Still/Born

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He won't eat.

They said it's not always easy.

I could not find a spatula anywhere...

so I had to use a fork and I don't know, it didn't go well.

- Here, can you take him? - Oh, yeah.

- Here you go. You sure? - I got him. I got him, baby.

- How you feeling? - Sore.

Hello! Mm-mm!

Oh, yeah.

It sucks you're going back already.

I know, I know.

- Mm... - What?

No good?

Oh, no, did I... did I not cook them all the way through?

- I'm so sorry. - Don't worry about it, babe.

You're perfect.

Are you forgetting something?

No, no, I don't think so.

I got my keys, my briefcase... I'm good.

Okay, okay, get away from me, you weirdo!

You guys have fun today.

Try not to get lost in there.

Babe, your butt looks cute in those pants.

Not as cute as yours!

Oh, for Christ's sakes.

How do you still have anything left in you?

- She's adorable. - Oh, thank you.

She's a "he" actually.

Oh, uh, I'm so sorry, I...

Oh God, who cares. You can't tell anything at this age.

How old is he... she...?

He, uh, he's almost a week.

He's so tiny.

Yeah, well, he didn't feel tiny coming out.

Hey, did you move in to the big yellow house?

Yeah, yeah, that's us.

Oh, shit, I feel like such a bad neighbor...

we saw the moving trucks...

and we never came to introduce ourselves. I'm Rachel.

Uh, Mary... so you live next door?

Yeah, to the, uh, right, yeah.

That's great.

Awesome.

I should get him back.

He's gotta eat and I'm pretty sure he just shit himself.

We should totally set up a play date.

Yeah, yeah, I would like that.

All right, well, I will be in touch.

- Bye! - Bye.

Here... just give him one of these.

No, not yet.

Babe, you can try again tomorrow. He's gotta eat.

He's done it before.

Here, come on.

Just give him to me.

Okay.

Give this a try.

There you go.

Good job, buddy. Look at that!

Hungry guy.

Bye, sweetheart!

Ssh... ssh.

Ssh... ssh.

Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!

Mm, this is good.

I think the baby monitor's broken.

Really? I just bought that.

We need a new one.

All right, I'll pick one up tomorrow.

You feeling okay?

I'm just tired.

Do you want me to take him tonight?

No, it's fine, you got work. I'll be okay.

So, listen, I've been thinking...

we should probably, you know, take down that other crib.

No.

Come on, Mary...

This is amazing.

I'm not going to lie, this thing is terrifying.

Looks like a little demon baby.

Jaaaacckkkk.

Stop it, you're such a dork.

- Good night. - Good night.

Wor...

Mommy's got you.

Ssh... ssh.

It's just me. It's just me.

- Babe... - It's okay.

There's something in here.

What?

- Someone's in here. - It's okay, come here.

No, there's something in here. There's something in here.

- It was just me, sweetheart. - There's something...

It was just me. I'm sorry.

Ssh, ssh.

Well, you know, it's just night terrors, hun.

I mean, what do you expect...

after everything that's happened?

Are you getting enough sleep? You look tired.

No, Mom, clearly I'm not.

Well, you know, just try and sleep when he sleeps.

I guess it's probably a good thing there's only one.

Mary!

I'm sorry... I don't know why I said that.

It's okay, you've been through a lot.

Have you gone for a check-up?

Oh, we've got an appointment soon.

No, I mean for you.

You know, Jack offered to fly me out there...

to help you out for a few weeks.

You and Jack spoke?

He's worried about you.

I don't know why you had to have kids so young.

I'm fine...

Richard's got a small dick, so he has to make up for it...

in other ways, like getting this giant house.

What about you? How do you become a Stepford housewife?

Well, Jack became partner at the firm.

So, I guess we can afford things like this now.

You'll get used to it.

One a week...

I'm allowed one a week.

Oh, no, I'm good, thanks.

You're missing out.

Okay, screw it.

- Sorry. - Thanks.

You've had?

To mothers of the year.

Pretty cool, right?

Yeah, we have the same one.

I think our signals are getting crossed.

Oh, really? I thought something screwy was going on with it.

They look cute together.

So they're sending me to Pittsburgh next week.

I'm closing the Weller account.

Come on, this is huge!

You remember, we were still in that dump on East 3rd...

when I started it.

I loved that place.

Come on, Mary, what's up?

Nothing.

You're a bad liar.

I'll make you a deal.

Once I close it, we'll go to Hawaii for a few weeks.

Just me, you and the baby.

Yeah?

Okay.

Yeah, yeah, hi.

- Rachel. - Rachel.

Yeah, I live...

Oh, you guys are in that colonial.

How was your day?

- Good. - Good?

Oof! Oh God, it smells like somebody shit himself.

Oh, uh, yeah, I'm sorry. I was just trying to get dinner ready.

Yeah, it's okay, I got it.

Come on.

All right, here we go.

I can do this, right? Yeah.

No problem. Okay, let's see what we got here.

That's a big poop. That's aman-sized poop.

Good work.

Put this on.

Ssh... ssh.

Quiet down, sweetie, ssh.

Mommy's here... ssh.

Everything okay?

Yeah... I'm fine.

When a child is brought into this world...

it often arrives with a whole host of challenges.

You have a brand-new life that you're entirely responsible for.

Now in your situation, where the mother has lost a child...

at birth, it can put her in a state of perpetual fear...

where you have the fear that you're going to lose...

the other child as well.

This is totally natural with postpartum depression.

So what does that mean, what can we do?

Jack, would you mind if I talked to your wife alone?

Yeah, yeah, of course.

Thank you.

I'm sorry about that...

but I need to ask you some questions...

and I want you to be absolutely honest with me.

Have you been having any hallucinations?

Auditory, visual, anything like that?

No. None.

Good, good, good... excellent.

I'm going to prescribe some medication...

some antidepressants.

Just until you get your feet under you...

and get your self back onto the road of recovery...

nothing permanent, just temporary.

Until you find your bearings.

I know it's hard...

but I strongly recommend that you get rid...

of anything, anything at all that reminds you of your loss.

Anything of his that might be lying around.

Now as hard as this has been on you, you need to concentrate...

on the fact that you have this beautiful, baby boy...