The Confession (İtiraf)

CONFESSlON

-Hello? -It's me. How are you?.

-I'm OK. You?. -Not bad. I'm at work

-I wanted to call before I left. -Fine.

-How's it going?. -Not bad.

I should be back in a couple of days.

Good. The heat here's really getting to me. It's the same with you?.

Pretty much. But it's supposed to cool down tomorrow.

That's good then.

-How are your shoulders?. Still bad?. -No, they just hurt a bit at night.

-Must be the humidity. -I suppose so.

-Take care. -I will.

-What are you doing tonight?. -Not a lot.

There's a meeting. Then I'll go back to the hotel.

-Are you bored?. -A bit.

-Well, there's only a few days left. -Yes.

Me and Nermin are going to a reception tonight.

-What reception?. -Some client opening.

-We'll just drop by for a while. -Fine.

-I'd better go. Nermin's waiting. -OK.

-Goodbye. -Bye.

-Mr Harun, the meeting's about to start. -I'm on my way.

-Hello?. -It's me. Were you asleep?.

-Just dozing. What's the matter?. -Nothing.

-You didn't sound good. I was worried. -I'm fine.

-What time is it?. -Nine-thirty.

I'd better go so you can get back to sleep.

-Good night. -Night.

Hello?.

Room 21 6 please.

Hello. I'm back. Don't worry.

See you tomorrow, good night.

Harun...

Harun Are you asleep?

Grand Hotel, can I help you?.

-Room 21 6 please. -Hold the line, please.

-Who am I speaking to?. -Who do you want to speak to?.

Who do you want to speak to, sir?.

Hello?.

Hello?.

-Hello?. -lt was me calling.

I got cut off.

I was surprised to see you at home. Are you OK?.

Fine. I'm fine.

I decided on the spur of the moment, that's why I didn't call.

-lf I'd known, I'd have been at home. -Doesn't matter.

I didn't get to see you this morning. There was an early meeting.

Never mind.

OK. See you tonight then.

Harun, is something wrong?.

-Like what?. -Well, I don't know.

-It's nothing. We'll talk tonight. -lf you say so.

-Goodbye then. -Bye.

It's me. You want to have dinner together?.

Sure.

I'll be home early anyway.

-Shall we eat out?. -Sure. You decide where

-... and call me before you leave. -OK. Bye.

-Go on. -I was just going to ask

-what you did after work. -Nothing. I went for a walk.

-We should have eaten at home. -What is it?.

-I don't know. It would've been nicer. -We can go if you want.

-ls something wrong?. -Why do you ask?.

-You're very tense. -No, I'm not.

-ls something wrong, Nilgun?. -Like what?.

Don't say that. It's obvious there is.

We should talk about it like adults.

OK, let's talk. You start then.

Don't get angry. I didn't mean anything bad.

-I want to break up. -I know that.

-What else?. -I already know that.

Don't threaten me. It's you who didn't want to drag it out.

Don't make me mad. I never said anything like that.

I said let's talk about it like adults.

You said we shouldn't drag it out.

I said I wanted to break up. And you threatened me.

I didn't say we shouldn't drag it out. I said we should talk.

Whenever you don't like what I say, you start threatening me.

We can't talk like this.

OK.

I didn't threaten you. But if you thought I did, I'm sorry.

I really want to talk.

I accept whatever I have to go through. I just want to know everything.

-What do you have to go through?. -That's what I want to know.

But I've told you what you wanted to know, Harun.

I said I wanted to break up. What more can I say?.

Nilgun, let's not start that again.

What do you want me to say then?. Stop intimidating me.

-What's going on then?. -What do you mean?.

Look, I'm not an idiot. Be a bit fair.

-What are you talking about?. -Don't be disgusting!

-I only asked what's going on. -So there's more to come?.

You've made up your mind. You're just trying to justify what's in your head.

-Do what you want. I'm going. -I'll kill you, Nilgun.

If you go, I'll swear I'll kill you.

It's all so obvious. You think I can't see?.

Your getting back late, whispering on the phone...

I believed in our relationship all these years. In all your bullshit.

This has been fucking me up for weeks, and I haven't said a word.

Have you ever considered what I've been going through?.

At the end of the day, I am your husband.

You could have some respect.

Out of your own self-respect just tell me and then fuck off.

-Don't talk to me about self-respect. -I'll smash your face in.

What do you know about self-respect, you whore?.

Who were you calling last night?.

I said, who were you calling?.

-What do you mean?. -Who were you calling?.

-Nermin. -Why call at that time?.

Why not?. We spent the evening together. I was a bit drunk.

I called so she didn't worry. What's wrong with that?.

Is that why you came back without telling me?.

-ls what why?. -Were you checking up on me?.

What does all this mean?.

Answer me. What does all this mean?.

Something's got into you, Harun.

I'm going. I can't take this any more.

Grand Ankara Hotel.

I'm sorry, Suha. I know I'm talking rubbish.

-No. But we've told people you're ill. -You're right.

-Harun, is something wrong?. -No.

I'll call and have a word if you really want.

But first tell me why you want to go back when you only just arrived.

Is it something to do with a woman?.

Harun,

I know I'm putting pressure on you...

But we are friends. Don't forget that.

-Hello?. -It's me.

I'm listening.

Yes, I'm listening.

I wanted to apologise for last night.

-OK, I'll see you tonight. -I'm working, I'll be late.

OK.

-Hello?. -Nermin, it's Harun.

Hi, Harun. I didn't recognise you. How are you?.

-Fine. Sorry, it's a bit late. -Doesn't matter.

I wanted to know if Nilgun's there.

She's just left. Isn't she home yet?.

-No. When did she leave?. -About half an hour ago.

She'll be here any minute then. Sorry to disturb you.

-Good night. -Night.

Hello?.

Hello?.

Harun, what's going on?. I was worried when you left like that.

It's nothing. I was a bit fed up. Sorry.

Harun, don't get all official with me. We're friends.

I just want to know what's going on. There is something wrong, isn't there?.

-Suha... -Harun, are you OK?. Hello?.

Can we talk later?.

OK. Call me whenever you want. Doesn't matter what time.

-Thanks. -See you in the morning.

Nilgun,

Nilgun, I can't take this any more.

Are you listening to me?.

Nilgun, are you listening?.

-Yes, I am. -I really can't take this any more.

It's hurting you, too.

Forget the hurting. It's not knowing the reason that kills me.

I'm wasting away! Dying!

The fear, the uncertainty is killing me.

It's destroying my soul. I can't take it any more.

You can't treat a person like this. You have to have some trust.

Maybe you can't help what happens. Even if you don't want to be bad.

But I'm not as weak as you think. Please tell me.

I swear on my honour. I swear on everything I have.

If you say there's nothing going on, I'll believe you.

I won't say a thing. Won't ask a thing. I'll keep quiet.

I'll leave right now if you want.

I'll leave you in peace. I'd die rather than see you again.

Just let me know what's going on.

Tell me what's happening.

Please don't refuse me this. I'm begging you.

Aren't you going to say anything?.

Talk, you bitch! Talk!

I'm not a plaything. I'm not your pimp.

Talk, I said! Talk!

I said, talk! I'll kill you!

Tell me what the fuck you've been up to, OK?.

I'll kill you!

Look at the state we're in.

Look at the state you've got me into.

I'm as good as dead. Dead.

I'm finished. Finished.

What are you doing?.

What are you doing?.

-Where are you going?. -Get out of my way!

-Where are you going?. -Get out of my way, I said!

-First tell me... -I said, get out of my way!

You can't go without telling me.

Harun, please. I can't take any more. Please let me go.

-Not till you tell me. Then you can go to hell. -Get out of my way!

First tell me where you're going.

Harun, please. I can't take any more. Please get out of my way.

I told you, I'm not letting you go till you tell me.

-Get out of my way, psycho! -Don't shout!

-I'll shout if I want, you bastard! -Don't shout, I said.

Look...

Go if you want then. Do whatever you want.

I don't know you any more. I've been humiliated enough.

What's left to be humiliated about?. You see the state we're in?.