Faith

We ask this in Your name. Amen.

Hey.

Hey. What are you doing?

Reading.

How was it?

Good. You should have come.

Yesterday's mass was enough for me. Thank you.

It would be easier to get him to come if you came, too.

He's a teenager, Chris.

Did you enjoy going to church when you were his age?

No. But my mom made me and it worked.

He just... He needs some responsibilities.

That's all I'm saying.

Church is good for him.

I'd like to leave no later than 5:00 tonight.

I don't want to go.

Well, you didn't go this morning. So you'll go tonight.

Why?

Because we go to church in this house, David.

- Fuck that. - Hey! Hey!

- Don't you walk away from me. - Don't touch me.

Hey, this is my house so you'll do what I say.

Get off! Get off me...

Chris!

Don't touch me... Mmm!

Motherfucker! Get off me, you...

Fucker!

I'll see you later.

We've all felt that burden before, haven't we, church? Hmm?

That weight. Not enough money to pay the bills.

What are we going to do?

I really feel like taking a drink.

What am I going to do?

I have lust in my heart, Jesus.

And I want to act on it.

What am I going to?

My child.

My child is doing troubling things. What am I going to do?

David?

Hey.

You left your music on.

David, wake up. Hey?

Hey, David. You fell asleep.

Dave! Dave! David!

David! David!

David! David! David, wake up!

Wake up!

Buddy, come on. Hey, boy. David! David, wake up! Wake up, buddy.

Carol! Carol!

Carol, get down here! Oh, no!

- Boy, what did you do? What did you... - What...

What happened? Oh, my God. Oh, my God.

What did he do? Is he breathing?

No, No. Call 911. Go!

Come on!

God! Come on. Come on!

My husband, he's doing CPR.

Why did you stop? Keep going.

Keep going.

Chris...

I'm so sorry.

Thanks for coming.

God bless you, Chris.

God bless you.

Carol. Carol, I'm so sorry.

I'd like to pray for you.

Would you like that?

Please.

Dear Heavenly Father,

we come to you this evening with a very heavy hearts, Lord.

We come to you, pleading for your guidance and your strength, Lord God.

Our brother and sister have experienced a great loss.

The greatest loss.

And their hearts ache.

They need your love and your grace.

We ask you to give them the peace they need, dear Jesus.

Give them the strength to face this.

Give them the strength to move forward.

Touch them, dear Jesus.

Give them the peace they need.

Amen.

Don't!

Carol, don't.

I just can't.

Carol, I need you here.

Carol!

How long this time?

I don't know.

I just think it's better if I'm not here for a little bit, okay?

Chris, my boy! How are you?

Chris?

David's gone, Dad.

What do you mean gone?

He killed himself, Dad.

What? Why?

Well, he was sick.

He was?

Yeah, like Carol. You knew that.

I never...

I never thought about that.

How are you holding up?

I don't know.

I'm on my way.

I don't know if I can get away to come get you, Dad.

Don't worry about that. I'll figure out a way down there.

- I'll take a bus if I have to. - No.

I don't want you to do that.

I said, don't worry about it.

Just know that I'm...

I'm on my way.

And I'm praying for you.

I love you, Dad.

I'll be there soon.

- Thank you, Jesus. - Thank you, Jesus.

...safe. And as they become older, they become more and more close to you.

Help him now to discover you.

They need you to keep them safe. Help them make their own decisions

as they go into crossroads.

Because he hardly knows your priest, Carol.

How many times has he been to mass?

Pastor Vann actually sat with him. He prayed with him.

No.

No, of...

Look, someone's here. I gotta go.

No.

Just... I'll call you later.

- Dad! - Hey, boy.

Hey, come on in.

- How'd you get here? - Bus.

Oh, no. Was it okay?

Well, bus ridin' hadn't changed much in my lifetime.

Wasn't pleasant when I was a kid. Not much different now.

Well, I could've picked you up at the station at least.

- No need for that. - Come on in, here, take a seat.

- Let me hit the bathroom. - Okay.

- You want some coffee? - Oh, yeah. That'd be great.

All right.

Hey, Dad. Got a fresh pot.

Oh, good. That sounds good.

Here you go.

Where's Carol?

Oh, she's at her folks' for a bit.

Oh.

Yeah, it's been hard.

Yeah, well...

You did everything you could.

- I just feel like I failed him, Dad. - Well...

Of course you do. But you're wrong.

This was never in your hands.

- You took him to a doctor, didn't you? - Yeah.

Well, there you go.

And you spent hours praying for him and you had the church pray for him.

You did what you were supposed to do.

Look...

This may be wrong of me to say, but you were fighting an uphill battle.

I mean...

Carol is a good person...

but she has a lot of problems, am I right?

That's all I'm saying.

Key here is for you to hold on to the Lord.

That's what's gonna keep you going.

I'm struggling a bit, Dad.

You're human. God understands that.

But you gotta keep fighting.

We'll get you through this.

I need to get a suit for David.

He's got to look nice. He didn't have anything like that.

You want to help me pick one out?

Yeah, absolutely.

Ah, I wish they wouldn't show that kind of stuff.

Just really filthy.

There we go.

Let's see what the liberals are up to.

Dad...

Do you still miss Mom?

Of course I do.

We should have had a lot more good years together.

- It gets easier, though, right? - Well...

I know I'll see her again in heaven.

That makes it easier.

But it was different.

We knew it was coming.

Do you think David's in hell?

No.

Don't do that to yourself.

Look...

We don't know.

Right then and there in David's last moment,

he could have felt Jesus' touch.

Asked him into his heart,

and felt his forgiveness.

And I'm gonna believe that's what happened.

That boy was raised in the church.

In his heart he knew what was right. He knew he needed to get back to Jesus.

And you know that, right?

- Yeah. - Okay, then.

Hold onto that thought. Don't let your mind go there.

That's just the devil trying to test your faith.

Mmm?

Oh...