Once Again (Una vez más)

"I only remember the emotion of things, and I forget everything else". Antonio Machado

Once Again

Why didn't you tell me she was so ill, mum?

It all happened so fast.

You wouldn't have liked to see her like that.

Yeah...

But I could've said good-bye.

Good-byes aren't always pretty.

Have you spoken to your father?

No, I'll text him later.

He told me things are changing

and now there are lots of oportunities to...

Mum...

Yes?

I just got here.

If I'm being unbearable,

it's because I'd love you to come back and to have you close by.

You understand?

Welcome home.

So tell me about London, how is everything?

You're at a new studio now, right?

I spoke to your mum a few days ago but I don't remember...

- Hi. You both all right? - Well... Here we are.

And this handsome devil that's fast asleep?

More like half-asleep.

Marcos, you remember me?

Yes, from the beach.

That's right, we went to that beach house, very good.

Abril.

So, I'm due in seven weeks.

When you're pregnant you count time in weeks. That's our thing.

And how is it going?

- Oh, awful. A real nightmare. - Really?

And I always thought pregnancy was this lovely thing.

Lovely? The morning sickness is the worst,

and you can't imagine how my back is killing me.

If you hadn't noticed,

she's taking motherhood very seriously.

I'd like to see you with two kids in your belly.

- Me? - You. You'd die.

I'll be your kids' auntie, but no one's mum.

So you're having twins?

Yeah. Well, fraternal. A boy and a girl.

I had no idea.

Yep. That's the good thing, it's like two birds with one stone.

And are you still in that flat in La Alameda?

We are, but we'd like to move.

But Jose can't find any work outside telemarketing.

So we're stuck there for the time being.

We've got the double pushchair,

two high chairs, two cots, the changing table

and the car seats which are complicated enough...

- We're in no place for more expenses. - Right, it's a lot.

Everything they tell you doesn't even begin to describe it.

But get some of it second hand, don't be silly.

Yeah, well, we'll have to do something like that.

I'm going to burst.

Have you seen my tits?

They're like balloons.

And Jose is thrilled of course, he can't keep his hands off them.

So you going to tell her or what?

Tell me what?

I don't think this is a good time.

So then, when?

We never see each other. Come on, tell her.

What is it?

She's getting married and doesn't want to tell you.

No! It's not I don't want to, it's just I didn't think here...

You're getting married?

- Yes! - That's wonderful!

- Finally, yes! - Congratulations! That's so amazing!

- Thank you! - That's fantastic!

Yeah. And well...

After eight years together, I was ready.

That's it, it was about time.

And he did the whole cheesy proposal on one knee, just the way she likes.

- Look at that... - And in Rome,

in the middle of Dick Square...

Navona!

- Wow! - So...

- And when's the date? - In the summer.

And you can't miss mine.

It's going to be a huge wedding with all the frills.

Knowing you...

No doubt. Start having a Pamela hat designed.

That's wonderful, I'm so happy for you.

I'll do whatever it takes to be there.

I hope so.

I'm a bundle of nerves.

But very happy.

And I'll be there like a whale and unable to drink a drop of alcohol.

Good friends don't schedule their weddings like that,

- I've got to say. - You'd expect me to wait till winter

so you can look fabulous whilst I freeze to death?

That would've been nice.

I hope it rains.

I hope the epidural doesn't work.

What a bitch you can be!

Do you want to feel my stomach?

- Sometimes they move. - I don't know...

It can seem weird, but it's really cool.

I don't feel anything.

Daniel...

Abril, look.

Clara...

- I'm so sorry. - Thank you for coming.

Come in.

How are you handling it?

I honestly wasn't expecting it.

Yeah, that's awful.

Ever since my mum called I have like...

A knot in my chest that won't go away.

Maybe crying will make it go away.

I can't.

Not even now, seeing her here like this, so peaceful,

surrounded by flowers.

Does that make me a bad granddaughter?

Don't be silly.

Everyone needs to mourn in their own way.

I really don't feel like talking to anyone here. I wish...

disappear.

So disappear.

As if that were easy with the house full of people.

Look... you probably don't know half of these people.

Come on.

Let's go for a walk.

It'll be good for you to get outside, away from all this for a bit...

Trust on me.

To fly little birds to the sea.

Thanks.

What for?

For getting you out of there?

For coming.

It's been a long time.

Yeap.

It's weird... this.

What?

Going for a walk?

Maybe.

The truth is,

I wasn't sure you were going to come.

If I'd known, I would've brought your things.

My things?

You still have them or what?

I dunno, I thought that, after last time,

you would've thrown them out or burnt them or something.

Why would I do that? They're your things.

That's why.

It doesn't matter.

It's just a couple of CDs and a few books.

Something like that.

If you want I'll send them by post.

No, keep them. That way you'll have an excuse to bring them to me in London.

- Okay. - Great.

It's so pretty here.

It's always like this

With the tourists and all.

- You want to go somewhere else? - No.

That's silly, not going to the prettiest places

because they're full of tourists.

You miss the most beautiful places.

I was hoping to take a walk here.

You just say that because you're never here.

If you were here all the time you wouldn't like it as much.

And the bars are very expensive.

This is not like when you left.

So it started as a substitution...

And...

I don't know, it's not what I studied and...

And not where I thought I'd be after uni,

but for what it is, it pays all right.

And now I've got the hang of it and my workmates are cool, so....

So better than at the newspaper.

A lot better.

I'm actually glad I got sacked.

Miserable people, and total exploitation.

And what about you? How's London?

You know, I can scarcely believe it's been five years since I left.

You don't say.

I heard you got into Norman Foster's studio.

- That's right. - So, congrats.

Thanks.

What's it like?

Well, it's definitely 'the' studio.

There's some 800...

A thousand of us working there:

architects, engineers, designers, modelmakers...

It's this amazingly beautiful building right on the Thames.

And is he there with you the whole time

or is he the typical celeb architect you never actually see?

Believe it or not,

I've actually seen him three or four times since I've been there.

Seriously?

All this time, and you've only seen Norman Foster four times?

Yeah, he's pretty hard to pin down.

So what are you working on?

What's the current project you're designing?

Sorry, I can't tell you that. It's confidential.

Come on. Seriously?

Seriously.