Every Breath She Takes

Jules!

Jules!

You can't hide from me.

We need to talk this out!

Jules...

Jules, come out here.

Don't make me come in there and get you.

Jules.

I came here to start over, to try again.

You hit me.

You hit me with divorce papers.

That can never happen.

You're scaring me, Billy.

I'm scared of myself.

What do you want from me?

I am your husband. You are my wife!

My god, Billy, what did you do?

We gotta go! We gotta get--oh!

You told me you loved me.

We stood in front of everybody.

Billy, it's over. You gotta let me--

For better or for worse. In sickness and in health.

- Let me go! - Till death do us part!

Come on, Billy!

Billy, come on, we have to go!

Billy, the house is burning! We gotta go now!

I'm going to get help.

Call 911!

Jules! Help! Help!

Oh my god, Billy!

Billy, no, no.

- Morning, Jules. - Good morning, Kenny.

Any day now.

Uh-huh, now that's what you told me two weeks ago.

I know, but I mean it this time.

Mm, you need to quit lying to me, Kenny.

- See you later! - Yeah. Have a good day.

Hey.

- Well, good morning! - Good morning.

- You're here early. - I can come back.

You can help me with some of these easels.

We're not doing our self-portraits today?

Nope, everybody gets a clean canvas.

It's free paint day.

Okay.

Do you mind if I take a look?

Go ahead.

Oh my god. Jules, that's beautiful.

And it's powerful, the way that the yellow,

it draws your eyes up from the almost black near the base.

It's shaded in deep blues.

Now that I look at it, it's kind of provocative.

Cool colors tend to fade, but here,

the blue really pops.

Strength where it's unexpected.

Strength when it's discovered.

Yeah.

Thank you.

Yeah.

Yeah, I'd love to hear more about your process.

About you.

Jules?

Is it against the rules to ask you out on a date?

Mine or the class's?

Yours.

No.

No to the date or to the rules?

To the date.

Ah.

Why?

It's complicated.

I can handle complicated.

I'm not ready?

So you'll think about it?

No, but thank you.

All right, class!

Welcome back to the self-portrait class.

Today we are gonna do something a little different.

You're gonna start with a fresh canvas.

And I want you to dig deep down inside and...

and paint how you feel.

Let me see it.

Let me see your colors in all your hues.

What has gotten into that Inge today?

She think we're all Olympians or something?

Well, you are in the baddest shape

of anyone in that class.

I'm not badder than Inge.

That Norse bitch!

Well, my ass thanks her.

Ah, yes.

So?

What's the tea with the hot engineer?

Paul?

Please, of course Paul.

Did he push for the date yet?

Yes.

And you said yes.

I woke up in a panic last night.

I could actually feel Billy's hands around my neck.

Maybe you shouldn't be back at the house.

You know, the upstairs is not done yet.

And with all the people coming and going--

I know. I know, but I'm--

I'm actually enjoying it, you know?

I get to pick out all the colors.

The designs are mine alone.

It's like everything he tore down,

I get to rebuild, like a rebirth.

Just not with the house-- with me too, you know?

Remember what you told me that first night?

I will not live in fear.

Damn straight.

Going back to school.

Opening your studio.

Building your business every day.

Everybody wants a peek at the freak!

The people in this town, they all think I killed Billy.

- Jules... - What, you didn't know?

I'm the Lethal Lover.

The Hardcore Husband Killer.

Stop, okay? Stop.

You are the strongest, most courageous woman I know.

I'm not.

But I appreciate the praise.

That's what friends are for.

And as far as I can see,

just another reason to get up on that yummy engineer

so he can get down on you.

Uh, I don't need another reason to date Paul.

Oh, hello, okay!

Did he spill paint and have to take his shirt off again?

Mm...

Okay, I need the deets.

Uh-huh, I will give them to you later.

But I gotta go get cleaned up so I can see Ron.

I thought you saw Dr. Ron on Thursdays.

Yeah, I'm back at twice a week again.

Can't squeeze all my crazy into one session.

I can't rush my recovery.

I need...time.

Whoo!

It's colder than death in here!

Kenny?

Yeah?

Uh, I had this set at 75 during the day.

I didn't change it.

It's now at 50.

Right, let me look at it.

System seems to be okay.

You know, one of the workers probably messed with it.

- I'll ask them, okay? - Okay. Thanks.

Oh, your back deck's almost done.

It's gonna be beautiful. You open up those doors,

it's gonna feel like your entire living room is outside.

You gettin' me through this, Kenny.

You gettin' me through!

- Thank you! - You bet.

And when I saw the thermostat set low,

I froze.

Even years from now, something could happen to trigger you.

Your first thought will be Billy.

That's what long-term trauma does.

It actually changes the brain.

He liked it cold.

I mean, really cold.

We used to fight about it, control over the thermostat.

Dana used to say, "Cold hands, cold heart, close to death."

Hm.

You know, b-before he actually died.

You won't always be so scared.

The brain is wired for survival, though.

Takes time to learn new responses.

Give it time.

When we can calm our fear response,

we can see things clearly.

Make a rational decision instead of one based off of fear.

Yeah, exactly.

How long did it take you to calm down?

Well, it felt like it was forever,

but I guess about a minute or two.

And how long would it have taken you

just a couple of months ago?

Uh-huh, Dana would've had to come over

and check under every bed,

then have some wine with me, probably spend the night.

You're not the woman you were.

That's true. Thanks to you.

Oh, you get all the credit for that,

and your classes. You have a gift for this.

Helping people, it comes naturally to you.

You know, in the short time I taught,

I've seen the emotion that I can pull from people.

I'm putting a show together.

Of your work? That's wonderful.