The Americans

Previously on "the americans"...

Listen, kimmy, this whole age thing...

When people see us together, it's weird.

Let's just hang out in private.

Elizabeth: Well, get in there

And see what you have to work with.

What I have to work with is a hormonal 15-year-old girl.

When you were admitted to the academy, I was pregnant.

That's my son.

Our son.

Your birthday's coming up,

And we still haven't decided what we're gonna do.

We can have some of your friends over here.

Pastor tim and his wife?

I kind of wanted to talk to you all about something.

What I really want this year is to get baptized.

She set this whole thing up so we couldn't say no.

If you tell her now, this will all blow up.

But at least she'll know who she is.

Choir: ¶ shall we gather at the river ¶

¶ where bright angel feet have trod? ¶

¶ with it's crystal tide forever ¶

¶ flowing by the throne of god ¶

¶ yes, we'll gather at the river ¶

¶ the beautiful, the beautiful river ¶

¶ gather with the saints by the river ¶

¶ that flows by the throne of god ¶

Welcome to

The reed street church baptism celebration!

Uh, we call this a celebration and not a ceremony

Because this is no empty ritual.

When we immerse ourselves in these baptismal waters,

We symbolically allow god's grace and forgiveness

To wash over us.

It's the beginning of a new life in christ.

Now when I look at paige,

I am reminded of that verse in 1 john --

"let us not love with words and speech,

But with actions and truth."

Paige gives her whole heart

In every political action that we engage in at this church,

Whether it's drafting letters to the white house

To demand that president reagan end his support

For the dehumanizing racial segregation

In south africa,

Or picketing the insanity and waste

Of the nuclear arms race,

Paige is always on the front line,

Challenging, questioning, yelling.

But, paige,

This is your most defiant act of protest yet,

Because today,

You make a public declaration

That you are a child of god.

Are you ready to be renamed and reclaimed

In the name of jesus?

Absolutely.

Paige jennings,

Upon profession of your faith,

I baptize you now

In the name of the father,

Of the son, and of the holy spirit.

Man: Yeah!

Hans: White honda. New jersey plates.

E-u-t-9-5-2-0.

Elizabeth: What about the blue ford

On willard street?

Virginia plates.

M-n-f...

3-5...

Close enough. That's good.

Listen...

I was at a student meeting.

An anti-apartheid group that I go to.

There was this one undergraduate -- todd.

He reminded me of students I knew back in johannesburg,

Hired by the government to spy on the rest of us.

I-I probably shouldn't have, but I-I followed him.

And?

I thought I caught him looking for surveillance.

You thought?

I-I broke off quickly in case he was,

But I'm pretty sure.

Maybe the cia threatening him with the south africans.

Reagan would approve that.

He -- he calls the a.N.C. Terrorists

While supporting botha and his murderers.

We'll look into it,

But do not follow him again unless I tell you to.

You need some help? Sure.

So...

How do you feel? Any different?

Uh...I guess. A little.

More at peace.

Uh, up a little more.

Coming up.

Yeah, right there.

I'm really proud of you, paige.

For what?

For being who you are -- strong --

Because we didn't make this church thing easy for you.

No, you didn't.

But you stuck to your beliefs.

Faith.

You can always do that, you know?

Stand up for what you want.

You should never feel pressure to...To do anything

That you don't feel is right for you.

I think it's crooked.

It's straight. Did you hear what I said?

yes, dad, I heard what you said.

I'm not gonna drink or do drugs.

No, I know that. So then what is this about?

It's about always remembering to be your own person,

Because no one knows what's better for you than you.

Even if...They care for you

Or have your best interests at heart.

You should always be true to yourself.

Going to church is being true to myself, dad.

I know. That's not what I meant.

Okay, dad.

I just want you to be happy.

that's all.

Thanks.

So, tori, what do you do?

I was a hospital administrator,

But I'm in between jobs right now.

A lot of people are.

Yeah. Things are picking back up.

Uh, volunteering at est has really kept my spirits going.

What's est?

Erhard seminars training.

That's where we all met.

What kind of training is that?

Mm, personal. Spiritual. Emotional.

Spiritual? Like church?

No.

Well, dad said it wasn't a church.

Right, dad?

It's definitely not church. It's not even religious.

It's about being in touch with where you're at.

You know, just being you,

And taking what you get and being cool with it.

People think church is all about feeling sorry for yourself,

But it's not.

Not at my church, anyway.

Paige just got baptized.

Oh. That's cool.

Listen, whatever works. Right?

I mean, everybody's got their own thing. Right?

I just know that est saved my life.

How? Henry.

No. I don't mind.

I had a really rough childhood,

And est helped me face what happened

And...Forgive.

Hey, maybe we shouldn't talk about this now.

But what is it?

Uh... it's a group of people who get together

And try and help each other out with their problems.

What kind of problems?

grown-up problems, henry.

Sounds weird.

You know what? It kinda is.

You have to eat, nina.

Please.

Mnh-mnh.

Just eat something.

Look, you made a mistake, but...

You have to stay strong.

For what?

I have nothing.

No one.

No one?

You said you had a husband.

I left him.

He was begging me not to.

How can you love someone who leaves you?

Well, if you're in love...

You still believe in love?

After all this?

Yes.

Of course.

What? What else is there?

Men don't think like this.

Only us.

Women.

In america, I had two lovers.

One communist, one capitalist.

I was whatever they wanted me to be.

I loved them both different ways.

But at the end,

They loved their countries more than they loved me.

Mmm.

Mmm.

Where are you?

Uh, my house?

No.

You know what I mean.

Hmm? Where's your head at?