All the Long Nights (夜明けのすべて)

How do I want people to see me?

Diligent and sincere. That doesn't sound right.

Not bright and cheerful either.

Thoughtful and kind sounds nice

but there's more in me.

I don't want praise for doing my job well.

Neither do I want status or fame.

I don't want anything in particular

but I don't know how to act in front of people.

Above all, I'm fed up with myself for feeling this way.

Every 25 to 30 days

a few days before my period, I become uncontrollably agitated.

Before their period

women often feel mentally unstable and suffer from headaches and dizziness.

But when the symptoms are severe, they're diagnosed with PMS.

Premenstrual syndrome.

Insomnia from anxiety, lethargy, a depressed mood.

There are various symptoms of PMS

but I get irritable for no good reason and become hostile.

What's the matter?

Ma'am?

Don't throw things.

You can't sleep here.

My symptoms weren't so bad before and people tolerated my behavior.

But they got worse by the year.

The 3rd year in high school, my mom took me to a gynecologist.

Your mom's here.

Okay.

I was relieved to get a diagnosis

but the herbal medicine I was prescribed didn't do much for me.

Hiya.

Everything's here.

I'm sorry for the trouble I caused.

Please fill out this release form.

Sorry for all the trouble.

After I started living on my own

my mom called me, almost daily and sent me care packages.

I appreciated the thought but it made me feel worse.

Even now as an adult, I keep causing trouble for my mom.

She says it's her job as a mother but I can't keep this up.

Thanks.

- Which way? - This way?

- I think so. - Yeah?

Good morning.

I haven't seen you in a while.

Yes, it's been a while.

Another incident?

Yes. With my boss at the office...

It could be stressful in a new environment.

And I was taken to the police.

What?

My boss didn't report me or anything.

The police picked me up when I felt Dizzy and was resting on a bench.

I see. But you've been doing well lately.

Doctor...

I'd really like to go on the pill.

I advise against it.

Your mom has a history of thrombosis.

Are you taking the herbal medicine?

Yes.

What should we do?

Let's try something else. You can quit if it doesn't work.

- Another medicine? - Yes.

It's called alprazolam. It calms your nerves.

But it could make you sleepy so be careful.

Okay.

Thank you.

- Okuda, please. - Sure.

How am I supposed to understand?

You have to specifically instruct me to make 35 copies.

Don't just leave it on my desk. What if I overlook it?

Yes. You're absolutely right.

Don't humor me just 'cuz I'm new here.

I'm not. I should've handled it with greater care.

I can't stand this.

I'm not making copies.

This isn't like you.

I wasn't feeling well yesterday.

- A medical condition? - No.

I apologize for being so rude.

It's okay. I'm sorry too.

A new recruit of 2 months.

Herbal medicine and herbal tea weren't enough.

I couldn't screw up again.

But I didn't know how strong this medicine's side effects were.

I got unbearably sleepy.

I knew I was in trouble but my mind started to shut down.

I fell asleep on the spot.

Fujisawa?

How long is your summer vacation?

I couldn't stay a minute longer being known as a nutcase.

Fujisawa!

I fled to the restroom.

and decided to turn in my resignation that day.

It didn't matter if I was there or not. They were probably better off without me.

They readily accepted my resignation.

You're at a turning point in your life.

Get rid of the evil spirit on your back and everything will be all right.

Hold on.

Hello. Free tissue paper.

Thank you.

Hello. Hello.

I don't understand what happens to me.

I can't move my body the way I want it to

nor can control my mind no matter how hard I try.

But I don't want to be pitied or be worried about.

I have energy and want to keep moving.

Plus, I need money to survive.

It's no use complaining.

"5 years later"

I'm back.

- Hi. - Hi.

Hello.

Hi.

Hi.

You bought a lot.

They're for you.

You didn't have to.

- Here. - Thanks.

I'll go make some tea.

- I'll do it. - I got it.

- Thank you. - It looks good.

- Here. - Thanks.

For you.

- Thank you. - Sure.

I'll put it on your desk.

Thanks.

Yamazoe.

It's for you.

No thanks. I'm not hungry.

Then take it home.

I don't like whipped cream.

Oh... I see.

Yamazoe, have you gotten used to working here?

It's nothing like your old job. Not challenging enough?

It's fine.

I'm here for you.

Okay.

Does plain carbonated water taste good?

Not really but it's refreshing.

I see. Maybe I'll try it sometime.

I'm done with these.

Okay.

Tell us about Kurita Science Corporation.

We make science kits

for microscopes and telescopes to help children

study the microscopic world to the vast universe.

In my grandfather's generation, we also made lenses.

But the factory burned down in the air raid during the war.

Then our business became what it is today.

- Next question. - Okay.

Hello.

Hello.

Hello.

Our broadcast club is making a documentary about your company.

May we take a video?

Of course.

Thank you.

- Yamazoe. - Yes?

This is Dan, Ms. Sumikawa's son.

- First time, right? - Yes.

I'm Sumikawa. Nice to meet you.

I'm Yanagisawa. Nice to meet you.

- Welcome. - Thanks for having us.

Should we go over there?

Okay.

Stop drinking carbonated water.

Carbonated water.

Huh?

Didn't you hear me?

That sound gets on my nerves.

Stop drinking water and do your job.

Am I being unreasonable?

- Let's go. - I'm not, am I?

We're not finished.

You didn't even say hello to our guests.

- Don't run away! - Come on.

- Did I say something wrong? - Not at all. Let's go.

Then why is everyone like this?

I can't stand it.

See you tomorrow.

See you.

Coming.

Yes?

Hello. A package from a Tomoko Fujisawa.

Will you leave it at the door?

Okay.

Thank you.

She suddenly snapped about the sound of carbonated water.

Yeah? The world is full of different people.

Everyone else is so unmotivated.

I cringe when I think I might turn out like them.

Is it wrong to want a sense of accomplishment at work?

Sense of accomplishment....

Mr. Tsujimoto, take a look.

I didn't mean to interrupt you.

It's okay. I know you're busy.

Let me talk to HR again about getting you re-hired.

We'd love to have you back.

Thank you.