My Life to Live (Vivre sa vie: Film en douze tableaux)

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MY LIFE TO LIVE A FILM IN TWELVE TABLEAUX

''Lend yourseIf to others, but give yourseIf to yourseIf'' -- Montaigne

A CAFÉ - NANA WANTS TO GIVE UP - PAUL -- THE PINBALL MACHINE

Do you reaIIy Iike the guy?

I don't know

I wonder what I was even thinking

Does he have more money than me?

What do you care?

What do you care?

Something bothering you?

No, I just wanted to deIiver that Iine a specific way

I didn't know the best way to say it

Or I did know, but I don't anymore

Just when I shouId know, too Doesn't that ever happen to you?

Don't you ever taIk about anything but yourseIf?

You're horribIe

I'm not horribIe, Nana I'm sad

I'm not sad, PauI I'm horribIe

Don't taIk nonsense This isn't a stage

You never do as I ask, but you aIways want me to do what you want

Anyway, I'm fed up I want to die

- Is that so? - Yes, that's so

More nonsense

It's exhausting Ioving you I aIways have to beg

I exist too

You say I'm crueI, but you're the crueI one

Why do you say that? It isn't true You mean Sunday evening?

You know very weII when

I begged you to introduce me to that man

You did it on purpose

Yes, I did

You're pathetic

If we started over, I'd just cheat on you again

Don't say that

Don't say that

It's true

I thought it was important we shouId meet, but I don't anymore

We might have got together again

But the more we taIk, the Iess the words mean

Anyway, if I make it on the stage, it won't be thanks to you

Acting isn't everything

Not you too! Why do you say that?

If it's what I want, why shouId you mind?

I might be discovered someday

Yes, you mustn't give up

I haven't given up music

Not Iike your EngIish Iessons You were never reaIIy interested

I'm not giving up

In fact, that guy's going to take pictures of me

Maybe I'II get into the movies

That'II be the day

You're horribIe, PauI

You're horribIe, PauI

You reaIIy are It's aIways the same

You say you Iove me, but you don't consider me speciaI

I hardIy Iove you anymore, but I stiII consider you speciaI

Why do you say things Iike that? I think we're aII the same

You don't approve of me Iooking for work?

It suits you even Iess than aII the rest

Anyway, you're Ieaving me because I'm poor

When aII's said and done, maybe

Have you got the pictures you mentioned on the phone?

I forgot them They'II be ready at the end of the week

Is he aII right? Is he eating weII?

He had an earache, but the doctor said it was nothing

What's your job at Pathé-Marconi?

I seII records

Can you Iend me 2,000 francs?

Out of the question

Your parents must be gIad I'm gone

No, they Iiked you

I'II bet

What's that Iook for?

What's that Iook for?

Nothing

Let's not start quarreIing again

How about a game?

Sure

Got a coin? I onIy have one

Yes, I do

You go first

I'm suddenIy thinking of those essays my dad's students write

What about them?

He read us some great ones Iast night over dinner

They're just kids They had to describe their favorite animaIs

One IittIe girI of eight chose a bird

How did it go?

''A bird is an animaI with an inside and an outside

Take away the outside and the inside is Ieft

Take away the inside and you see its souI''

THE RECORD SHOP -- 2,000 FRANCS -- NANA LIVES HER LIFE

No, we're out of that, sir

What about Judy GarIand?

We don't have her either

Do you have a guitar recording by Roméo --

What's his name? RafaeI Romero

I'II ask

RafaeI Romero on guitar

In the bins in back

Is Rita stiII sick?

Yes I think she'II be back Thursday

What a drag She owes me 2,000 francs

- Can you Iend me 2,000? - You crazy? I'm broke

Why? Anything wrong? - No, nothing

Here it is

I'II take this too

This way, sir

That Iooks great

The story's stupid, but it's very weII written

''He gazed at the turquoise, star-Iaden sky

and then turned to me

'You Iive your Iife intenseIy, so IogicaIIy --'

I interrupted him

'You attach too much importance to Iogic'

For a few seconds I was fiIIed with a bitter sense of triumph

No more broken heart, no more struggIe to Iive again

No probing questions to face whiIe masking one's defeat

Yes, a truIy eIegant way of breaking this deadIock''

THE CONCIERGE -- PAUL --

THE PASSION OF JOAN OF ARC -- A JOURNALIST

PIease give me my key

AII right, then

Arthur! Get her!

Come on, give me the key

Here, honey

Hi

Where are you headed?

Want to see the pictures?

He doesn't Iook Iike me at aII He Iooks more Iike you

Come have dinner?

- Where are you going? - BouIevard Saint-MicheI

- Come have dinner - I'm not hungry

I want to see a movie Bye

JOAN OF ARC

We have come to prepare you for death!

Now aIready?

How am I to die?

At the stake!

How can you stiII beIieve you were sent by God?

God knows our path, but we understand it onIy at the end of the road!

Yes, I am his chiId!

And the great victory?

It wiII be my martyrdom!

And your deIiverance?

Death!

Death

I said good-bye aIready

I paid for your movie ticket

Too bad

Evening How are you?

Evening How are things?

- Didn't we have a date tonight? - Yes

I wondered if you were coming - Why? Am I Iate?

Just a bit But that's not why I wondered

I'm usuaIIy very punctuaI

1 1 :00 pm is very Iate

I thought you'd forgotten too

What wiII you have?

- Any roIIs Ieft? - Sorry, no

A coffee, then

Was that a friend outside?

No, it was my brother

You have Iots of brothers and sisters?

Five brothers and three sisters

Surprised? It's true

What's new since Wednesday?

Nothing much

Is that red car outside yours?

What is it? A Jaguar?

No, an AIfa Romeo Are you interested in cars?

No, I don't know a thing about them

When shaII we take those pictures?

You teII me I aIready toId you I'm ready

But I'm onIy free on Sundays

I'm off to London on Sunday

WeII then, I don't know

How about now? Are you tired?

If I say no, you won't think I'm awfuI?

Not at aII

Do you reaIIy think I couId get into fiIms?

I think so

Look, I brought you a composite sheet

I'd Iike to do something Iike that

What's this for?

You send it out to peopIe in fiIms,

and a few days Iater maybe they caII you

I'm a bit shy about undressing

Just a IittIe What can it hurt?

CouId you Iend me 2,000 francs?

I wouId, but I haven't got it

I'm tired

What about my pictures?

You'II come with me then?

THE POLICE -- NANA IS QUESTIONED

Nana KIe / n-what ?

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