God Send

- You know I look out this window every day

and watch the people walking by, back and forth.

I just wonder, do they know God?

Do they even want to?

Do you believe in God?

Apple.

Apple.

Apple.

So now the tale has been told and it's not one

that we're unfamiliar with, however it is one

that has to I think take a certain responsibility

for the way that we view an entire vocation.

The last decades have absolutely marred the idea

of spiritual leadership because you get a David Koresh

in the '90s or you get a Charles Manson,

Jim Jones, you get these whack job people

that take total advantage of their position

of leadership in people's lives.

Particularly of the vile kind of scandal

that you find yourself squarely in the midst of.

But your story goes like this.

I got sick.

My passion turned to lust.

I got lost.

Like a tiny child would get lost.

It's not that you made decisions.

It's not that you're taking responsibility.

First you were sick and now you're lost.

Is that correct?

I have no one to blame but myself.

That, sir, is true.

And that is accountability.

Very good, sir.

Thank you, Alex.

It felt good to share.

Oh, I'm so glad.

Alex, am I going to make it?

That is not my area of expertise,

so I don't know.

- Well, thank you, Alex. - Thank you.

All right that's it, we're done.

We're done.

All right, ladies and gentlemen,

we are here with our latest guest, it is Miss Apple.

Where do we begin?

Why not the beginning?

It doesn't really matter.

I'm here to help you.

By listening.

Did you do it on purpose?

Well her self-esteem aside,

she has had a very, very interesting couple of years.

There was love.

There was desire.

There was dashed hopes.

Stop me if it sounds familiar,

if you wanna interject at any point here.

Anything you wanna say about yourself?

Why don't you tell me about Thomas?

What am I?

What am I?

- The devil. - No, I'm an angel, see?

Perfect angel.

Markus, can I ask you a question?

Brother Markus, he's been missing for a few weeks now.

Yep.

Markus, what happened to Thomas?

Well...

He lost faith.

He asked the wrong question and then the Preacher

said it was time for him to go.

What was the question?

- That was between him and the Preacher, wasn't it?

No, he can be saved.

Why? - You wanna know the truth?

Thomas is carrying a demon plague and he made Preacher sick.

And he left.

And the demon spawn in his body,

I tried to get it out of him.

I cast him out here.

I tried to get it out of him and it wouldn't leave.

It wouldn't leave and I tried and I tried,

I flushed it out.

And I flushed it out.

And it was spewing and he was vomiting.

It was green and brown and he was sweating

and I was sweatin'.

And he was saying words, speaking tongues.

Not of the Lord, but of Satan.

Of Satan himself.

And I cast him out.

And I cast him out because he was evil.

He is the devil.

He would have killed us all.

Everybody looks so well today.

How are we feeling?

Good? - Glorious.

Glorious, glorious.

And how are you?

Good.

- What did you think about this morning when you woke up?

How fun I was gonna have today.

How much fun I was gonna have today.

I was thinking that as well.

How much fun I was gonna have today.

I, Tertius, who wrote down this letter

greet you in the Lord.

Gaius whose hospitality I and the whole church here

in joy sends you his greetings.

Erastus and my brother Quartus send you their greetings.

Now to him who is able to establish you by my gospel

according to the revelation of the mystery hidden

so that all nations might be faithful and obedient.

Faithful and obedient.

Faithful and obedient.

What do we know that is faithful and obedient?

Master, his dog.

Husband, his wife.

The sun and the earth.

And if the earth doesn't obey, the sun will spin off.

Right into space, and become a ball of ice.

And that can happen to our hearts if we don't pay attention.

If we don't obey, if you're not faithful.

Are we faithful?

We are faithful.

We are obedient.

This is a good place.

I feel like a divining rod.

Mm, energy just flowing through me.

Mmm.

All right.

How did Thomas make it into the city?

He'd never been anywhere

so I don't know how he did it.

A miracle.

- Did you see Paul at community during congregation today?

He's never looked at me that way.

- Yes, he did and he's one of the most devout followers.

You would be lucky.

Would I?

Mhm.

Do you ever think of Thomas?

- You know better than to say that name here.

And why is that?

Because he's a sinner.

Yes, but don't you ever dream about

what would have been if he had stayed?

I just hope he's okay.

He is the devil.

I cast him out because he's evil.

That we know.

That we know, we know.

We know that we know.

That we know that we know.

We know that we know.

That we know that we know.

Thomas.

Thomas, what are you doing?

What are you doing?

Take me back.

I can't do that.

No, yes you can.

Yes you can.

Yes you can, just take me home.

You defied Preacher and you defied God.

I pray that God forgives you.

Thomas, take me home.

No, you can't do that.

You know once you're out, you're out for good.

Forever.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no.

You took me.

It wasn't my choice.

It wasn't my choice.

It wasn't my choice.

It wasn't my choice.

Like actual choices that matter--

By accident?

- This doesn't matter. - When you say

I had no choices, but you choose to tell me that,

how do you live with that kind of contradiction?

- Oh my god. - What?

- This is just ridiculous. - Why?

Because you want me to put on a show

and tell you my story, how I ended up here,

when I don't even know.

- There's nothing you wanna say, nothing you wanna uh,

be heard around? - Absolutely not.

Interesting.

Very interesting. - Okay.

So if I refuse to tell you anything, then what?

Then you just sit here.

I just sit here?

Look, I don't know what happens if you

refuse to say anything at all.

I do know that when people talk,

and they get honest, they usually feel better.

Am I still alive?

That's a great question.

Why don't you give it some thought?