70 kilos.

And the worst part is that everybody was telling me that I was handsome.

The weird thing is that shortly after, they made me sign a contract for a single.

Five letters, Xdono.

Tiziano Ferro!

-Forgive me -What's done is done but I am

-Sorry -Smile at me and I'll give you a

-Rose -Upon this friendship a new peace is

-Laid -'Cause I know what I'm like and I ask you

-Forgive me -What's done is done but I am

-Sorry -Smile at me and I'll give you a

-Rose -Upon this friendship a new peace is

-Laid -Forgive me...

The first fans started to arrive.

I just wanted to go home after performing.

I didn't have energy, 'cause I was eating little to nothing,

but when you're 21, you try to live with that.

Every morning I used to put on a body which wasn't mine.

It was like I was wearing a costume, I dressed up as a thin boy.

The pain and the hunger made it impossible for me

to enjoy those 40 kilos I had lost.

I acted and thought always like a fat guy.

-Are you in a relationship? -I'm free! Like the sun, like the air.

Then, the big problem arose.

As if my relationship with food and my body wasn't enough.

My producers looked at me and told me that at the record company

people were saying that I was gay, and that that was an issue.

They thought the same way abroad, too, and they wanted to erase that issue.

What's up?

"Why don't you have a girlfriend, so some paparazzi can take photos of you two?"

I was shocked, because the problem wasn't just mine anymore.

At my French record company, they even hired a stylist

who used to wait for me at the airport in Paris,

he took me to the bathroom

and gave me more masculine clothes.

I decided not to lie about girlfriends.

I continued to prepare my album.

At dark

Nights

When there's no time, there's no space

And nobody will ever understand

You can

Stay, because it hurts

It hurts, it hurts so much Without, without you...

In 2004, there was a moment which really struck me,

when he won the MTV Awards in Rome.

FABRIZIO GIANNINI TIZIANO FERRO'S MANAGER

That was a great, wonderful moment, an unforgettable night. In Rome, his city.

After his performance, we were all at the hotel, happy,

but he looked weird.

I couldn't understand why, but he was sad.

I went to talk to him, he burst into tears and told me,

"I can't do it anymore.

"I can't. This job is stressing me out."

He worked a lot, was tired, but there was

something which made him sad.

I never drank during my youth. It's crazy,

I was basically the perfect teenager. I didn't smoke, I didn't...

I didn't smoke marijuana,

my friends used to get drunk and I didn't even drink beer.

But during my first tour...

I was really happy, but I felt completely disconnected

from my band and everything going on.

Like a drop in the ocean.

One night, I remember my band convinced me to drink.

And... And I never stopped since then.

I always used to drink alone.

I went to pubs, bars, clubs, every day.

I went to nightclubs just because I could drink until late there.

I was there, in my bubble, vacuum-sealed. Or I stayed home,

with my bottle and the music, looking in the mirror.

Alcohol gave me the strength not to think about the pain or the sadness.

But it also gave me the insanity which made me

wanna die more and more often, even though I was scared of it.

Looking back, I realize I screwed up a lot.

Because of alcohol I lost job opportunities, I lost friends,

I lost my dignity, I lost my health.

I could have lost even more of it.

I still have the... The blood test during my worst moment,

when transaminases suggested that, well, my liver wasn't okay.

But it didn't stop me, the answer was always, "I'll be in control."

I was an alcoholic.

One day, he told me, "Fabrizio, I need to talk to you, alone."