The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives

Alright, you guys, pack for a trip with me.

All my Polaroids and I'm gonna pack all my outfits.

-Jessi? - I'm in the closet.

- In the closet? -Come back to my second bedroom.

-Hi, how are you? - Good.

-I brought you some cookies. - Oh, my gosh.

-Did you make these? -Yes!

-Wait-- They're so cute. -I know you have a sweet tooth.

Um, literally, I'll eat all of these today.

And you've been going through a bunch of shit.

I mean, I figure Jordan's fat butt will be eating 'em too.

No, it's so true. We're gonna finish these by today, so-- Um...

- 'Kay. Wait. - I know.

So, New Orleans is, like, green and purple.

So, for one of the nights, I'm gonna do, like, this.

-What?! Did you buy these for this? -Isn't that cute?

Oh, I bought everything. Yeah.

-Nuh-uh. -Mm-hm.

A while ago, we decided that we wanted to go on another girls' trip,

so I booked us a house and everything's set in stone.

But after Saints and Sinners, it's definitely awkward timing.

She doesn't think you're good at hair and she told me not to go to you for hair.

And that's why I went to a different salon.

Talk to me, 'cause this is about me. Look me in the eyes, you narcissist.

Look at me.

Can we talk about the way that you treat your hu-- your boyfriend?

Uh, I'm gonna protect, um, your Ever in this situation.

Let's take it there, Taylor.

There's still tension with a few girls,

but the trip is paid for, so we are going.

Hopefully, we don't regret this.

Speaking of baked goods, because you're so nice to bring me this,

um, I got an update and I actually have to get surgery.

-On my thyroid. -Oh, my gosh.

So, are you're getting the whole thing out?

I'm gonna do half.

And then the sucky thing is, is they said they can't tell me if it's cancer or not

'til after the surgery.

-Really? -Like, they won't know 'til they

take it out.

But if I don't get it removed and it is cancer,

-it could spread to my lymph nodes, yeah. -How do you feel about it all?

I'm, like, trying to stay positive.

'Cause I do think that if you're sick,

if you dwell on it and have a bad attitude,

it can make you worse.

-Like, that's just my belief. -Oh, 100%.

Once the show came out,

I had a few nurses actually reach out to me on social media.

They all told me that I looked like I had an enlarged thyroid

and I should get it checked.

It prompted me to make an appointment,

so I went to a thyroid specialist and they did an ultrasound

and found that I had six nodules on this side,

one on this side that was enlarged.

Basically, we came to the conclusion that I should get a partial thyroid removal.

Having this health issue unfold, it does put things into perspective.

I think we need to focus on the bigger picture.

So, crazy that I could just be living with it

and not know, though. So wild.

Well, you do it well if you are

'cause, gosh damn, I don't think I would be like that.

I know, everyone else would be like, "I'm done. I quit."

No, I would be, like, laying in bed all day. I'm like, "It's over."

Like, "Everyone, bring me food and rub my feet."

You're like, "I'm going to Dallas. I'm going to LA." I'm like, "Huh?"

Now New Orleans. Are you excited for the trip?

I am excited.

I feel like I'm curious how are things gonna go.

I just feel like the trip has more opportunities

to be explosive than not.

I think I'm mostly worried about Demi and Taylor.

Demi and Taylor for sure.

And then I'm also just worried about, like, Demi and the hair stuff.

I'm kind of like, "Are you gonna just say really terrible things about me

and then justify it?"

-Oh! -So, yeah. I don't know.

I think I'll have to talk to Demi

-about it at some point. -That's so messy.

-I know. It sucks. -I'm sorry. That's, like, hard.

'Cause I feel like it-- Like, friendships,

especially when it's, like, your best friend,

it makes it so hard because it's like you don't wanna have to question them.

No, that should be the person you go to for things and, like, to vent.

That would've been hard for me if, like, Mikayla said that about me,

-I'd been like-- - "'Kay, bye."

In MomTok, from my perspective,

it's all about supporting women, being there for each other.

But right now, it feels petty and, honestly, kind of toxic.

It just feels like the drama is becoming the cancer in the group,

so we're gonna have to have deeper conversations

to work out those issues.

Yeah, wait. How would you handle this?

Because you're really good at seeing both sides.

And I know that can be frustrating for us,

but I need to know y-- like, how would you do it if Mikayla was doing this to you?

Me and Mikayla did talk about this situation

and she was like, "If you did that to me,

I would've been like, 'You're not my friend anymore.'"

Do we ever have any other method of transportation?

No, we don't. We just-- We have to ride on a pole to get to our place

or else it didn't happen.

Guys, where's the pole?

- Aw! No. - I'll be the pole.

Come and dance on me.

Ooh!

Can I, like, confess something to you guys?

Yes.

After the Saints and Sinners event,

um, I did a sage cleanse.

-No! -No!

- Yeah, I would've too. - I don't blame you.

-I was like-- -Wait, I'm dead.

-Get these girls outta here! -She's like, "Get this energy."

"Good vibes everywhere."

This whole group needs a saging. Seriously.

I really want to enjoy this trip.

But there is some unspoken tension between Demi and I.

We have not talked about what came out about what she said about JZ Styles.

So, it's looming in the back of my mind

that I need to pull her aside and hash it out

because I'm really hurt by it.

Well, is it, um, weird that the group's, like, down to seven right now?

It feels small.

'Kayla and I were together last night and Jordan got a call from Dakota,

and he was like, "Oh, he told me Taylor's not going on your trip."

Like, that's how we found out she wasn't coming. And I was like, "Oh."

Yeah, I think she's just, like, not mentally able to do this,

which makes sense, but...

Taylor's not here, and so, that feels a lot better to me.

I think she's kind of playing the avoidant game a little bit

and for a good reason.

I think she should be scared of me.

But I'm hopeful that MomTok will be able

to kind of repair some of the friendships within this group

with the toxicity not present.

I will say the energy without having Taylor here is nice.

Like, not feeling like I'm walking on eggshells.

That is nice for you, for sure.

I think it definitely sucks that Taylor is not coming on this girls' trip.

And now I feel bad because I told Taylor

that I'm gonna have her back at Saint and Sinners, and I didn't.

I definitely think that Demi is kind of at fault for the group's divide right now.

Taylor did wrong her in some situations,

but so did Demi to bring a child into it.

You just don't cross those lines.

But, yeah, there's definitely some weird vibes right now.

Do you guys not feel that way?

Do you not feel, like, that eggshell feeling around her?

-No. -No, honestly, I feel worse

because I thought that the blowup would be you guys.

And now that she's not here, I'm like, "What's brewin'?"

-Who is it? -Yeah, "Who is it?"

Mikayla, it's spooky.

Alright. Let's go! You guys, it's cute.

Wait, I love it!

The house is so charming and cute.

Like, we're just really immersing ourself with the culture of New Orleans.

- Oh. -Ooh, fancy.

I feel like New Orlean-- New Orleans. New Orleans.

What have I been saying? Princess Tiana says, "New Orleans."

This is your next inspo for your next hair extension line.

Yep. These are my wefts.

This house is definitely very New Orleans,

and I wanted this experience to feel very genuine and authentic.

So, I even hired a private chef to make us a very authentic Louisiana meal.

So, we're gonna really embrace the culture the very first night.

Oh, my gosh. Hello! Nice to meet you! I'm Jessi.

Oh, s-- Yeah. I'm like, "Here. I'll rub elbows."

It smells amazing! Look at this!

- Wow. - Oh, my gosh.

Oh, my God. It's beautiful.

-Wait, I'm obsessed. -Cute! Look at the mocktails.

Wow.

So, on this side, we have fried chicken, grilled chicken, blackened salmon,

garlic butter noodles, gumbo, New Orleans-style egg rolls,

crab cakes, shrimp and lobster mac and cheese,

Cajun dirty rice, zucchini, and squash.

Wait, I'm so excited. This is so fun!

-Whitney, you should have a drink! - Whee! Pop the Dom!

No, but, like, I want to, but I'm breastfeeding.

Alright, let's go get dressed really quick,

get our rooms, and then we'll come back down.

Hello. The fog!

-This is so freaking cute. -I know.

I want us to all be able to enjoy and have fun together,

but I'm also stressed out because I'm still hiding my pregnancy.

And I'm waiting for the right time to tell the girls, especially Demi,

because I know that she's been going through infertility for a while now.

It is so, like, emotionally draining. Like, it's...

Because you can't figure out, like, what's going on?

It's more like how bad I want that with someone that I'm, like, in love with.

Demi is so fired up about Taylor right now,

that it just doesn't feel like this is the right time.