NF - The Search

Hey Nate, how's life?

I don't know. It's alright.

I've been dealin with some things like every human being

and really didn't sleep much last night

I'm sorry

That's fine

I just think I need a little me time

I just think I need a little free time

Little break from the shows and the bus rides

Last year I had a breakdown

Thoughts tellin me I'm lost gettin too loud

Had to see a therapist then I found out

Somethin funny's going on up in my house

Yeah started thinkin maybe I should move out

You know pack my cart take a new route

Clean up my yard get the noose out

Hang up my heart let it air out.

I've been searchin

What does that mean Nate? I've been learnin

Grabbin my keepsakes

Leavin my burdens

Well I brought a few with me I'm not perfect

Lookin at the view like this concerns me

Pickin up the cues right? I'm quite nervous

Hate it when I lose sight life gets blurry

And things might hurt me

It's prolly gonna be a long journey but HEY!!!

It's worth it though

Cold world out there kids grab your coats

Been a minute I know now I'm back to roam

Looking for the antidote

To crack the code

Pretty vivid I admit it I'm in classic mode

Don't need pity givin to me, but I can't condone

Talkin down to me I'mma have to crack your nose

For crackin jokes

I'm lookin for the map to hope

You seen it?

Been makin a whole lot of changes

Wrote a song about that you should play it

I get scared when I walk on these stages

I look at the crowd and see so many faces

Yeah

That's when I start to get anxious

That's when my thoughts can be dangerous

That's when I put on my makeup

And drown in self-hatred forget what I'm sayin an...

Where the beat go?

Ohh

Ain't that somethin

Drums came in you ain't see that comin

Hands on my head can't tell me nothin

Gotta taste of the fame had to pump my stomach

Throw it back up like I don't want it