Grey's Anatomy

There's a moment I've noticed in the OR...

...especially when a patient is going south.

You're working so hard, you lose yourself.

All of your problems.

Your relationships.

Career goals.

Your fears.

They all just fade away.

It's not even you and your patient.

It's you and yourself.

Your hands.

Your skill.

You might call it muscle memory...

or being in the zone.

But whatever you call it,

it's rare...

...and you never want it to end.

- Hey. - Hey.

Are the, uh... Are the kids okay?

Yeah, they're great.

It took a little longer to get through the park

'cause of the protests, but Mom had French toast ready.

How was, uh, therapy?

- Virtual. - Yeah.

Is that why you're out here?

Making sure that I did it?

No. I'm here to make sure

that you're done, 'cause I have something to show you.

Come on.

- Hey. - Hey.

Didn't your shift end a while ago?

Yeah, I went to check on Mer.

Still no change.

She'll get better.

Just like Jennilyn did.

You didn't even know Jennilyn.

She's my favorite ICU nurse.

It might be my first official day here,

but she and I... We go way back.

I'm just glad I didn't miss

her big post-COVID sendoff.

She is one of us.

Here she comes!

Ladies and gentlemen, Jennilyn's going home!

Whoo!

- Whoo! - Alright!

Whoo!

Hey, excuse me.

Hey, did we miss it?

No, you're just in time.

Ah.

Six weeks in the hospital.

Our tenth official discharge this week.

Ah, I remember the day I hired her.

I will never get sick of this.

You okay?

That should be Meredith.

I hate ER days.

Everything's so urgent.

What are we watching tonight?

Whatever you want. I'll be with Nico.

Movie nights are sacred, Levi.

Movie nights are new

since your sex friend disappeared.

Don't deprive me of mine.

I have to talk to Bailey about OB today,

and I know that Webber told me everything I need to say,

but still... Bailey.

You have to talk to Bailey every day.

I'll cancel my plans when you actually do it.

Hey. Uh, you forgot this.

Oh, well, uh, could've just gotten it later.

Oh, it was kind of in the way.

Well, it wouldn't be if you gave me a drawer or something.

Is the sex still good?

It's amazing.

See how supportive I was of you just now?

Bye!

Okay, Felix, and how's your range of motion been?

It's still stiff when I throw.

I thought I'd be back to pitch this fall.

Hey. Teddy hasn't returned my calls.

Have you talked to anyone from the hospital?

'Cause I...

Sorry. It's just, I had a dream about Mer.

I'm going.

Sorry, Felix.

Um, you know, it's still early days,

you're only four months post surgery,

and it was a decent-sized tear.

This is the last season to get scouted by a D-1 school.

Huh.

Why are you still here?

Right. I'm gone.

Uh... yeah, Felix, it's gonna take a little bit more patience.

It's... It's gonna be...

I'm so sorry.

Felix, is it?

Um, a-are you right-handed?

- Yeah. - Amelia.

I know this is weird. I'm... I'm a surgeon, too,

and I just, uh, wanted to check one thing with you.

H-Have you noticed that your left arm

feels stronger than your right arm recently?

I guess so. Kinda?

- Why? - What the hell?

If this is a neurological issue,

it could end more than just his career

if it goes untreated, so I'm...

Hey. I just want to to over a couple maneuvers with you, okay?

Okay.

Meredith's vitals have been stable for days.

Her X-rays have shown a remarkable improvement,

and her oxygen requirements have gone down.

Which is why she should be awake

for more than two minutes at a time.

Why isn't she?

What is it?

Her labs this morning showed elevated liver enzymes.

It might just be a side effect from the medications,

but we do want to order some new tests.

And we'd also like to get CTs, both chest and abdomen.

It might seem extensive, but...

Well, let's do it.

We're seeing more and more patients in the same position.

It seems like they're finally out of the woods,

and then some new problem arises

and they just...

they just crash.

We can't let this happen to Meredith.

Were you in pain?

You know, the worst part was knowing

they were getting it wrong.

I didn't want to leave you,

but I knew, you know, at a certain point...

I came to the hospital.

I know.

You could hear?

Not through my ears.

Dying is exhausting.

You know that point as a surgeon...

you've done everything for your patient.

I could try and will them to fight,

will them to live,

but I never understood the level of exhaustion.

There comes a point

where the desire to rest overrides the desire to live.

You got that.

You gave me permission to go.

You told me it was okay.

You got me.

You gave me everything I needed until my last breath.

Do you need more time to think about it?

No.

Okay.

And your answer is...

I just told you. No.

Bailey...

I didn't come to this decision lightly,

and without your recommendation,

I may have to redo my entire intern year.

Only if you were changing specialities,

which you are not doing.

That is not your decision to make.

It's not. No. It's yours,

and you made it when you signed a contract

as a general surgery attending.

It's got a few more years on it, last time I checked.

Bailey, you can't...

I-I need this.

And I need surgeons, Wilson.

I'm losing them to, uh, sickness, exhaustion,

hell, murder, or in Avery's case,

just suddenly taking a leave of absence.

Y-You need to think about the hospital.

I can't afford to lose you right now,

especially when Meredith...

Look, we can, um, revisit this topic

after this thing is over,

but for right now, my answer is no.

Okay. Felix is headed in.

Mm. Great.

Uh... Is he set up for his MRI in case he beats us there?

Yes. You know, I would have caught

- that right-sided deficit. - Yeah, I know you would have.

We had just started. I was focused on the shoulder.

Yeah, I know you were.

Not to mention I kept getting distracted.

All my fault. I got it.

I'm ready.

No, we... We can't leave.

Maggie's not here yet.

Oh, well, that means you can't,

but I can, and I should.

Or, you know, I could call Koracick

and you could stay here.

Well, this was my find.

Oh, I'm sorry. You wouldn't want somebody waltzing in

- and stealing your patient? - W...

Please don't take this from me.