Grey's Anatomy

"Battle." "Fight."

"Win." "Lose."

These are the words we use

when someone is diagnosed with an illness or a disease.

We use militarized language

that implies it's a fair fight.

- God grant me the serenity - God grant me the serenity

to accept the things I cannot change,

the courage to change the things I can,

and the wisdom to know the difference.

But when it comes to life and death,

what does winning really look like?

Is a person a loser for dying

when the outcome isn't really in their control...

Oh. Damn it.

If any patients see you like that,

they might go to another hospital.

Always gets me in the mood.

Plus, you know, I'm seeing what daylight feels like

while I still can.

How's Catherine?

She's ready.

- And you? - Shh, shh, shh, shh.

Ah.

Funny bone. Not as easy as it looks.

Okay, then. I have real patients,

so, you know, good luck with... all this.

I'm messing with you.

You're gonna do great. You and Amelia.

You're ready.

Charley horse.

There he is. Thought you might need this.

Oh. No, thanks. But I'm... I'm good.

I'm running late for Catherine's scans.

Okay, well, I have cleared all my surgeries today

and shored up child care,

so I'm here for you, whatever you need,

- whenever you need it. - Like I said, I'm good.

Okay, Richard, it's gonna be a very long day.

Look, Meredith, I have plenty of doctors

and plenty of friends looking out for me.

You know who doesn't? Your father.

Molly had to get back to Bahrain with her kids.

He's all alone.

And I will make time to see Thatcher this week,

but today is all about you and Catherine.

Meredith, Thatcher may not have a week.

Now, I know it's never been easy between you two,

but the time to change that is running out.

Excuse me.

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*GREY'S ANATOMY* Season 15 Episode 11

*GREY'S ANATOMY* Episode Title: "The Winner Takes it All"

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Oh, I'm sorry I missed your scan.

Oh, please. I went in. I came out.

Same as the first million times.

Well, I could have been there for you.

You had a good excuse.

There's my girl!

There's my girl!

Let me get her for you. Relax.

Do you want to go to Grandma?

Say, "Hi, Grandma." "Hi, Grandma."

Hey! Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.

Did Koracick re-check the CT angio?

Yes, and please stop.

I appreciate both of you wanting to be a part of this,

but I have a crackerjack neuro team.

I need you to be my husband and my son today.

And we need you to be our patient.

Hmm, Thomas, you're getting ready to cut open my spine.

I will be whatever I want.

Oh. Music to my ears.

Now, we will go in posteriorly

with our stealth system

and our newly pilfered ORBEYE scope.

Hmm.

The plan is to go in and remove it en bloc.

And you really think that posteriorly

is the way to go?

Oh, it is fun to have so many surgeons in one family.

Remind me, Avery... When did you become

double board certified in neuro?

That's really how you talk to your patient's family?

It is, actually.

We need to go in posteriorly

to avoid the carotid and the jugular,

and to avoid having to weave through the brachial plexus.

Look, I know how hard it is to be on the bench,

but we are the A-Team. And we don't lose.

Just ask Shepherd's tumor. Oh, wait, you can't.

Because I removed it. Flawlessly.

Okay, any last questions?

Um... it looks like you've got this.

We do.

Mm-hmm.

I'm good.

But, you know, I-I um...

I think I'd like to just take a little walk

before we get started.

- I'd be happy to... - Oh, no, honey.

I want to go alone.

Okay, then, but no guarantees

I won't watch you walk away.

You always do.

Hi. I'm...

Meredith?

Yeah.

I'm sorry. You look...

just like your picture.

You're the surgeon, right?

Yeah.

Uh, do you want to come in?

That's a loaded question.

I'm not sure if he's awake.

He sleeps more and more these days

as you can imagine.

Uh, can I get you something?

Water? Gin, maybe?

All right.

Thatcher? You have a visitor.

Meredith!

Hi...

Hi.

He's not on any pain meds. Clean and sober.

His wishes.

So, just the oxygen, if he needs it.

But you know how that works.

I do.

Well, I'll leave you to it.

My cellphone number is on the fridge.

If you need anything, give me a call.

I probably can't stay very long.

I just...

There's so much to say, I-I...

I don't know what to say.

I didn't come here to say anything

or to hear you say anything to me, so...

we can just sit, if that's okay.

Okay.

Mom.

I was looking for you.

You know I give Amelia and Koracick a hard time,

but... they're the best.

I was thinking about my first surgery.

The very first time I held a scalpel in my hand.

It was a simple lipoma, but I was terrified.

Hmm.

I expected to feel so powerful, invincible.

But the second that scrub nurse

put that 10 blade in my hand,

I went ice cold.

Okay, so then what did you do?

Diana Ross. "Ain't No Mountain High Enough."

The first time I heard that song,

it just filled me with joy and such calm...

so I just sang it

over and over and over in my head, in that O.R.,

until that same sense of calm and joy washed over me.

And it's been my secret weapon

for everything that's ever scared me...

My first surgery.

Labor with you, it was on an endless loop.

Every PET scan, every MRI.

I remember you singing that song in the kitchen

when I was doing my homework.

You told me it was old people music.

You wanted Michael Jackson.

I love me some Michael. Ooh.

I had to pry that red leather jacket off of you

to get you to go to bed at night.

Ah, that's true.

Oh.

I guess I used to do the same thing.

My first surgery, I sang a song in my head.

- I mean, it calmed me, you know? - I know.

I watched you.

My first... How did you watch?

Child, please. I am Catherine Fox.

Do you think there's a world

where I wouldn't sneak into the gallery

of my baby's first surgery?

Oh, you were a sight to see...

Mm.

I bet Harriet does the same thing someday.

Well, I'll be sneaking up into the gallery with you, then.

Deal.

That's a deal.

Now, can we please get you to your room?

Not yet.

- Mom... - I left the foundation in your name,

just in case anything happens to me.

Cecilia runs the day-to-day operations,

Charlie keeps the books humming,

but they'll need a leader, a North Star.

And in the event that I'm left totally paralyzed...

Mom, even if you can't operate,

you're still gonna run the foundation, okay?