Here and Now

Haven't you always wanted me to be open to the unexplainable?

Farid, I don't know.

It's all just starting to look a little manic.

You're perceptive.

Do you pick up on anything about me?

You need to destroy the thing in front of you.

You ready for what's coming?

Hey, what the fuck are you doing?

One word, and this pic goes viral.

We have to destroy Madison and her fucktard she-goblins.

Do you remember that night you and I went for beers?

I could've gone home with you that night, couldn't I?

Are you okay?

I'm fine.

So what do you say, want to stop by the office?

Ramon.

You dreamed my mother,

and I think I dreamt your birth mother?

Can you go now?

This is very important for my...

Oh, my God. Just get out!

Look, I'm serious.

I don't ever want to see this guy ever again, okay?

Look, I don't care what you say, all right? I'm going home.

Sweetie, stay here.

We'll figure it all out together.

You are reliving your thing with Uncle Ike, all right?

This is different. I am different, all right?

There's clear evidence that I have porous mind

and I pick up messages. What I have to do is...

- figure out what they mean! - Dr. Shokrani used the word "psychosis."

Some of the things that I have seen

have turned out to be real, okay?

I'm your son, Mom. Why do you listen to him and not me?

The doctor is very concerned that you

might feel that you...

The doctor sees his life in my game.

Of course he's gonna wanna keep treating me.

He's not what you think he is, all right?

So fuck him and fuck his fucking pills, Mom.

You can't just quit the medication. You have to taper off.

Well, then I'll taper off, but I'm done!

Are we fucking clear?

You shouldn't be alone. At least call Ashley or Duc.

No! And nobody call me, email me, or text me, all right?

Just don't fucking bother me!

Yup, you're having a flare-up.

I know that. Fix it.

Oh. Wait, you giants of modern medicine still have no cure.

You can make the blind see and the deaf hear,

and you can't help me stop shitting?

It's just colitis.

Yes, you have a chronic condition, but, hey, it's treatable,

it's intermittent, it's not terminal. You're lucky.

You managing your stress?

I wasn't stressed till I started shitting.

Oh. Hang on. Duc.

It's simple:

When you have symptoms, you power down for a while.

No. I refuse to let this stupid disease

keep me from achieving what I want to achieve.

Okay. Meds: Prednisone, Asacol.

Nine massive pills every day...

- Mm-hmm. - For the rest of my life.

- Right. - It's not fair.

Put your pants on, get outta here.

You're good. Next!

- Hey. - Oh. I thought you might be Ramon.

- What's going on? - He refuses to stay with us.

So... irresponsible.

We weren't expecting you. Is everything okay?

Everything's great.

Uh...

- Peace offering. - Oh, Ashley.

You didn't have to.

Yeah, I did. You're the only mom I have,

even if you are a white supremacist.

What's this?

Open it.

Mmm.

Wow. You may not choose them for yourself, but...

Are you kidding?

These are spectacular!

Here, let me...

Hang on. I got it. I got it.

I know you wanted me to be a social worker,

and you were super disappointed, but, you know...

a social worker wouldn't get you these.

You still think I look down on you for what you do?

It's not true.

That's ancient history,

and I'm so proud of you.

Thanks, Mom.

These are the most uncomfortable shoes I've ever had.

Mm-hmm.

- I love them. - Oh good.

You look fantastic.

Do I have a place to wear them?

Fuck it. Wear them to Whole Foods.

- Hello. - Dr. Shokrani.

This is Audrey Bayer.

What's wrong? Is... is Ramon okay?

I don't know. He left.

Can we meet today? Are you available at one o'clock?

Yeah, of course.

Any luck?

I got... I got sidetracked.

You kept my postcards...

and concert tickets.

We should probably throw them out, I guess.

Prince at the Warfield. Remember?

I remember everything.

Those are sexy.

Greg.

- Don't. - Seriously? I can't compliment you?

We know everything in the adoption file by heart.

Let me see. There must be a sentence...

something, a detail from the, uh, orphanage,

Saint Laura's.

I can't find anything.

It's weird, you know?

We couldn't even get them on the phone.

We didn't have time to talk.

We had to get him out of there.

Malnutrition, dysentery...

skin infection, his eyes were full of gunk.

Yeah, but... it's weird.

This is pointless.

Probably, but... If Ramon's not here,

there's no reason for you to stay.

I'm gonna keep looking.

Do what you want.

You're a free man.

Can you be any more self-righteous?

Hey.

Hey, I heard it happened again.

Can't anyone in this family just leave me alone, man?

Nothing's private. I mean, one second and everybody fucking knows everything.

Oh, yeah, it's so hard when people care about you.

Don't be an asshole.

Speaking of assholes, how's yours?

Yeah. Boom. I heard.

You little fucker.

I told them not to adopt you.

Mom still thinks I'm Ike.

They just won't accept that what I see is real sometimes.

Man, I had to get the fuck outta there.

Well, what are you gonna do? Do you have a plan?

Kind of. I'm gonna go see Carmen.

- My Carmen? - Oh, ooh.

Your Carmen?

Ah. Ducy, you like her?

What are you going to her for? I can help you.

A reading. What do you think?

It's always a competition with you.

Dude, I'm fucking gay.

Ramon, your order's ready.

Hey, um, my hot dog's ready. I'll call you later. I gotta go.

Hey. Okay, yeah. Don't do anything that makes me look bad.

Pathetic.

So, um, should I tell you why I called you?

No, let's just see what I get first.

- Okay. - Can I hold your hands?

- Oh! - What? What?

I'm kidding. Intuitive humor.

Funny. Funny.

Gimme... gimme your hands. Come on.

- You caught that? - The little buzz? Yeah.

That's interesting.

Yeah, I feel fire.

There's energy boiling around you.

Fire and... dreams. Does that make sense?

Yeah, that's exactly what I wanted to tell you.

The fire could be literal fire,

but it also feels like... creative fire

and it's connected with big changes.

Do you know what I mean when I say "creative fire"?

Maybe my... my game? Is that it?

Maybe, but I mean that creation which is also destruction.

When things have to be destroyed

so that they can make way for something new,

like... like a cocoon.

Don't fight it.

What's happening has to happen.

I certainly can't make it stop.

Tell me about your...

near-death experience.

What?

- Um, I never had one. - Are you sure?

Look back, because I feel... I feel strongly

that you crossed over and came back.

If I did, I... I don't...

know anything about it.

You are connected to some major energetic forces.

It runs in your family...

your family of origin, and... this goes back...

- way back in time. - To Colombia.

When you have these dreams, are you awake?

Yeah.

Yeah.