Viva La Vida (我们一起摇太阳)

My name is Ling Min.

Ling means soaring, Min means agile.

I am a patient with uremia.

In three months, 12 days five hours and 33 minutes

I will turn 25 years old.

I am not being sentimental.

I have been counting the seconds ever since I got sick.

In the first six months,

I was trying to figure out the cause of my kidney failure.

Was it due to holding in urine, eating too much salt,

or irregular sleep patterns?

Then I got tired of thinking about this.

My doctor told me that

my renal tubules had already undergone fibrosis.

To make it clearer he pointed at the kidneys

on the diagram of human organs, saying...

Yours are like two loofahs hanging there.

Driven by the strong desire to live,

I started living a delicate and self-disciplined life.

Taking medicines punctually,

drinking water meticulously, eating food carefully.

To control my salt intake,

I quit my favorite kimchi and Laoganma sauce.

To control my potassium intake,

I weigh and calculate the potassium amount in every meal.

To control my phosphorus intake,

I blanch every single piece of meat before eating it.

Blanching makes it as dry as playdough and hard to swallow,

but it's still better than insomnia, edema, whole-body itching

caused by hyperphosphatemia.

In addition to these, my blood pressure, heart rate

and tiny amount of urine

also need to be monitored every single moment.

If the fluctuation of any indicator is overlooked,

my life might be taken away.

My pulse rate is 64 beats per minute.

What's more,

dialysis machines take over the work of my two kidneys

helping me filter out toxins from my blood regularly.

So I am living a life with endless dialysis.

Three times every week, four hours every time.

- Is there any bleeding in your body? - No.

- Is the color of the stool normal? - Normal.

- What's your name, please? - Ling Min.

Puncture, administer low molecular weight heparin sodium

draw blood, secure the circuit, fix the tubing.

The coming four hours will be a boring and empty wait.

After two years of personal experience I have found that dialysis and longing

are both profound things.

Sometimes there is a sudden rise in blood pressure

causing a splitting headache.

At other times, when the blood pressure drops

the machine has to be immediately discontinued.

- Sir, let me help you... - Nurse!

Too much dialysis, leg cramps happen every day.

Too little, water is retained in the body.

Even normal walking causes shortness of breath.

In order to spare myself some trouble,

I control my weight like someone with obsessive-compulsive disorder.

Authentication successful.

Because the calculation of dehydration is based on body weight,

even the slightest deviation could potentially trigger a storm.

Weight increased by 2.1 today. I will remove 2.4 units of water for you.

Yesterday, I had the 700th needle stuck into my left arm

while Messi scored his 700th goal in his club career.

It's funny saying this, my ex-boyfriend was a super football fan.

He once solemnly promised me that

he would marry me when Messi scored his 700th goal.

However, on the early morning

that Messi scored his 636th goal for Barcelona,

he left without a word.

Ridiculously,

he cut off my bangs and took them away while I was asleep,

claiming them as a keepsake.

What's even more absurd is that

when I woke up in the morning and looked at myself in the mirror

my first reaction was:

at least my weight must have dropped by 0.1 grams.

Off topic.

After all this talking

I just want everyone to know that I'm not a scammer.

These are my medical records, blood type and examination reports.

Once the kidney transplant is done

I can live a normal life like everyone else.

But I've been waiting in line

for a kidney donor at three different hospitals

for over two years.

There's been no news at all.

It is said that the average waiting time is typically eight to nine years.

I am still young, with enough time to wait.

But I've truly had enough of living through these days,

relying on dialysis three times a week

to barely survive,

and just an extra sip of water or a bite of meat

making me dizzy and nauseous.

Although uremia is not a terminal illness

its complications can be life-threatening.

Two days ago, a fellow patient around my age passed away

because of the overindulgence of eating a few bites of banana,

leading to heart failure.

Date of death is February 18, 2023.

I don't want to wait like this anymore.

I'm afraid I might not make it before a kidney becomes available.

That's why I'm recording this video to find a partner.

Of course, you can also see it as searching for a kidney.

If someone in the tumor group is a match for me

and is willing to donate one kidney to me

I'm willing to marry you,

accompany you, and fight against illness together.

If one day you

pass away,

I will accept your renal transplant, go on living

as your wife

taking care of your family, your parents.

I know it sounds selfish.

But to live,

please forgive my bluntness and crudeness.

- Mom! - Who are you talking to？

These vegetables bought last week are not fresh anymore.

- Don't forget to eat them soon. - Okay.

The onions are up top

and a chunk of beef is frozen down there. Cook it soon.

- It's been a while. - Mom, don't move.

Yan Song will be there soon and the ambulance has been called.

Was it telepathy?

Your dad insisted on checking the monitor at this late hour

and found your grandma lying on the floor motionless.

We were so scared. She kept yelling that her legs hurt

so they're probably broken.

Try not to fall asleep.

The floor is too cold. Hold on for a while.

Dad! Grandma!

Grandma!

She is tired. Perhaps she drifted off to sleep.

No worries. Your Uncle Xu is on his way.

Your mother and I also bought high-speed train tickets for tomorrow morning.

We will arrive there in a few hours.

By the way, come with me.

These two burners are both acting up.

You need to press and hold for three seconds

listen for a hissing sound, and then ignite.

- Or else they won't light up. - Okay.

I'm just worried that you can't start a fire

and then you'll miss out on a meal.

- Plus, you can't have takeout. - Don't worry, Dad.

- Dad. - Ling!

Ling, quick, quick!

Yan Song is on the phone. Maybe he has arrived.

Yan Song, you've arrived.

The password is 556655#.

Here are some pork buns I made tonight.

Take a few to Jiahui tomorrow. She loves them.

She's currently on a wedding diet, avoiding carbs.

She talked about dieting when she last visited.

- But still ended up eating quite a few. - Well, you were so persuasive.

How could she refuse?

You always try to argue with me. Thanks to her giving you some work

you finally have income now.

Even the best relationships need maintenance.

That is how society is.

Don't forget to bring it tomorrow morning. Go to bed early.

Okay. I'll send you a photo.

I don't want to wait like this anymore.

I'm afraid I might not make it before a kidney becomes available.

That's why I'm recording this video to find a partner.

Of course, you can also see it as searching for a kidney.

If someone in the tumor group is a match for me...

One, two, three, four. Five, six, seven, eight.

Two, two, three, four. Five, six, seven, eight.

Three, two, three, four. Five, six, seven, eight.

Four, two, three, four. Five, six, seven.

End pose. Bride and groom, a bit closer, a bit cuter.

Raise your hands a bit higher. Look ahead. Smile.

Hold that pose.

- How are you? Tired? - I am all right.

Jia Hui, I always seem out of sync with you all.

Maybe I shouldn't get involved.

No way. You have to be in the bridesmaid group.

How about I talk to the teacher to make the movements simpler?

All right then.

I've sent you the theme for next month's WeChat official account.

It's about food.

I've been busy preparing for the wedding recently

and we'll be going on our honeymoon afterward.

You'll be the only one handling this post.

I'll give you an additional 500 yuan.

Thank you, boss.

Thank you.

My dear mother made these buns.

I told her you were on a diet. But she didn't listen

and insisted on me bringing her heavy load of love to you.

No worries.

If I can't finish them he can help out.

By the way

these sleeves are for you.

I saw them when I was trying on wedding dresses.

They suit you.

Remember to wear them at the wedding.

No problem.

Three, two, three, four...