Tell Me About Your Darkness (Bana Karanlığını Anlat)

TELL ME ABOUT YOUR DARKNESS

Bilal, let's not leave your brother alone.

Look what happened when we left your brother alone.

I will come, too. I will not leave him alone.

They could not take care of my son. They could not.

They said he died. What was wrong with him?

Doctors could not do anything either.

Mom, what could the doctors do for a dead man?

- What can they do, bring him back to life? - Don't say that!

"God, forgive me!" But you're arguing with the men.

My condolences.

You can carry the deceased inside. I will rest a bit. I'll be in soon.

Mom, calm down, please. You've already said everything to everyone.

Do not call me "Mom." I am not your mom.

- Mom. - Mom.

Shut up! You're not letting me grieve.

When I die, you will be calm.

Is that something you should be saying right now, Mom?

It is a sin.

Such things are not said in the presence of the deceased.

Come on, take the stretcher inside.

Okay.

Wash my son beautifully and with the best care.

If you are doing something for someone else, do more for my son.

Many statesmen and factory owners come to us.

I just washed our department chief the other day.

We do not do any favors. We do what Islamic rules require.

You may be an important person, but that's over when you're on the table.

There are no privileges for us. I do not treat anyone differently.

I wash everyone the same way.

Here is the delivery paper.

The deceased, Veli Bağdatlı.

Mother's name, Satı.

Father's name, Ahmet. Cause of death, heart attack.

Is that correct?

Correct.

- My condolences. - Thank you.

Thank you.

Cengiz?

Yes, brother?

Cengiz, can you ask them to save a beef sandwich for me?

Sometimes they do not have any left. I want to eat so bad.

Okay. Good luck.

Thanks.

What is your relation to the deceased?

I am the brother.

They're his mother, his aunt, and his wife.

Okay then, let's start.

Men stay with the deceased male.

Oh, sure. Ahu, get out.

Come on, Mom. Nermin?

Come on, Ahu.

We'll go, Bilal, but...

Mom?

I will not leave.

I will not leave my son alone on his last journey.

I'll stand in that corner and pray silently.

Come on, you know better than that.

While a man's body is being washed, there can't be any women present.

It is a sin.

I am his mother. How can it be a sin?

I'll turn my face to the wall.

I gave birth to him. Do not make me talk.

God forbid!

Come on. I said it's a sin, what else can I say?

I will show your son, then I will do my job.

Well, I am his wife. I guess it would not be a sin for me.

Listen to her words...

You're not ashamed at all.

Will we learn the whole process from you anyway?

It is a sin for you, too.

Mom, please. Come on.

Come on, Mom. Come on, Nermin.

There is a mint ointment over there.

This one?

Guys rub it into their nostrils to avoid the bad smell.

It is not something everyone can handle.

After all, I got used to the smell during my childhood.

When is the deceased's funeral?

Tomorrow afternoon.

Isn't it late? I am fast. I'll have him ready for this afternoon.

No, no. There are people coming from out of town.

Well then, let the deceased stay in the morgue,

and let me wash him tomorrow.

You will bury him with the rose scent still on him.

No, brother.

My mother wants my brother to spend his last night at home.

Oh, of course, it's up to you.

It would be better to bury him after being washed.

Anyway, it is up to you.

In fact, if would be better if we had some hollyhock to wash him with.

It is the old-fashioned way.

But I use a nice-scented white soap. It is good too.

Oh, my son, oh!

I could not see your happiness.

I wish I did.

I wish I died...

and you lived.

The last time you came to us, he was fine.

He didn't look sick at all. Was he taking his medicine?

Yes, he was.

Sometimes he forgot. You know, I had to check on his medicine.

But I was always keeping track.

- Like when? - Morning and evening.

No, I mean when did he have a heart attack?

Ahu, are you questioning me?

No, just curious.

I am just curious about how it happened.

He had a football match with his friends in the evening.

When we talked during the day, he asked what I was going to cook for dinner.

I made stuffed vine leaves the day before.

You know, Veli loves them.

I mean, he loved it.

He used to say that I could not do it like his mother,

but then he would eat the whole pot.

What should my child do?

You only made stuffed vine leaves, so he ate them all.

He's used to his mother's table with full courses,

from soup and salad to dessert.

Oh, my poor boy!

I said there were stuffed vine leaves.

He was happy, he said he would buy yogurt on the way.

He said he had a football match and he would have a small snack before.

He said he would not go with an empty stomach.

You know, he has low blood sugar when he's hungry.

It makes him angry. Then, arguments.

What is the connection between my son and the match?

He was playing, Mom.

He played with his teacher friends once a month, if not once a week.

I have never understood what a person with heart disease

has to do with a football match.

I do not understand.

Me, neither.

But you know Veli is stubborn.

I mean, he was stubborn.

Recently, he has also been interested in rejuvenation.

Of course, that has an effect too.

Anyway, the stuffed vine leaves just needed to be cooked.

You know, he didn't like cold stuffed vine leaves.

But he didn't like them hot either. He wanted them warm.

If it wasn't exactly what he wanted, that plate would end up in the garbage.

The deceased had special tastes.

God rest his soul.

God rest his soul.

Anyway...

As I said, I put it on the stove to warm it up.

Nermin, did you make them with pistachio on that afternoon

we gathered at your place last time?

It was amazing.

I have been meaning to ask you for a while, "What did you add to this?"

No, it was plain. I don't like pistachios.

Oh! What were the crunchy things in it?

Ah, you mean this?

I roast the rice. It sticks to the pan a little. It tastes more delicious.

- She does not say that she burnt it. - That's the first time I've heard that.

And then?

Then I add the spices.

I am not talking about that. You were talking about Veli.

Her mind is on eating.

Mom, did I start the conversation?

Do not talk to me.

Anyway, it was about 8:00 in the evening.

I thought I would make some salad. He called while I was peeling vegetables.

He did not like the skin of tomatoes. They got stuck in his throat.

He said, "I'm leaving the game."

He asked if we had hot water and asked me to heat it if there was none.

He had the water heater turned off because the electricity bill was too high.

We had to turn it on for an hour before taking a shower

so that the water would warm up.

If it stayed on the minimum, it would not cost much. We always do that.

I told him a million times.

Then I turned on the water heater.

The football field is close to us, so ten minutes later he came home,

went into the bathroom without resting.

I understood from his face that they lost the match.

I set the table while he was in the shower.

He came out of the shower, put on his pajamas, and we sat down for dinner.

His cheeks were red, as he had washed with very hot water.

So, everything was normal.

Gosh.

When my father had a heart attack, his face was white when he came home.

His face was white, his arm was numb.

It was obvious that something was going to happen.

No. Veli was so normal.

I went to the kitchen, I put the tea on the stove.

Put the dishes in the dishwasher. I was busy in the kitchen for 20 minutes.

When I returned to the room,

Veli had fallen from the chair and was lying face down on the floor.

- Fallen? - Yes.

Didn't you hear the man falling?

I did not, Ahu. I did not.

There was a lot of noise in the kitchen and the radio was on. I didn't hear.

I went straight up to him and turned him.

I did whatever came to my mind. I was panicking.

Then I got up and went to our neighbor, Mr. Muhittin.

The municipal police officer?

No, the real estate agent. The police officer is Mr. Cafer.

You should have called an ambulance.

Is Muhittin a doctor?

No one came to my mind at that moment. I walked out the door barefoot.