River

You know my mom was only 17 years older than me?

We'll get through this, River.

Together.

I don't know what I would do without you, Amanda.

You'd figure it out.

Not even in death did he show up.

Did you really expect him to?

I don't know.

What would you tell your dad if he were here?

He's dead to me.

I wish we meant more to you.

Baby, do you know how much I love you?

I love you too, Mom.

Don't worry, I'll be back soon.

You are special, River.

Should I be concerned?

My little baby's leaving is all.

And I know you have to, babe,

and I'm proud of you

for taking ownership of your life.

Well, I know you're happy I'm not taking Jamie with me.

Mm, a little of that too.

Hey,

I just want you to live a full life.

Don't be like me.

What do you mean?

I love you.

I love you.

I'm gonna miss you.

Not more than I'm gonna miss you.

And you're gonna be all right.

Yeah.

Hey, look at me.

Just be strong.

I will.

- For you. - For you.

I know, I know.

Always.

My River.

I feel so empty.

It's okay to not be okay.

You can grieve.

I don't know how to move past this.

You don't have to.

How can I move

all her stuff into boxes?

Just take it day by day, okay?

I think you should live somewhere else, Riv.

Where would I move?

This is North Carolina.

Everywhere I go,

it gives me memories.

I saw that old tree house we used to love is up for rent.

I don't know, I don't know.

Come on, Riv.

The packing will be here when you're ready.

I'm not ready.

What am I even doing?

Ugh, how great does this energy feel?

Come on, Riv, this is so you!

I do feel some pressure lifted.

But still, I don't know.

Oh, no, you are at least

looking at the place before you say no.

Please?

- Okay. - Come on!

How could you not love this place?

It is magical.

But?

I just, I don't think I need more change right now.

You definitely do, Riv.

Okay.

I'm only doing this because you're my best friend.

You're doing the right thing, Riv.

Then, why do I feel so weird?

Your mom just passed away.

Just give yourself some time.

Did you bite the picture?

Who knows.

That was definitely your brother.

Oh, yikes!

You could use a new pair.

Have you thought about going back to the store yet?

Not really thinking about it.

Just I need to save money,

and Michael,

that poor man needs my help.

It's about the only job I can handle

at this point, honestly.

I get that.

My family has offered to help, you know?

I know, and I love you and your family,

but I have to do this on my own.

Mm, well, one day you'll take our help.

When have I ever asked you for help?

Hm, let's see,

uh, there was that one time in second grade,

when you desperately needed my Hello Kitty pencil.

Don't even think about that.

How is this real?

This isn't how I imagined coming back here.

Well, I really miss that sweet marmalade smell.

It feels like home.

I can do this.

- Hey. - Hey.

Mm!

I'm surprised you wanted to come back to work so soon,

but I'm glad you reached out.

How are you doin', dear?

I'm okay.

And you need my help.

I do, I do.

Now, my office is always open to you as well.

I'm a therapist first and foremost.

I just,

I don't think I'm ready to talk about things yet.

Of course.

And you know how much I appreciate you.

I mean, those dinners are so amazing.

Your,

you and your mother will always be family to me.

The day you came to this Earth

was your mother's proudest moment.

We don't have to talk about this right now, okay?

Where should I start first?

Well, all right, let's take Mrs. McKenzie's jams

and put 'em on that wall over there.

- Okay. - All right.

We'll do what we can for her, Mama.

I miss you too.

River.

Hey!

- Ditching your brother already? - What?

I thought you were helping him wedding plan today?

Oh, yeah, you know how he is.

Yeah, but,

you know how Vanessa is.

A lunatic.

Are you all right?

Yeah.

I'm off in about 20 minutes.

Okay.

You thought about hiking yet?

No, not yet.

I think it would be good for you.

Yeah, me too,

but you saw my old ones,

and I just need to save up money to buy new ones, so.

Hey!

That display looks great!

Thank you!

Do you need me to move anything?

No, no need.

Well, hey,

- how you doin', Amanda? - Hey.

How's your brother's wedding coming along?

Is he gettin' the jitters yet?

Uh, it's coming, you know how he is.

Well, I know that Jamie had all the ladies chasin' him,

that's for sure.

You know, I always thought you two

would get back together, River.

Well, some things are better

- left in the past. - Oh.

Perhaps.

Oh, God, he's getting married.

Why am I thinking about him right now?

Should I reach out to him?

Maybe I'll send a text?

This is ridiculous.

Oh, my God.

Hey, baby, I'm just leavin' practice.

Um, I know you wanna check out that movie,

so I'm a come by and get you,

and then, uh, we'll have dinner and a movie.

How could I walk away?

River, please don't cut me out of your life.

I know how you want to move to L.A.,

but I know we can make it work.

Riv, stop!

Loved you my entire life.

Jamie, please stop.

We haven't been with anyone else

to understand that this is even real.

Tell me,

what's more real than me and you?

I've never left this small town

and neither have you.

You're makin' a mistake.

Maybe,

but I need this.

My mom has never even left.

I want more, I can't explain it.

Whatever, that's it.

I'm calling him.

Oh, God, but what if he answers?

Ugh.

Oh, no.

And, defeated.

Riv?