The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives

We're not friends?

What the fuck is going on?

What the fuck? You just said that to me,

that you don't feel like we're friends.

Okay, then, fuck you!

Holy shit!

To be honest, I'm not surprised

with the way that Whitney's acting right now.

And this has just reconfirmed to me why I have kept my distance.

Mikayla, will you just talk to me and just--

Did I do something-- Like, genuinely--

- What happened? -If so...

Therapy's expensive.

I'm gonna send Whitney my bill after this conversation.

When did she tell you?

Uh, Zac told me last week.

Oh! And you just haven't said anything?

And I just haven't texted.

I've told her in person, but she's upset that I didn't tell her...

- When you knew? -...when I knew.

If someone posts, I'm literally terrified to not comment on somebody's post,

because I feel like we have this expectation now of,

if I'm not like showing complete-- And it's probably that.

I mean, I don't wanna hear it, like it's my fault.

This Whitney and Jen drama definitely makes me feel like

I'm back at the CMA drama from last year.

I posted about my CMAs,

not a single one of my friends from MomTok said a single thing about it or commented.

To hear nothing, like, what the fuck?

I think all the cool opportunities we're getting are great,

but I also think it has the potential

to pull us away from why we're in MomTok to begin with,

and make us lose sight of the genuine friendships.

It's hard to balance it all,

but if we don't have our friendships, what is this all for?

I-- I see where Whitney's upset,

but to be honest, I don't feel like our friendship has been genuine.

To be honest, I think it's very much been transactional and fake.

And I feel like, in order to protect my energy,

I've been just being cordial this whole time,

because I don't have the time or-- And none-- none of us do.

There's a lot of competition and jealousy between Whitney and Jen right now,

and that's where this is all stemming from.

But MomTok does not need to be dealing with this right now.

As we kind of grow in popularity, we're getting more and more offers,

like Taylor with The Bachelorette coming up.

And when we start getting more exposure and more opportunities,

I do worry it may drive us apart.

It's-- It's all transactional.

She's saying like, I don't care about her.

I'm like, "You don't care about any of us either.

You only came back for Dancing with the Stars."

I am feeling, like, so heated right now.

I don't even know if people are backing me up

or people backing Jen up.

But if there is one thing that I have learned being a part of this group

is that something is bound to happen,

but the show must go on.

After finding out about Dakota and Shinia, I feel completely fucked over.

And not only that, but I am on empty.

This is not the headspace I wanted to be walking into The Bachelorette.

I think it was very deliberate.

I need to start packing, though, so I'm gonna grab my suitcases.

I mean, Dakota knew what this would do. He's not fucking stupid.

It's just-- It's-- Yeah. It sucks.

Hi!

Oh, yep, get on in. You going with me, huh?

What d'you-- What's your expectations? Are you nervous?

It's okay to be nervous. I'm nervous for you.

I don't have any. I don't have any going in.

That way, it's like, whatever happens is gonna happen.

There's a part of me that even wonders if I'm capable of doing this

given the recent events.

And then there's another part of me that's like,

"Well, you already said you're gonna do it,

you need to do it, so pull through."

So kinda very chaotic in the head, for sure.

Which is no secret to anybody, I guess, at this point.

I'm so excited for you.

This is gonna be something, like, so fun,

and challenging, and emotional too.

And I just hope that you can--

Yeah, are you gonna be able to handle the emotional ride?

Honestly, like, I can't imagine more chaos than I'm already living, so...

- Well, never say that. - Wild.

Good morning.

Good morning.

What's up? How are you feeling?

I need to stay off of my phone.

Yeah, you really need to stay off social media right now.

Yeah.

I know you cried most of the night.

Last night, I got eliminated,

and to be honest, I am devastated and very much surprised.

The couple going home is...

...Jen and Jan.

Just like-- It's like a pit in my stomach, like--

Dreamt of this moment, like, my whole life.

And the fact that it's like over just like that, it just...

it feels just, like, weird.

Yeah, the positives even hurt more 'cause it's like those memories and--

Yeah.

You can be sad, but you also-- You have to be proud of yourself

'cause you wanted to inspire people and you've accomplished that.

You did this eight weeks postpartum.

I'll never forget, like, finishing my dance and looking over--

looking over at you and Nora...

...and just seeing how proud you were.

-I really gave it my all. -Yeah, you gave your heart to it,

and you have to be proud of that.

Oh, man, I think I'm still trying to process.

Thank you.

Thank you. Thank you.

You're right. I should be proud of myself.

Whitney has been blowing up my phone.

Apparently, she wants to have a conversation, which is--

You think she wants to apologize for how she yelled and screamed at you or?

No.

Think she wants to apologize for laughing when you got eliminated?

No.

Okay, fam, it looks like Whitney is laughing

when Jen gets kicked off.

Do you think that she's happy she's safe,

or do we think that she's actually happy to see Jen going home?

Hit me up in the comments. Let me know what you think.

I think she's worried about--

She's thinking about her, and being in the competition,

and she didn't like what I had to say on live,

and so, I'm sure she's--

-Oh, about you not voting for her? -Yeah.

And I would be rooting for a former MomTok person,

but we won't get into it.

Okay, we'll end this live now.

Oh! I'm out of this chat.

Whitney only cares about Whitney and her not getting eliminated,

and she knows that I hold power when it comes to that

just because if I say anything more, it could hurt her.

Hello, um...

I just wanna apologize for overreacting and yelling.

Still gonna say hi to you when I see you at the studio

and wish you luck, um...

But yeah, I just wanted to say sorry for treating you that way.

She knows she effed up. You wanna act like everything's okay?

I'm tired of being fake.

And I've done that a lot, and I'm tired of doing that,

and I'm not doing that anymore.

And if that means the whole group is against me

because I'm not friends with Whitney who's currently popular

and that's a cool thing to do right now, I don't care.

And I think it would be good,

I mean, just to have a cordial conversation

and just like, "Hey, this is my perspective.

That's your perspective." You guys can just talk it out.

You think-- You think I should go talk to her?

Yeah, I think someone needs to hold her accountable.

I know you feel like this is the end of the world,

but this is just the beginning.

I know it doesn't feel that way, but you're gonna go do way bigger things.

This journey of Dancing with the Stars, Jen was gone all the time,

and so, our marriage did get neglected.

At the same time, it was one of the coolest, happiest, fun experiences.

And I feel pretty sad for her.

But I also feel really grateful that she got as far as she did.

I've really learned that I have to cherish every second I get with her.

And it's also helped me realize, like--

I have a lot more respect for stay-at-home parents.

Getting away from Whitney

and going back with some of your other friends could be good, too.

-We don't have a lot of friends down here. -Yeah, if Whitney's down here, I'm--

Yeah, I should probably get out of here.

But she's gonna be in Chicago.

New York.

-It's New York? -The play is called Chicago.

Oh--

I'm dead!

Hello.

- Hi, gorg! -Hi!

- Gonna sit right here. -Wait, this is new. That's cute.

-Thank you so much. -Did you get that in New York?

- Mm-hmm. -Slay!