Tear This Heart Out (Arráncame la Vida)

That year, many things happened in Mexico

For one, I met Andres in one of the cafes under the arches

Where else?

In Puebla everything happened in the arches

From courtships to assassinations as if no other place existed

Aren't they a bunch of assholes?

Who?

Say yes. I can see in your face you agree

Yes, but who are you talking about?

All these people, who else?

Of course I agreed

For me "all these people" were the ones from Puebla

those who acted as though they owned the city

Not us, the children of a campesino

who stopped milking cows because he'd learned to make cheese

Not him, Andres Ascencio who became a general

through luck and every brand of cunning short of being born

into a name with a coat of arms

That man scares me, Catalina

What are you scared of?

I don't know. He is too old

Yes, but I like the way he stares

And I like his hands

Later, an explosion and heavy gunfire confirmed

what I had told them all along

General Rosas ordered us to flee

and he ordered us to flee

It was stupid!

So I did something I would never forgive from a subordinate

I gave a counterorder

And we charged against the Federales at full gallop

There were only eighteen of us...

In the blink of an eye, he won us over

Even my father accepted him despite the horrible things

we heard about him

That he had many women was a criminal and a madman

That we would regret it

And we did regret it but that was many years later

At the time I was fifteen

and dying for things to start happening to me

TEAR THIS HEART OUT

There is a beautiful beach called "Catalina"

Have you ever been there?

No, I've never seen the ocean

What is it like?

It's black at night

Clear during the day

It's never still. Like you

"Dear Mama and Papa, don't worry I've gone to see the ocean"

The General said he wanted to take me to see the ocean

Actually, I went to get the fright of my life

I had seen bulls mount cows but the erect cock of

a grown man was different

What are you afraid of? Nothing

Then why are you staring at me like that?

I'm not sure that will fit in me

Of course it will, girl

You just let yourself go

No one's going to eat you if you don't want to

Look, you're nice and wet

You don't feel anything

Why don't you feel something?

I did feel something

But at the end I didn't get it

But it's the end that matters

Why don't you teach me?

Teach you what?

well, to feel

That's not something someone can teach you. You learn

Come on

They are fucking bastards

They think Pallares is going to take the governorship

from me with speeches

He's an idiot

He must not be such an idiot if you're so worried about him

Of course he's an idiot!

And why are you butting in?

And who asked your opinion?

You've been talking about it for four days

I've had enough time to form an opinion

Listen to our little senorita!

She doesn't know how babies are made but now she wants to tell generals

what to do

Are you all right? Yes, I'm fine

Go to sleep

My parents welcomed me back without question or comment

They were not secure about their future and had five children

So they decided to celebrate that the ocean was so beautiful

and the General so kind that he took me to see it

What do you want? I want know how to feel

No one comes here for that

You are too young

I don't want your mother to come complaining to me later

Get out

So you don't feel, either? What?

Well, do you?

I only wish I'd had the guts to ask that question

Look, we have a little thing here

You feel with that

Pull your skirt up

We call it "the bell"

But it must have many other names

When you're with someone think of it as the center of your body

Think that all good things come from right there

How you think with it, hear with it and see with it

Forget that you have a head and arms

Put yourself there

And see if you don't feel something

Cati, what's wrong with you?

And yes. Everything was there

Why haven't we seen Don Andres lately?

He's busy trying to beat General Pallares

According to El Sol

Aguirre and the Governor support Pallares

Did you have a fight?

From your home to mine Cielito Lindo

there's but a step...

Take that step, Cielito Lindo

don't make me beg

Are your parents home?

Tell them I've come to get all of you so we can go get married

Who?

Me and you, but we have to take the others

You haven't even asked me if I want to marry you

Who do you think you are?

What do you mean who do I think I am?

I think I'm me, Andres Ascencio

Stop arguing and get in the car

Wake up, Gordo, sign

That's what you're here for

Or did you think you were here just to eat my tamales?

No, no, write "De Ascencio", senora

Did you write "De Guzman"?

No, child, that's not how it works

I protect you, not you me

You become part of my family

You become mine

Yours?

Don't ever tell me that no one in your family put on airs at our wedding

Chino, tamales for everyone

Red tamales, sweet tamales green tamales

And hot chocolate for everybody

I want an orangejuice

No, no. Don't upset things

You'll have tamales and hot chocolate like everyone else

I can't have breakfast withoutjuice

What you need is a good war

Then learn to eat breakfast withoutjuice

Where do you get you can always havejuice?

Papa, tell him that I havejuice in the mornings

Bring the girls her orangejuice

All right, have yourjuice

You'd think you were a gringa

Don't think you'll always get what you want

Life with a military man isn't easy

Start learning that

And you, Don Marcos

remember she is not your little girl anymore

and that at this table I have the say

Well, congratulations. Thank you, compadre

Congratulations my darling

Congratulations, Cati

All right, lazybones

What are you doing there pretending you can think?

I'll be waiting for you downstairs

I'm counting to three hundred and then I'm leaving

One, two, three, four

Two hundred ninety one two hundred ninety two

two hundred ninety three

two hundred ninety four

two hundred ninety five

two hundred ninety seven

two hundred ninety eight

two hundred ninety nine

What a slowpoke!

Good morning, Boss

How about a little race?

Alright

You are beating your butt against the saddle

Stand on the stirrups when your horse runs

I'm trying

You don't know how to ride

You do not know how to cook

and you did not know how to fuck

What have you been doing all these years?

Just playing

But I can learn, you will see

Put everything in the mortar

Like this, see?

Is it true there is a moment when you should close your eyes

and pray a Hall Mary?

If you're all as ignorant about everything

as you are about this, I don't know how you'll ever get married

We cooked it together

You mean the Munoz sisters did it together

Sir, at your command

General we have an arrest warrant against you

signed by the region's commander

You are removed from your post and under thejurisdiction

of a civil court