The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives

-"I think Jen is fake." -

Okay, well, this escalated quickly.

With a smiley, just so you know.

Oh, so it's nice.

Having this confession come out has definitely caught me off guard

'cause this isn't supposed to be malicious at all.

Okay, Mayci, this is your fault.

I was like, "I didn't do that."

Okay, we can't say who did or did not do it.

And that definitely kinda put a damper on the mood.

That's a lot. Give yourself some grace.

Yeah.

I don't know who wrote the card that Jen was fake.

If it wasn't Demi or Jessi, because they have this weird beef,

then I would say they brainwashed someone else

to feel the same way about Jen.

-Okay. - Well, we're proud of you.

-This was fun. -So cool.

Also don't forget: Friday, baby shower, celebrate Billy.

There'll be bunnies there.

- Bunnies? -Little baby bunnies that you can hold.

Love you, drive safe.

I'm just like, "Okay, I'm here

"to be a part of MomTok and to be empowered and gain support,

but there's none of that."

I just wanted to get to the bottom of why are these women doing this to me?

And, like, what are your intentions behind our friendship?

And if you do have an issue with me, like, let's talk about it.

- Hi. - Hi.

- Welcome to Foxglove! - Thank you,

this store is so cute.

Thank you so much. So nice to meet both of you.

I think you've been talking with Miriam

-about your baby shower, right? -Yes. Yes.

I'm having a baby shower after baby's born because we didn't know the gender yet,

and now we do.

I invited everyone from MomTok

because I'm definitely still making efforts

to feel like I've been accepted back into this group,

and especially before the girls' trip.

And I've been getting really close with Jen and Miranda

because I... I need some friends.

- Are you a plant person? - I am, but I'm not.

Because I'll start it and then I'll forget about it.

I want to, though. I want to get to know them.

I got some that they're supposed to die.

What are they called? Perennials or whatever.

Perennials?

When it dies and comes back. I don't know.

Like, it's supposed to die?

Yeah, it's, like, supposed to die and then it comes back.

I want that. That's what's happening in my life right now.

And I thought I killed 'em! Same actually.

Have you talked to Jen at all? I was so worried about her.

-Like, nobody wants to hear that. -Yeah, she called me.

Does she want to have a conversation or no?

She wants to think on it for a while before she decides...

-Mm. -...if and when she's gonna bring it up.

Well, I guess we'll have to wait and find out.

-Yeah. Anyway. -Um,

I'm curious who all shows up at the shower 'cause I invited everyone,

but I would be shocked if everybody showed up.

Do you want me to guess who I think will be there?

Maybe guess who wouldn't be there.

Hopefully, that number's smaller than,

than the ones that would be there.

Okay, okay. I'll tell you who I don't think will be there then.

Okay, cool.

I don't think Demi, Mikayla...

-Jessi? Yeah. -...and Jessi will be there.

That seems about right.

Whitney wants to move forward with these girls.

And I do think that it is possible with some of them.

But, in order to move forward, I think you need to prove yourself,

that you really are sorry for your actions.

And, for me, I'm hoping this girls' trip can be a great opportunity for me

to get to know all of the girls and vice versa, and see where things go.

I'm, like, trying to show my support towards Mayci more.

And I thought it'd be fun if all of us got together

and, like, did something for her at the pickleball event.

-Funny shirts or painted our bodies-- -Oh, for, like, in support?

-Yeah. -Oh, that'd be fun.

I don't know what, but--

Painted our bodies! That would actually be hilarious.

We're in our bikinis and it says, "Wah!" Yeah.

I'm putting together this new group chat without Mayci,

because I want to plan something very special for her

at this pickleball event.

Let's hope that this redeems me a little bit.

Let's make the chat. I'm gonna make it right now.

Okay, so I said, "I thought it'd be fun to do something for Mayci

"at the pickleball tournament!

Maybe shirts? Body paint? Haha!"

I think that's good.

-I'm scared. -

-Are you scared? -I really am.

Let's see.

- -New text.

You should leave it. I'm just kidding.

-Don't, please don't. -For real. Like, wow.

Whitney just sent a text.

"I thought it'd be fun to do something for Mayci at the pickleball tournament."

I bet you do.

"Maybe shirts? Body paint? Haha! Thoughts?"

I don't think I'm gonna reply to her.

I'm definitely not responding to this message. Hell no!

I feel like she definitely, like, hit her head

and forgot what she did last year.

Mm, I'm gonna leave that one on read.

You have to respond, nobody's responding.

You have to say something.

It's just me and you having a conversation.

-Everyone leaves. -Goodbye.

Since therapy, Dakota is putting in an effort

and really trying to show the partner that he says he is,

and I'm communicating with him better.

But I need to now focus on healing, and that is a journey in itself.

It's very complex.

- Hello. - Hello!

Hi, my baby cakes.

Oh, you love your Nana, huh?

Think he looks like Dakota.

My family and I don't always see eye to eye,

like, at the barbecue, for example.

He lied, yes. That is so wrong,

but give him some grace.

You guys had seen each other three times.

And then, he came over and had sex with you?

What does that say about you?

But at the same time,

they've helped me a lot with Ever and my other kids

during this turmoil with Dakota, so I am so grateful for them.

Where are you and Dakota right now?

And then, we made our TikToks last night,

and then all my friends are like, "Taylor, Taylor."

-They're exhausted. -I saw that, too.

I'm like, "What the heck is going on?"

It's just a TikTok.

-It's really not that deep, like-- - I know, but it's like--

Okay, but you're-- I feel like those kind of TikToks, it's like,

"Oh, they're back together,"

-when you-- -It never said that.

-No, but it's-- -It said he's trying

-and he's cleaning my floors. -It's implying.

-As he should be. -It's implying.

Well, I don't know. We're working through things.

-Yeah. -But, like, we're not living together.

We're not going on dates.

We're not seeing each other that often besides when he visits his son.

- So, are you guys having sex? - Um...

'Cause that's gonna confuse him.

Yes, but it doesn't change anything. I told him that.

Why are you having sex with him then?

I have been hooking up with Dakota still

and it's just hard to completely cut that off.

It's almost like a trauma response.

Like, yes, I'm angry, but I still, like, want that.

It's like a-- It's a thing you-- It's just passion.

When I'm being intimate with him, I feel nothing.

I literally turn it off. Like, I don't know how I do it.

Like, he calls me the dude in the relationship

because after, he's like, "Can we cuddle?"

And I'm like, "No, I don't wanna cuddle. Like, if anything, you can leave."

I, like, almost turn it off like I'm protecting myself

'cause I know if I do feel, it will hurt really bad.

I feel like you shouldn't be doing that.

-Even he's shaking his head no. - Yeah, look at him.

He said, "No, Mom, don't do it."

I'm a little annoyed that my family is being a little judgmental

and trying to tell me, like, what to do.

It's my choice at the end of the day.

It's not really their place to say or tell me what to do.

I think you guys just need Jesus in your life.

I think Taylor just needs to not have sex with Dakota.

It's like giving him...

-What? -...the wrong vibe. Like, vibe.

It's like, "Do you wanna be with me, or you don't wanna be with me?

-Like, are you using me for sex?" - You just feel lonely.

Like, and you want that, like, connection.

-Well, go use your freaking vibrator. -That's not a person.

Honestly, sometimes vibrators feel better than the guy, anyways.

-True. -What?

-True! -Oh, my gosh,

I don't want to even hear this!

Have you never used one?

- No, we're not talking about that. -Yeah, we are.

I've literally found a book.

-Of what? - Aspen!

-Positions? - All the positions.

-Have you tried 'em all? -Yes.

- Ew! Even worse! - Ew!

Oh, my gosh.

I just don't think that you should keep having sex with him.