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I'm trying to remember the first time I ever thought about killing myself.

I was young. Maybe five or six.

And at first it was just a harmless idea.

What if I wasn't here anymore?

By the time I hit puberty, it became like, an infatuation.

like an imaginary friend that would comfort me when I was alone.

I knew they weren't normal feelings, but I also knew that I wasn't normal.

Hello? Helen Daniels.

And we have three package options for you, and... Yes, including airfare.

Yes, Mrs. Parker, I have been working on those options for you.

I... Well, I can speak with him again.

So, for the first one, I can get you down to four ninety-nine including airfare

and then also your hotel discount.

Hello?

Mrs. Parker?

Hello?

Hey, Helen.

- Hey. - Hey.

So, I think that I'm going to be feeling a little under the weather tomorrow,

if you know what I mean,

so I just wanted to make sure that you kinda had me covered if I'm not here.

Hey, Helen.

Wow, that dress is perfect. 'Cause you're in it.

- Thanks. - Hey, Mark, do you mind if I talk with you a little bit?

I just haven't been feeling really well, and I was wondering if you might...

Hey, guys.

Hi, Grams.

Whatcha looking at?

Oh, check.

Check, check, check, check, check.

Uh, I'm not gonna get paid until Friday, so if you can...

Don't cash till then. Right.

Yes. Okay, sorry about that.

Thank you.

Oh, by the way, she hasn't eaten dinner yet.

Be right back, Grams.

Okay. Almost done, Grams.

Hi, Mark.

I know. I am so sorry. I will be there as soon as I can.

Yeah, well it should have been a couple hours ago.

I'm really sorry. Okay, thanks. Bye.

- Oh, my God, where were you? - Bus.

- The bus was two hours late? - It happens.

Okay.

I already washed and fed her, so if you could just...

- Be here. - Got it.

Okay. Bye, Grams.

Helen. Good to see you.

Hey, Mark.

I am so sorry that I was late this morning. I know it's been happening a lot.

It's just, I'm having...

Look, I completely understand, okay? That's what I've been telling everyone.

I have to let you know. There's another round of layoffs coming down

and your name has been floating around.

Right, okay. Well, I will do my best to make sure it doesn't happen again.

- I swear. And I... - I know. I got your back, okay?

Just... just realize that anything you ever need... I'll be here for you.

Oh.

Thanks.

Thank you. That's...

- Of course. - That's really nice.

So I was thinking, if you're free tonight,

maybe you and I go out for a couple of drinks? On me.

Um, well, I usually have to get home pretty fast 'cause my grandmother...

they are waiting - for me most of the time. Helen, I'm not gonna take no

for an answer, okay? Look.

We're a couple of adults who work hard and we deserve to have some fun, too.

Yeah. Sorry, could you just hang on one second?

Ms.Daniels, is that a work call or...?

- Helen. - Hello?

- Yeah, yeah. Is she okay? - You know we have a no cell phone policy.

Okay, well, are they on their way?

Yes. Yes, I will be right there. Thank you. Yeah, bye.

- Excuse me, what was that about? - I'm sorry. I have to go. It's an emergency.

- It's an emergency. - Where do you think you're going?

Please don't touch me.

I'm just trying to help you. I know you want me to help.

Don't...

Ms. Daniels, walk out that door...

You're fired!

Damn it!

Get back to work!

- What's going on? Is she okay? - Is she your grandmother?

Yes, yes. She's my grandmother. Is she okay?

Well, the oxygen tank's main valve was leaking.

It hasn't been replaced in months. There was no backups.

We changed the air filter and the main valve, of course. The tank is also old.

I suggest you order it some backups.

I will. Okay, I will.

If I can just get you to sign.

Yeah, yeah.

Thank you. Thank you so much for staying. I really appreciate it.

- Do you have a minute to talk? - Yeah. Yeah, what's up?

Helen, I... I have to quit.

- You what? - I'm sorry.

I need you.

I think what you do for your grandma is amazing. Honestly.

But I have to take care of my family, too.

I get it. I get it.

Just...

It didn't go through?

Just... just buy her the stuff that she needs.

I can't. I cannot do that. I can't take this.

You don't have any other options, Helen.

It's fine.

- Bye, Helen. - Bye.

It's okay.

Aww, Dad was cute.

Is that Grandpa?

He smoked a pipe? You let him smoke a pipe?

I cannot believe that.

Hey, hey, hey. Let's leave that on, okay?

Okay?

You know what I bet we could find?

Grandpa's favorite.

Mm.

It's the laundry.

I will be right back.

Grams, you asleep already?

Grams?

Grandma.

Grandma.

I love you.

I know, I can't believe it.

You know, I didn't see the granddaughter around.

Mmm. Surprise, surprise. I'm sure she's celebrating right now.

Oh, don't say that!

Well,

she doesn't have to take care of a sick old woman and she gets a free house.

I wouldn't be surprised if she suffocated Katharine with a pillow.

- Oh, you don't really think that? - Yes, I do.

Production is starting soon.

No.

- Not answering. - Please leave a message after the tone.

Hey, Helen. This is Jenna from work.

I just wanted to say happy birthday, or happy almost birthday.

- I know you got fired and everything... - Oh, shit.

but your birthday is still up on the office calendar

- and you know we grab drinks every Friday. - No.

- So if you didn't have any plans... - I do have plans.

...you should totally stop by.

Oh, yeah, Mark won't be there.

Give me a call if you need the address. I don't think you've been there with us. Let me know.

Hello?

Hey.

Oh, sorry. So sorry.

Hey, Jenna.

- Hey, girl. Happy birthday! - Oh, thank you.

I wish you got here sooner. I'm about to leave.

You're leaving now? Where are you going?

Where do you think I'm going?

- Hi. - Oh. Hi.

But you stay. You make sure everybody buys you a drink.

Well, yeah, I'm not really sure that I know anybody.

And do not worry 'cause there are tons of hot guys.

Tell everybody that you got super fired.

They will pity you and it will be amazing.

Actually, can we get shots? I would like shots for my friend here.

Just one for you, and one for you for later. And I am gonna bring my friend Brian with me.

Oh, God, isn't that delicious?

- It's Thomas. - Hi, Thomas.

That sounds nothing like Brian.

She's crashing.

Come on, sweetie. Stay with us.

- Is this her? - Yeah.

I heard if she doesn't wake up tomorrow afternoon they're gonna kill the machine.

What about her family?

They couldn't find anyone.

See those fake flowers over there? Donated by the gift shop.

- That's depressing. - Yep.

- You think she can hear us? - She's in a coma, you moron.

Come on. We have live patients to check on.

I can take the tube out, okay?

All right. There you go.

You're okay. You're okay.

You're all right. You're all right.

I'm gonna give you something to relax you, okay?

There you go. There you go.

Now we're gonna take the tube out, okay?

There we go.

Now your throat will be sore for a few days but you're gonna be fine.

Morning.

Oh, I'm so sorry for waking you up, but how you feeling?

Oh, no. You can't talk yet.

Sorry. Just wanted to check on you before the end of my shift.

My name is Tori, and I'm a psychiatric nurse.

Also, I work with Dr. Carol.

Now, she will be your primary doctor, and she'll be around tomorrow.

Hey.

Yeah?

Can you untie me?

Oh, yeah. I'm not supposed to.

You gave the other nurses a really hard time.

Please?

No hittin', no spittin', no bitin'. Deal?

Promise.

You know,

I just had a feeling you were gonna make it.

It was touch and go there for a bit.

I gotcha.