We Are All Trying Here (모두가 자신의 무가치함과 싸우고 있다)

WE ARE ALL TRYING HERE

I should've fallen in love.

Instead of struggling to make words come together,

I should've fallen in love.

The words I once forced together

are now pouring out faster than I can contain them.

It feels like an engine inside me has just started.

Vroom.

It feels like everything

is working out on its own.

Vroom.

Who knew I had such a powerful engine inside me?

I should've fallen in love.

Why didn't you tell me you've got a girl?

Hey, I think it's true.

Not long ago, someone threw a rock through the window at Agit.

Apparently, Eun-a was behind it.

Why would she do that?

Remember when Gyeong-se posted crap about you in the group chat

and you two were fighting?

Apparently, that's when she did it.

Isn't Eun-a so cool?

Holy shit!

When are you going to get married?

The only girls in my life were those who dreaded sitting next to me in class

until a woman as shiny as a blade walked in.

There's nothing I wouldn't do now.

What would you like me to do?

Who should I kill for you?

I really don't understand you.

How could you like a guy like Hwang Dong-man?

Don't try to understand. You don't have to.

Why do you keep trying to understand it?

Are you a clarity freak?

When I say I don't understand, it means I don't like it.

That's what I'm saying.

Why don't you just say you don't like it, instead of saying you don't understand?

Acting like you're nice.

I'd rather you be honest and straightforward.

You keep crossing the line.

You crossed it first.

You know people are fragile, and that a single glance or word

can send them to heaven or hell.

But you still mock me

and sigh at me.

I won't stand for it.

Hey.

As you can see, I've got thick hair.

If you want to grab my hair and fight me, you'd better be ready to lose a finger.

- Goodbye. - Thank you.

Did you know?

I even envy the telephone pole

in front of your house

and that smug little "We sell gimbap " sign

hanging from your window bars.

If only I could watch over you all day like that pole,

or hang from your window all day like that sign…

WE SELL GIMBAP

I wish I could blow myself up

like the big bang,

so everything around you would be me.

Especially,

that damn gimbap lying on its back

getting gently pressed and rolled with your hands.

If I could be that gimbap…

Eun-a!

How cozy.

You know, I could spend days imagining punishing someone or plotting revenge.

I get into the zone and stay up all night.

I even forget to breathe.

But happy imaginations don't last long before they fall apart.

Why is that?

Is it because I haven't really been happy?

When it falls apart, I get so anxious.

I think I'll stay anxious until I find success.

Is your brother at home?

He went to Daegwallyeong

to harvest napa cabbage.

Napa cabbage. That's funny.

When there's no welding work, he does other things.

That's good.

Why are you suddenly asking about him?

My grandmother made some braised kimchi,

so I thought I'd drop some off.

For both of you to enjoy.

Then…

Then…

Do you want to eat together?

Do you want to eat together?

DO YOU WANT TO EAT TOGETHER?

Sounds great!

Sounds good.

Careful, it's hot.

Oh, come on!

You said you were harvesting napa cabbage, and you'd be gone all week!

I said I was going next week.

You've already been drinking?

You could've at least cleaned the place.

Just look at this mess.

Hello.

Releasing steam.

Are those matching watches?

Why are they flashing red?

Jin-man.

Don't just drink. Have some food too.

Show some appreciation for the person who brought it.

What's your purpose in life?

What about you?

What's your purpose in life?

What kind of person do you want to be?

I'm not talking about being successful.

A lot of successful people are idiots.

"This is the kind of person I want to be."

That kind of purpose.

Just eat. It's okay.

A strong mother.

Yeah, I'm going to become a strong mother.

Not the type of strength that comes from money or connections.

I want to become a mother who remains calm in any situation.

The kind who stands steady at the center

so that

her presence puts everyone around her at ease.

That's the kind of woman I want to be.

Like my grandmother.

What's wrong?

What is it?

What is it?

Name?

Byeon Eun-a.

Eun-a.

Thank you.

DAYS LIKE THIS, DAYS LIKE THAT POEMS BY HWANG JIN-MAN

TO MS. BYEON EUN-A I HOPE YOU BECOME A STRONG MOTHER

Thank you.

I'm giving in on everything else!

How much more do I have to compromise? I won't do it.

- So scrap it? - Scrap it!

There's no point working with assholes who boss you around from the start!

Just scrap it!

- Am I really asking for too much? - Jeez.

I thought things were good since it was scheduled for streaming.

National Stress Management Department has been confirmed, right?

It's been confirmed, but…

But what?

They said eight episodes might be too much for Director Park to write alone,

so they want to bring in another writer.

That was a huge mistake.

They really shouldn't have messed with his writing.

What is this, a factory? Two writers don't mean faster writing.

How dare they tell the director to work with another writer?

They're way out of line.

- Does money give them control over me? - Yeah, it does.

It's my idea and my screenplay.

If they don't like it, I can take it somewhere else.

Where, exactly?

Go ahead, see if anyone will offer you tens of billions of won.

They can't even ask for that when they're putting up tens of billions?

This is your first series.

Is getting help from someone experienced really something to lose your temper over?

That's what I'm saying.

Why do they think I need help?

- It's because they think I'm lacking! - Seriously?

As if you've never… Oh gosh.

Who do they think they are? I'm the director.

I'm writing the whole thing, from start to finish!

Only Park Gyeong-se is allowed.

These so-called directors are all the same.

Every single one of them is just full of insecurity.

You're all desperate to make it big,

but you have this pathetic idea that accepting help makes you weak

and ruins your perfect image.

Meanwhile, I'm wondering how I'll pay the staff this month

or how I'll pay the rent.

I'm desperately looking for any bit of help I can get.

I'd welcome any help I can get with open arms.

I'd kill for some help!

Listen carefully.

Gyeong-se.

You're old.

You're outdated.

You've been outdated for a long time.

How many of your films start strong only to fall apart later?

That's why people say you only ever lick the watermelon.

Covering the losses of a two-hour film is one thing,

but there's no way to do that for a series.

If this fails, there won't be a next time for you.

So take the help.

Take it while you can.

How could you say that to me?

Do you…

Even love me?

Twenty years together,

and you're still using outdated lines, asking me if I love you.

And you still want to write alone?

Saying I don't love you doesn't make me feel guilty,

and saying that I do doesn't benefit me at all, okay?

Think this through.

Byeon Eun-a can revive dead scripts, and now she's backing Hwang Dong-man.

Either sit there as the director who flopped with Sister Vengeance

and watch Hwang Dong-man debut with a bang,