I Don't Feel at Home in This World Anymore

The AR-15 used in the incident was legally registered.

- - The governor called this mass shooting

“a horrific but ultimately unpreventable tragedy.”

Up next, the Weekend Movie Minute with C.J. Doons.

Just look at those goddamn monkeys.

Why don't we turn this off, huh?

The way they shoved this country

right down the fuckin' stinker.

Keep your gigantic monkey dick

out of my good pussy.

Did...?

Did she have any last words?

Are you reading the Elsewhere Saga?

Yeah.

Yeah, I'm reading King of the Hidden Dark.

- Book two. Yeah. - Yeah.

I read those a while ago.

- My God. - Yeah.

I'm... at the bit...

It's like right before, um, the Battle of the...

The Tanhauser Gate.

- Yeah, yeah, yeah. - I know. Yeah.

- It's... really intense. - God.

I just... Yeah.

It's so intense. I'm just, like, the whole time I feel like...

I know.

“Archers, to me!”

- Yeah. - Yes!

- It's so good. - It's so fucking good.

Yeah.

It's crazy.

You know her real father is actually the war mage.

Yeah.

Ca...? Captain Borgo?

He's Lady Kieran's real father, yeah.

- Fuck. - When I read that, I was like,

“What the fuck?”

- Yeah. - It's coming up. You'll see.

Thank you.

Clues were all there, if you think about it, but...

Have a good night.

Un-fucking-believable.

The fuck?

Fuck.

Various prescription medications,

a laptop computer

and then the silverware in here.

Anything else?

Not-Not that I can see.

But, um...

the silver was my grandma's.

Were they painkillers?

What? Sorry.

Uh, the medications.

Uh, no, it was, um...

clonazepam

and, um, Lexapro.

Uh, you try one of those, um...

location apps?

Yeah, I tried that, but the laptop's turned off.

Oh, well, they'll probably wipe it anyway, unless they're morons.

- Huh. - You have a hide-a-key?

One of those little fake rock thingies?

I don't, no.

Okay.

Uh,

you leave that unlocked when you go out?

No, not usually. No.

But you did today.

I... I don't remember.

I mean, I...

- I'm just saying that... - I think I locked it.

Wasn't a forced entry though.

So...

So, uh...

what should I do now?

Uh, about what?

I mean...

do you call me or...?

Oh. Yeah.

If anything is recovered, someone will be in contact.

Your case number's on that form, if you have renter's insurance.

But...

you're gonna look, right?

Miss, uh, we will do everything we're able to.

In the meantime, I suggest you pay a little closer attention

to your home security.

Don't give 'em an opening.

Okay.

- - Okay, thank you.

Hey.

I'm not bothering you, am I?

It's the... violation, man.

The stuff...

that's replaceable.

I...

Well, the silver's not, but...

The thing that really hurts, you know, is the fucking violation.

I mean, these people...

were inside my house.

I'm sorry.

All right.

“Rays from some stars are thousands of years old before they reach your eyes.

Human bodies are made of dust and gases from inside of stars.

The universe is 14 billion years old.

No one knows what came before.

No one knows how big the universe actually is.

It...

It could be infinite.”

- Jesus. - Mom!

- I'm sorry. - She's fine. Don't worry about it.

She's just, you know, five and not used to talking about death yet.

I'm so sorry.

A fucked-up thing happened to you. You're allowed to be upset.

Patient died today.

I was in the room.

Oh.

She was special, huh?

No.

She sucked.

- Huh. - Oh, yeah.

She was a real shithead.

But it doesn't matter.

They'll roll her out...

and she'll become smoke.

Just...

carbon.

My grandma Sally, that was her silver that they stole, you know?

Yeah.

She literally breathed life into people who'd been exploded.

- She was a war nurse. - Yeah, I remember.

Spent her retirement bringing dinner to folks with cancer.

And then she had a stroke...

and she was just... just carbon too.

And now I'm the only one who remembers any of that,

and pretty soon...

I'll just be carbon.

So none of it matters.

It does matter. She did happen, so...

The way people treat each other

is just...

They're disgusting. They're disgusting.

The-The fucking...

taking.

- Do you know what I mean? - Yeah, but, Ruthie, you gotta stop.

- Fucking taking. Mine, mine. - Ruthie. Ruthie, Ruthie.

- Fuck you. - Ruthie, stop, stop, stop. Stop.

You're gonna make yourself sick.

You've got it better than a lot of people. You know that, right?

But everyone...

is an asshole.

No, not everyone.

- Yes, and dildos. Yes. - That's not true.

- That is not true. - Fuck-faces.

Ruthie.

So what? So what?

It's just a sneeze. It's just, uh...

chemistry and math and...

Uh, so what?

Sweetie, come on.

Sometimes I feel like I'm...

like, underneath a whirlpool and...

Like I can't even breathe.

- Like I'm just... -

Internet date?

Uh, no, Ruthie's house got robbed.

What?

That's terrible.

- Do you mind if I sleep here? - Oh, my God, of course.

Dan will make up the couch.

Right, honey?

- -

Oh.

Aw. Is this me?

Mm-hmm.

Is it a dragon?

Stegosaurus.

I fuckin' love it.

You've been shitting in my yard.

I have not.

Your dog.

Okay? I saw you.

There is a sign there. It says “no shitting.”

- It says that? - It's a...