A Long Way to Go Home (Jalan yang Jauh, Jangan Lupa Pulang)

When we were kids,

we thought many things would end.

Home.

Going home.

Parents.

Siblings.

Things we are bound to from the day we are born.

Leaving for somewhere far away changes everything.

It's like a journey home to find yourself.

A chance

to ignore the expectations of others

and to start thinking of questions for yourself.

Can we choose our own family?

And do we have to find our home?

There's always someone waiting.

A stranger who makes you feel accepted.

Someone who makes you see the world from a different point of view.

One day, you'll be able to get here.

When it happens, I'll be the one who screams your name so loud.

As we grow older,

we go through so many things.

Our first joy.

Our first small wound.

Our first hardship.

Hello.

Goodbye.

Loss.

Everything that piles up as questions in our head

about what we want,

about what we hope for,

about the reality that often doesn't meet our expectations,

but still, we have to accept them.

HELLO AND GOODBYE, IT COMES AND GOES

I only asked you

to spend some time alone.

Take a bath…

or anything.

When you've calmed down, we can talk about it…

Can you not throw things around when you're angry?

Then what do you expect me to do?

Do you want me to hit you?

Is that so?

Jem!

Jem!

We're done.

Hi, what brings you here, Ra?

Ra?

You can stay at my flat.

Don't go back to the studio for now.

Hi, Bagong.

Ra, are you sure you want to sleep on the couch? It's cold.

It's okay.

I'll bring you some blankets.

Hi.

Hello, Bagong!

What are you doing here?

I asked Kit to take me here.

-Come home with me, will you? -No.

-Come home. -No.

-Go home… -What are you…

-I said come home with me. -No.

No!

Come home…

Okay, stop. What are you trying to do?

What's that?

Awan, let's take a look.

Awan, let's take a look.

-Do you need help? -No.

-Is this the place? -Yes.

Flat number three.

No answer?

-Are you sure this is the place? -Yes, it is written right here.

It's empty?

What do we do now?

Where are we now?

We have the right address.

I know, I just want to know where exactly we are.

Let's just walk.

Angkasa, let me help you.

-Let me help. -It's okay.

According to our database,

she still lives at the same address.

Excuse me, sir.

What about the person next to her?

Do you know this "Honey" girl?

The account is no longer active, but the name says Honey.

She is Ani Suryani, not Honey.

She works as a nanny for some Indonesian families who work here.

Should we just book a place for tonight?

We'll go back here tomorrow.

But we're already here.

Let's give it an hour.

If nobody comes, then we leave.

Why didn't we ask for her number earlier?

You mean the "Honey" girl?

Aurora?

THEY SAY LIFE IS NOT SO MUCH OF A JOKE

-Hello? -Ang, have you found Aurora?

She just got back from campus.

Is she okay?

-Yes. -Glad to hear that.

Tell her to text me back.

Mom wants to talk.

Okay, I will keep you updated, Dad.

-I'll wait. -Okay, then.

-Ang, take care there. -Yes?

Look after your younger sisters.

Everyone's worried about you.

We didn't hear anything from you for two months.

You didn't even tell us about moving.

Okay, I get it. You moved without telling us.

But disappearing without a word?

I don't have a personal phone.

I only have one for work.

Why did this happen?

Hello. Ra!

You're home already?

Hello.

-Hello. -Hi.

Hi. Hello.

I am Angkasa, Aurora's big brother.

Honey.

-Awan. -Honey.

Please, have a seat. Come on in.

-Okay. -Come in.

Are they your family?

My siblings from Jakarta.

Why didn't you tell me you have a handsome big brother?

Ra, Awan and I were thinking of staying at your place,

but I think we'll just look for another place.

Have you found one?

Here.

Ra, I'm going to take a shower.

Ra.

We have made a decision.

You can stay here as long as you want until you get a place of your own.

Do you want me to go with you to take your stuff from Jem's?

Ra? Please wait, okay?

I'll be done in a minute.

It's okay, take your time.

We'll go right after this.

What's going on with her?

She seems worried a lot.

She's fine.

I paid most of the rent.

But go ahead and have it all to yourself.

Come on.

Wait.

You won't even apologize?

I'm not guilty, so why should I?

Honey.

Enough.

I regret sacrificing so many things for him.

Since you paid most of the rent,

he should've been the one moving out. You have the right to stay there.

The three of us should've gone there and kicked him out.

And he broke your phone. He smashed it.

But he didn't say anything?

I mean, you paid the rent.

Why does he get to stay?

When I confronted him…

Thank you.

He didn't even feel guilty, showing us that poker face.

Just forget that jerk.

He has no sense of guilt whatsoever.

-Angkasa. -What?

Let's not tell Mom and Dad about any of this.

Let's take Aurora to lunch tomorrow

and then we'll talk.

I need to use the bathroom.

Where have you been these past two months?

We didn't hear anything from you.

Everyone's worried about you.

We know you should've finished your study.

But you disappeared without a word.

And you didn't tell us about moving.

Don't be so selfish. At least say something.

Angkasa and I didn't want this to happen.

Who would ever want to have their sibling missing?

DAD

Something happened two months ago.

My phone was broken,

I didn't have a place to stay, and I didn't finish my final project.

But as you can see, I'm fine now.

No, you're not.

And you're here

to study, not to work odd jobs.

You have made all of us worry about you.

And you should not stay in someone else's place.

Here is the thing.

When you say you're fine, we don't think you're seeing what we see.

Please tell us.

Why did you disappear and move?

Why haven't you finished your study? Everything.

Fine.

I'll tell you.

But promise me, you won't overreact.

So about the exhibition, was it his, yours, or the two of you?

-It was his exhibition, but I… -Ra, he was using you. Can't you see it?

I told you not to overreact.