Meet Me There

Another?

Vodka tonic.

So, you think LA is going all the way this year?

Doesn't really matter.

New York got knocked out in the first fucking round by Jersey, so...

Yeah, I know... Didn't even win a game.

Sad.

You from out east?

Cheering for New York, you gotta be from out east.

Staten Island.

Ah, yeah.

L.A.

Well... Thanks...

Anaheim. Close enough.

Texas, though. Jesus Christ.

Sick of this place already.

Been waiting 2 hours for this OKC flight.

It's like 4 hours for a 20 minute flight.

You know, when I sat down...

I was afraid you'd be rooting for San Antonio...

Oklahoma City?!

Yeah, that's the one.

Hmmmm, you, too?

Yeah, well...

Guess I'll see you on the flight.

Guess so.

Come on.

Running it again isn't going to help. It's saying it's declined.

That's... That's impossible. I have over $2,000 in that account.

No, I have. I don't have anything“ I, um...

You're gonna have to run it again. There's no-- Yeah, I don't have any options.

Here.

Oh, you don't have to do that.

I was gonna rent a car anyway, and we're going to the same place.

Don't worry about it.

Okay, well, thank you.

Oh... "Morris".

Thanks.

Alright, here's your card.

Here's your broken card.

Have a safe trip or whatever.

I will.

Yeah, I was at Rent OK...

And they declined my card...

I had them run it through again.

I've had problems with the stripe before.

But she said it was an actual "decline."

I should have at least $2,000 in there.

Yeah, I can hold.

No, I know for a fact there's at least $2000...

Did you try what I told you.

last time?

Sort of.

We keep trying stuff...

Or, not trying stuff.

I just want to help...

And, I don't understand.

What do you not understand?

Well...

We've been together 3 years.

And it's not... It's not always this bad.

Sometimes whenever I touch her.

It feels like she...

She things I'm trying... I'm going to hurt her.

And I don't understand.

Hurting her is the last thing that I want to do.

Ada...

What's it like for you.

Hearing Calvin say that?

That he...

He doesn't want to hurt you.

Good.

Just good?

Yeah.

I000

I don't know.

Can you be more specific?

Does it...

Make you sad... when he touches you?

Or...

Does it make you mad?

OranQYY?

Or scared?

What does it do?

I just wish he could read my mind...

Saying it makes it worse.

I just wish you could get it.

It's like this cloud of bad stuff.

It's around you all the time.

And it has nothing to do with you...

Or the person.

It's just there.

And it's following you...

Sometimes it creates a storm.

Some psychologists believe that...

Things that happen to you as a child...

Or, even in the womb...

Stick with you, and...

Play out later in your life.

I was reading the other day about this little girl that had been molested.

By the time she got home...

She couldn't remember what had happened to her.

I couldn't believe it.

But there's... There's something about the human mind.

Some memories are just to painful to keep.

Well...

Within reach.

Does any of this mean anything for you?

Do you think you...

Might be trying to not remember something?

No...

I don't remember a lot of things, though.

It's just never been in my head, so I would answer TI TI HO.

You don't remember a lot of things?

About being a kid? No.

I remember...

Every second of childhood.

Everything.

I remember when I was in third grade there was this...

Popular kid who had lost his bird.

And I wanted to be cool...

Or whatever. So I told him I had found it.

He got really excited. And... and, he liked me.

When I went home, his parents had called my parents and they were so happy.

But I didn't have it, so... whenever...

I had to get driven over to this trailer and apologize to this crying kid.

That I had just crushed.

Jeremy... was his name.

Shuhhhh... Childhood was fucking agony.

I don't remember any of it.

Do you have any videos you could watch... Or photo albums that you could look through?

Maybe those would, you know... spark some memories?

I have pictures from when I was a kid, yeah.

Why don't you...

Call your mom.

Ask her about it.

Or talk to your brother since you trust him.

And, maybe they would remember if something bad happened to you.

Hey, I found a picture of me and Jay in a Power Wheels.

He's wearing over-alls.

I think I found the “horrible thing."

Maybe.

Did you call him yet?

No.

I'm not gonna talk to my brother about.

Being molested or whatever.

Why not?

I don't... I don't know.

Did you call your mom yet?

No.

I don't want to get in trouble.

I don't want...

I don't want her to get upset.

I never figured out a way to talk to her about stuff like that.

How do you spell it again?

Sheol?

Yeah.

SHEOL...

Oklahoma.

Wouldn't that be she-ole?

I don't know.

People say things a lot of different ways.

Like, we say "guad a loop“ for“Guadalupe."

Whatever you say.

Sheol, Oklahoma...

You're not going to find anything Googling it.

I already tried.

The only things that come up are...

A picture of a church...

And... a...

The arrest record of my uncle for selling pot and trying to stab someone.

Jesus.

I think he's actually the one who got stabbed.

Ohhh kay...

It's like a population of 60 or something.

73.

73...

Yeah, there's not a lot on here.

Hey, here's me dressed as a cowgirl.

HEY".

It's only like 6 hours from Austin.

Like... 6 and change.

We should go up there.

See if it helps. See if...

You remember anything.

I don't want to go to Oklahoma.

If I'm going to drive 6 hours to some place, I want it to be some place I like.

Well, we gotta do something, don't we?

Yeah...

I mean...

If you don't want to talk to anybody...

And, you don't want to go anywhere--

No, I know...

Listen...

We'll... Make a big road trip out of it.

We'll... Pack stuff for a picnic.

Just go.

We'll make it a thing.

Do you really want to go to Oklahoma?

I love you.