In Treatment

Hello, Mia.

Paul, are you all right?

Yeah, I'm, I'm fine.

I'm so sorry... about your father.

Uh, thank you.

In Treatment, S02E21 Mia: Week Five

I found out from Ellis at work.

- How are you? - I'm, I'm fine.

You can't really be fine.

I know that I'm not supposed to talk to your lawyer, but

you never canceled on me before.

Well, some things are bigger than protocol, aren't they?

I mean, life and death, and...

losing your father.

Paul?

Sorry.

It's ironic that we were talking about your father last session.

Yeah... I've, I've thought about that.

You know, the strange thing is, I haven't spoken to him since then.

But I can't imagine what I would do if...

I'm sorry.

This, this is not about me today.

Did you get my card?

I stood in that store... forever, trying, trying to pick it out, you know,

what kind of picture, what kind of... message?

What did you think?

I, I, I haven't read it yet.

- Because I sent it? - No, no, no, no, no.

You were away all last week and, well, you haven't opened your mail?

That's not a good sign.

Sounds like you're worried about me.

Well, you do look -- tired and...

and you're not wearing a jacket.

Oh, yeah.

Are you... sleeping?

- You're eating? - No, I'm fine.

Yeah, you said that before.

I know that you have to be the neutral shrink,

but, you know, this is a relationship... of a sort, isn't it?

Yes, it is.

And, um... I appreciate your sympathy.

Granted, I am not the first person you would reach out to.

Our last couple of sessions, I have been...

a challenge, to put it mildly.

But, you know, I was concerned. I mean, I wondered, who do you have?

I don't know if you're close to your ex. I assume, your kids are with her.

And you haven't been in New York that long, and it's hard to find friends.

Well, you're worried I'm lonely?

No offence, but I can see it in your face.

Is it possible that, uh, you're afraid

that I'm not ready to give you my full attention today?

No. No, that's not it. I mean, this is me, being caring.

- Is that okay? - Yes, of course it is. It's just...

It's not what you...

Look...

- You don't have to worry about my feelings. - Does anybody?

Would you rather I yell at you for canceling?

Are you saying you felt like yelling when I canceled?

- I was fine. - No other reaction?

- I got over it. - Before or after you'd seen Ellis?

Okay. Well, true, I, I went to Ellis.

Also true, I was a little upset.

More than a little.

And then I felt like a jerk when I found out why you had canceled.

But that was last week.

And now everything's changed.

Oh... Why is that?

Because I'm pregnant.

Oh, that's... that's really, uh...

big news.

No kidding.

You surprised?

Yes.

Yeah, me too.

Especially with my FSH levels.

It's... strange timing, with us...

life and death.

Do you wanna have the session out in the snow? I mean...

Oh, uh... So, you, you were, you were telling me about your...

FSH levels.

No, we were past that.

I was talking about our timing.

20 years ago you were having your first child and I was losing mine.

So, have you been thinking about that time?

It's different. It's different this time. I know, everybody says, you know,

you get pregnant and everything changes, but it's really true.

I mean, my body feels totally different, I've stopped smoking.

You know, there's this, there's this preschool on my block that I always avoid

because it's, you know... moms with their "Humvee" strollers, blocking everyone.

you know, like they're privileged because they've procreated. Now...

I just walk through smiling.

So, you went from, from jealousy to

feeling like... part of the, the club.

At work, Bennett...

who's leaving Friday, finally...

he had asked me to take over this big case,

you know, assuming that I would just crush the other side, as usual.

But I took one look at the poor family and I cut a deal.

He was pissed.

You're sure you're not trying to, uh... punish Bennett?

He's marrying Stefanie. That'll be punishment enough.

I feel bad for their kid, you know.

I mean, he's a double adulterer and she's a bimbo.

- Why are we talking about Bennett? - Well, you brought him up.

And he is somebody that you did want to have a child with.

It's, it's not his. I did the math.

Still it's interesting that you found out that Bennett was

having a baby, and a couple of weeks later you're... pregnant.

Are you saying that I'm competing with Bennett?

- That's, that's what you think I, I, I think? - "That's what you think I think?"

Paul, I'm having a baby because I, I went on a sex spree,

that weekend, without using protection.

And maybe that wasn't the smartest thing, but maybe it was.

So, maybe you weren't just being... reckless,

maybe you might have been...

- trying to get pregnant. - I figure it was guitar boy...

and not the middle-aged cop, which is good...

'cause, there won't be any paternity issues if I decide not to tell.

Guitar boy doesn't even have my number or my last name.

So, you don't want him involved?

I know the baby needs a father, but not one like that.

Does this... silence mean you're appalled?

Hey, I'm pregnant.

I thought that...

you would be happy...

that we'd celebrate.

This is really bad timing, I know, I...

What would you like me to say, Mia?

"Wow, Mia, that's amazing!

"You came in here, saying, you wanted a family, a child,

"and then you got it. Congratulations!"

In other words, you had a problem, and now you have a solution?

Well, can't that happen, ever?

Of course. Sounds ideal.

- What else would you like to hear from me? - This game again?

Okay. How about:

"Don't worry. You're, you're gonna be a good mom, and I'll be there for you."

Could you tell me what that means: "I'll, I'll be there for you"?

I have major decisions to make.

Like what?

Like: Do I need a doula? Should I have genetic testing?

Will my apartment be big enough?

And you want me to help you with those decisions?

How much time should I take off? Or should, should I just quit and move to the country?

These are all big questions.

Your sisters have children. Have you spoken to them?

They are busy with their own kids. And my mother? Forget it.

And my dad? He loves his grandchildren, but...

he doesn't... do anything.

He just lets them admire him.

You sound sure that your mother wouldn't want to help you,

- but she did with your sisters. - That's different.

They're younger, they're married...

and she actually likes them.

And she doesn't like you?

For me, she was less of a mom and more of a, a vase:

beautiful, but hard to the touch.

- That's a very powerful image. - She was beautiful,

till I ruined her figure.

Ahh yes... her mantra.

Has that been on your mind this week?

I always kept in shape. You know, I think, men like that. And now, it'll all go.

I hear your feet get bigger. I, I hate big feet.

Not to mention what birth does to...

sex.

I mean, you've been there.

It, it stretches, right?

The size of a baby's head,

compared to the size of a penis? That can't be good.

And the man thing it's over, isn't it?

Guys my age, they, they have grown kids.

They don't want change diapers again. I mean, would you?