The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives

So, I called you guys here

'cause I feel like we all found out about this Shinia stuff at separate times.

What is it?

He hooked up with Jenna and basically almost had sex with her,

like, a couple of weeks ago.

Shut the hell up!

Jenna is the girl that Dakota lied about early on in their relationship.

He was like texting me all day this day he came over to your house.

And he's saying, "Thank you for letting me crash at your house."

And he came over that night to my house

and spent the night and fucked me, so, yeah.

And on top of that, at the pickleball tournament,

Shinia was pouring her heart out to Taylor,

and then, that same night, Shinia goes and sleeps with Taylor's baby daddy.

-Update me. -He got back with his wife.

This is why I can't trust people-- any-- anybody.

Oh, gosh. This is so bad.

If this comes out, it's all gon-- Like, I just feel like it's gonna spiral.

And I also think Dakota wants everything to come out.

He does.

Once again, I'm caught in the middle between two friends

and betrayal going on there.

I have known Shinia for nearly a decade.

Truly, like a ride-or-die type of friendship.

Was this a massive lapse in judgment for her? Absolutely.

But at the end of the day, even though I don't agree with her,

I obviously love and care for her.

She's gonna find out. There's no way she's not.

-Either he's gonna tell her, or we are. - You guys, you guys,

we have your party tomorrow, and we're with her.

How is it not coming out? Like--

I think the truth will always come out.

And I just feel like if we can possibly cushion her finding out,

I think it possibly could be better.

I think the best person coming from is Shinia for sure.

-I'm actually scared for Shinia. - I am too.

I'm scared for her. She's gonna get eaten up.

Is Shinia going to Sinner Sunday?

- Is she invited? -I mean, I don't know.

I didn't invite her 'cause I'm not--

- Would she go now that-- -Would that be the time to tell Taylor?

It might be the time.

I think it's a pro to do it while people are around,

'cause then she won't overreact.

-Oh, true. -Oh, yeah.

That actually might be a good idea.

Then we can also explain why we didn't tell her.

Taylor's still in Colorado, but she's coming home soon.

So, with The Bachelorette coming up,

Mayci's Sinner Sunday event, and the main title shoot,

to be honest, this news could really shake her up,

and we have to handle it the right way.

Miranda, you need to ask her if she'll come and tell her tomorrow.

Well, since-- When she called me this morning,

she's like, "I wanna tell Taylor. I feel like she should know."

I was like, "I gotta get going because

"I need to stop by Home Depot and get a bigger shovel

"so I can get a head start on both of your fucking graves.

"You're a dead man, both of you.

You're dead, and there's nothing I can do to save you."

I feel like the scooter's more work than a bike.

Well, yeah, it's easier to carry home too when you're tired.

Well, you don't carry it home.

You say, "You brought it, you're gonna carry it home."

They don't listen to me.

I just took this trip to Colorado.

It was healing overall,

helped my mother and I in our relationship.

I think we came back to, like, family and love.

And it's just really giving each other that grace before The Bachelorette

so I can actually go out there and not choose someone that's not for me,

sabotage it, you know?

I really think it'll be good for me.

Obviously, I got married, jumped into--

The first guy I went out with,

I ended up being in a relationship with, had a baby with.

It's like, I think it's gonna be such a cool experience...

-Yeah. Yeah. -...regardless of the outcome.

Obviously, fingers crossed, it's always good

and, like, you meet your person,

but if not, it could teach you a lot of learning lessons too.

I think it's gonna be something that is gonna change your life.

After all-- everything that you've been through

and all the pain and suffering that you've been through,

I think it's something that you deserve.

I-- I don't know. I'm like, "Why do I get this opportunity

"out of, like, any-- like, all the girls that want this?

Like, I come with so much baggage. Like, who's gonna want me?"

'Cause I do feel, like, a lot of guilt all the time for that.

Just because you come with some baggage--

Some?

You do have, like, a lot of amazing qualities,

and someone's gonna see that, and they're gonna want that.

Look at all the people that follow her.

Millions of followers don't follow you because you're this horrible person.

Like, you need to give yourself credit.

When somebody is looking for love

-and they're looking for that wife... -Mm-hmm.

...to-- to me, I would think that they-- that's what they're looking for.

-That quality of a mother. - Yeah.

And to me, you're the best mom.

- There are good guys out there. -Yeah.

-They're not like Mr. D-Bag. -They're not all horrible. I know.

Sometimes you have to go through things,

and things happen for a reason, for you to end up somewhere much higher.

- Mm-hmm. -Yeah.

I think it's time for you to choose, Taylor.

Yeah.

Do I look exhausted to you?

Yes, you look very exhausted.

I've been rehearsing nonstop with Dancing with the Stars

and working my ass off.

And I also have to fly this week to Utah for our main title shoot.

So it's nice that Zac and I get to decompress, catch up,

and spend time together.

It does feel really good in here.

How are you feeling about the contestants and the whole-- everyone?

Oh, I love the cast.

The cast is awesome.

I feel like I've equally gotten close to everyone.

The pros have been so helpful.

Yeah, it's been awesome.

How do you feel like you-- like, your relationship with Whitney's improved,

or where do you feel like that's at?

No, if anything, I feel like we've got-- we've become more distant.

I have like 30 minutes.

-Okay. - Then I have to leave again.

All right, no problem.

- - Well, how was your day?

I just had a really bad camera block day.

Like, it was a horrible day.

And Mark and I were talking in the hallway,

I was just letting out all my emotions, and Jen walked out

and was like, "Hey, are people talking shit about you on social media?"

I'm like, "That's not why I'm crying. But, thanks?"

Oh, man.

I did not think I was even gonna be making it

this far through the competition, which is crazy.

But it can be very hard

because you're seeing the comments and stuff online.

For me, it can be very emotionally taxing.

I just want you to say, "Hey, like, I'm here for you."

- What do you need? Yeah. -"What can-- What can I do?"

Her hyping me up in the background saying, "Vote for Jen,"

-when she never reaches out, is never-- - Well, it's rude that she doesn't...

-call you or text you all week... - Yes.

...and then, when the cameras are on and millions of people are watching,

suddenly, she's your-- your biggest fan.

- That-- That bothers me. - It just--

I was expecting that our friendship was gonna grow through this process,

but we haven't talked to each other throughout Dancing with the Stars.

Like, there hasn't really been any relationship.

I mean, we barely talk.

I don't know if I told you this,

but when I went out and took the kids out with Conner,

I don't know if you've heard, but Whitney got offered...

a spot on Broadway.

Yeah, on Chicago, I think, to be the-- the main character,

like, the leading role.

So, I think she's planning on moving out there come January.

Dang! If she can't be the main character of MomTok,

she'll be the main character for Broadway. It's perfect.

- Hey. -Hi. What's up?

Just got done working out.

Nice. You wanna help me?

Yes.

I don't realize until I see you next to the bedding

that this is really pink.

Yeah, it's pretty pink.

I feel like the LDS upbringing I had

does make it a lot easier to sweep things under the rug

and just pretend that things are good when they're not.

Jordan and I are still struggling a bit,

but I don't think I'm ready to take the next step

of, like, filing for divorce at this point.

But I definitely wonder, "Okay, what are the repercussions?

I have to be smart about this for my kids and my future and my business."

Well, LADYWORLD was fun. I'm sad you weren't there.

Oh, but I didn't tell you what they announced me as.

When they announced me and I came out, she said, "Jessi Nasty-kaura."

That's hilarious.

It's funny but it's also, like, hard for me

'cause I feel like, in this industry,

having a name that's easy, like, makes sense.

Like, Taylor Paul, that rolls off your tongue.

You remember it.

Yeah, when Taylor gets married, she'll change her name.

No. That's her ex-husband's last name.