Longing Heart (My First Love / 애간장 / Aeganjang)

Do you get it now?

The person who should've gotten on that boat on that day...

was me.

If only I hadn't given your mother my ferry ticket

then...

so...

don't you ever forgive me.

Hate me and resent me...

and when you get tired of hating me...

when that time comes...

just forget about everything.

I'll forever live on...

without ever forgetting.

["In Search of Lost Time" by Marcel Proust]

[I'll wait for you at Firefly Bridge at 11 o' clock tomorrow.]

Everything started with this note

and everything...

ended with this note.

This makes no sense.

How is it that the only person who can't say...

that I'm glad that nothing happened to her...

and that I'm glad that she's safe...

is me, of all people?

How?

When, in the function f(x), x equals a...

and when the value of f(x) approaches the value of a...

- Huh? - Whose is that?

it becomes a divergent sequence.

Mr. Kang.

I think that's your phone.

Huh?

Oh.

Just a second.

Aren't you neglecting me a bit too much?

What kind of guardian are you?

You've been leaving a minor all alone by himself for several days.

I've been busy because of school.

What is it?

- They said that I can be discharged. - Really?

Want me to go to the hospital?

No. I took care of all of the discharge procedures.

I'll be at home.

All right.

Um...

have you seen Ji Soo lately?

I see her right now.

I'm only telling you this because I don't want to keep this bottled up inside me

but I haven't been able to talk to her properly these past couple of days.

Because...

she's been in the ER for the past couple of days without eating or resting.

You said that you wanted to see me, right?

Well, I...

lived all this time, hoping that I wouldn't see you.

Remember what I said last time?

About how we should never see each other again?

I meant that.

Me first, me first!

- Me first! - No, me!

- Me too, me too! - My name is Seo Joon.

Just a second.

Me too, me too!

Wow, thank you!

What are you all doing? Aren't you going back to the classroom?

- Ugh. - Man.

Eh?

Why did you come to school?

I told you that I was coming to the school today.

Oh.

Mokzart called me in.

He wanted me to do that thing... what's it called?

It's that thing... uh, "dotori!"

You mean, "mentoring?"

Yeah, that! Yep.

Jeez.

I wonder if those kids know...

that you can't even tell the difference between "mentoring" and "dotori."

You're not going to tell them, are you?

Wow.

This really takes me back.

You must feel like you're back in high school every day

when you look at them.

Oh yeah, I went to Min Seok's house yesterday.

Do you really still like Ji Soo?

Hey.

Why not give it another shot with her, then?

It was really nice...

back when we were that age.

When we were out there together

and when I was watching you guys from here...

I was really happy.

That really was...

the happiest time of my life.

And so...

I've decided to be satisfied...

with just that.

What are you talking about?

I liked Ji Soo.

I liked her.

I have to go to class now, so I'll be going now.

You can look around the school more if you want.

Huh?

Wasn't that book your most treasured possession?

I'm going to get rid of it.

Because I'm never going to read it again.

Now, everything really is...

over.

My very, very long...

first love.

I no longer feel that I can be a useful contributor

to the goals and missions of the organization.

Oh, and the phrase, "no longer feel to" over here

means that they don't feel a certain way anymore.

Remember that part.

Memorize everything that we covered today.

We'll have a test on it during the next class.

What the...

- Which bastard is it today? - Goodbye, Teacher.

A blind date? A marriage meeting?

Or are you just using them?

Which one is it today?

What are you talking about?

That hairpin.

Who are you meeting up with that you have it on today?

A man, who else?

You told me to put it on whenever I'm meeting up with a man.

Yeah, so...

Who's the man?

A nice, new Benz.

What do you mean, "a Benz..."

Want to go somewhere to eat?

There's something I want to eat

but apparently, they will only serve two servings or more.

- Ms. Baek. - I'm going to drink alcohol, too.

Do you want to take off that pin before we go, then?

You can bite down on some other things instead.

- Ugh! - Ow!

Hurry up and get in!

What are you doing?

I really didn't take you for that kind of person, Mr. Kang

but you really are petty.

What do you mean?

You hid them on purpose, didn't you? The previous questions on the CSAT!

So that I couldn't see!

What are you talking about?

And here, I was planning to memorize all of the answers for the CSAT

and change how my life ended up.

I'm planning to head back.

To the year 2007.

I was so envious...

of my friends

who could have a drink with their parents

after they grew up.

Then, who did you learn drinking etiquette?

Jeez, how many times does your damned company have staff dinners per week?

Shut it!

Huh?

You got released from the hospital, I see!

What are you guys doing right now?

Well, um...

Mr. Kang said that it's best to learn drinking etiquette from an adult, so...

Hey! What are you doing to the kid?

Who the hell educates people on drinking etiquette with beer, of all things?

Isn't there any soju?

I'll teach him properly.

Give me a sec.

Take care of this situation.

It's okay! It's totally fine.

Oh, there's soju inside!

Yes!

Yes, go inside. Straight inside.

Now you see who you would've learned drinking etiquette from, right?

On the day that you turn twenty years old

you'll feel as if you'd be better off dead...

because you'll wake up vomiting from being so hung over.

It's such a relief to know that beforehand.

When you go back...

take good care of Big Sis.

You've already mourned over Mom while you were here...

but for Big Sis, it'll be the toughest time of her life.

All right.

Oh.

Is there anything you heard from Ji Soo?

I heard her say...

that she likes you.

Ji Soo said that she likes you!

So...

I'm planning to go back.

Everything ended well.

So I just need to try my best now.

Yeah.

I'll do my best.

But, you know, Mr. Kang.

Did you know...

that you can even be jealous of yourself?

Now, I've even found out that you're me from the future.

But even so...

I was envious of you.

Ji Soo's first love was you.

And the one that she likes right now is you, too.

The one that Ji Soo likes has never been...