Flowerman

My name is Sarah.

I have two children Michael & Katrina.

I also have a husband Andrew.

And I love them all.

In fact I love them so much I would

die for any one of them, a hundred times over.

We may look like a normal loving family,

but are we are not.

Something happened that made us far from normal.

Something that made apart from the real world.

Something that tore deep into our souls.

Of course I never thought I would really have to give my life for them.

You never do. But I lost something else.

Like my soul died while my body lived on.

I lost something I had always taken for granted.

Something that transcends language.

I really hope that by writing this story

I can try and make sense of it.

And maybe, just maybe help you understand it a little.

I am Sarah.

And this is my story.

When are we having another baby?

Another baby? Phew, I don't know.

- Well it has to be a boy. - Oh does it now?

No it doesn't it has to be a girl.

It has to be a boy.

- Girl. - Boy.

We can't help what we have.

We could have twins, a girl and a boy.

That would be good.

Do you really want another brother or sister?

I love you two so much!

I will have a word with you Dad tonight, Shall I?

I will always be there for you two. You know that don't you?

Can we make the cakes today?

- Morning. - Ah the cat.

Yes we are making the cakes.

- What are you two like? - Who needs an alarm clock!

Morning gorgeous!

I know what you are going to say.

- Can I do it. -"Can I do it".

Ah! Thank you.

You promise to be gentle?

Yes.

Ah look it's swimming in here!

Come on that's enough, come on you have washed your hands.

If you want to make the cakes now stop it.

Look I made a smiley face,

I'm done with all the cakes.

You're done?

- Yes. - Do you want some sprinkles on?

Your's is nice Katrina.

Thanks.

Put some in your hand

and sprinkle it on.

Hi Amanda.

- Hello - Hello.

I'm returning that favour.

Oh bless you!

Are these for me?

Oh they're gorgeous thank you.

You're welcome. Katrina and Michael helped.

Did they? Wow they're great.

Thank you sweetheart.

They are very special cakes aren't they Mummy?

Special why are they special?

Because Daddy said he would

take us all to Durham for making them.

-Oh Wow! - Yes he did.

He's on a promise.

If I eat one do you think I will be able to come too?

Yes.

Do you? We can go and ask him because he is coming along the road now.

Oh here's Daddy!

Oh Hiya.

How's my little girl?

- Fine. - You alright?

There are no words so listen to my song.

How can you that woman love?

Why not love me and our child?

We both deserve you here and now.

Our warmth and our love defiled.

I feel despair and cry such stifled sounds.

My life hangs by . . . (music).

What that? I'm not watching this.

Is that you again?

It is I can tell by your face.

Turn that back over now. I know what you are doing.

How?

How! I just know it.

Have you got the remote control over there?

You insult me!

Sarah tell him!

let Daddy have it. You know how he can't cope if someone else has got the remote.

Katrina get that remote off your brother.

Careful!

Clever girl. Thank you.

Come on it's bedtime anyway you two.

And as for you I'm going to buy you a remote

for your birthday as you are just a big kid!

Night night.

Come on you two. You're going to be late!

There you go babe.

Are you starting at ten this morning?

Yeah,just gives me enough time to get the kids to school.

Katrina! Michael! Come on your breakfast is ready!

Good morning. It's about time!

Now at last. Morning sleepy head!

You are!

There you go darling.

Good luck at football tonight Michael.

See you later. Have a good game.

Make sure you are not late.

See you later.

- Bye darling. - Goodbye baby.

Late again.

Love you!

Always full of excuses Andrew Isn't it?

And she just laps it up every single time.

I am starving and I'm bored.

Where the hell are they?

I just want to hit the road and making some money.

I saw Jenny's car she's here.

She's here? And Andrew?

As if he is going to make it on time!

Yea, yeah true. Teacher's pet.

I kinda noticed that as well.

He kinda gets away with more than anyone else does.

If that was us we would be out on our arse.

No questions asked.

Mam Dad's forgotten is jacket.

Good girl Katrina.

He would forget his head it it wasn't screwed on.

Ah, thank you. Bye.

What would you do without me eh?

Thanks!

Good morning boss.

Good morning Roger.

Okay is everybody else up there?

I hope nobody is late mind?

Sam's up there, the only person

who obviously is late is Andrew again.

Oh well never mind we can start with out him.

- Really? - Come on let's go.

Yes.

I want to talk about those new products anyway.

Oh what, the new water heating system?

- Yeah. - Brilliant.

Right okay. Now I know it is late for the quarterly review.

But your figures have been okay so,

today we have to go over the new product.

Right.

Ah, is this the new heating system?

Yes it's the heat exchange system with the thermal block.

Where's Andrew?

Oh I hate repeating myself.

Sam do you know where he is?

No.

Look I'll text him.

Look do you know what it is?

Time is money can we just crack on with this?

He is always late. Same thing all the time.

Well tell him he going to get his arse spanked off me.

It will be in front of everyone this time!

Do you not think you are kinda letting him

get away with just a little bit too much?

'Cause It is not just your time he is wasting,

he's also wasting ours as well you know?

Okay Roger don't you worry about that. Leave him to me. Okay?

Are you okay if I go now Sarah?

Yeah, of course, no bother.

Well you know this place better than me by now don't you?

I'll be back later on this afternoon Is that alright?

Yeah of course no bother.

Okay then flower see you later.

- Bye. - Goodbye.

Good morning Sarah.

Hello Nigel, how are you today?

I would like the same as yesterday please.

Yeah pink?

- That's right. - Yeah no bother.

No Sarah, with the green cellophane, not the white.

Ah sorry it was the green you had yesterday wasn't it?

That's right Sarah. Attention to detail is important.

There you are Nigel.

Three-fifty please.

Well done Sarah. You've passed the test for today.

I'll be back tomorrow.

Bye.

Yes, goodbye Sarah.

Flowers for the missus.

Oh hello James.

Usual bunch pet.

Of course, same as yesterday's?

Oh you decide. Anything as long as it shuts her up.

Oh what are you like?

Are you alright?

Yeah fine, fine. Just putting up with all the nagging.

How's work?

Yes it's good, good getting over.