The First

What is it?

It's my squadron.

Let me do something different with it.

Different how?

You gonna let me tattoo you?

It's only fair. This is for life.

Yeah? Where would you tattoo me?

Here?

No way.

No.

Here?

Maybe.

How about here?

For life?

Well, I mean...

I've been drinking.

Yeah, I know.

It thins the blood.

Mm-hmm. 12.

12 what?

12 fucks.

Not 11?

- Nope. - Not 13?

No. 12 fucks.

12 excellent, excellent fucks.

But, you know what, we spent eight days together.

You've been on leave twice

when you count it all, and that's not full days.

So that's eight days in six months.

So what you're saying is we need

a better fuck-to-month ratio.

I'm just saying, "Get your ass back here more."

- You see that? - Yeah, I do.

Oh, there she is again.

Oh, my God, she's fierce, this one.

Yeah, just like her mama.

Brown bear, brown bear, what do you see?

I see a red bird looking at me.

Red bird, red bird, what do you see?

I see a yellow duck looking at me.

Yellow, um...

Yellow, um...

Yellow duck...

- Daddy? - Yes, sunshine.

- Um... - Talk to Daddy, baby.

- Don't be shy. - 39 days and I'll be...

- What will I be? - You'll be home.

What are you guys making?

Stew.

Is it yummy?

- Here, baby. - What's that?

- A carrot. - It's good for my eyes.

That's right, bunny.

Okay, sweetheart.

Well, Daddy's gotta go. Tell me you love me.

No.

Denise. Mm.

Put your mama back on.

- Hi. - Hey, darlin'.

I just want to crawl into this phone.

Even if it's for a few minutes.

It'd be pretty tight in my bunk.

We could make it work.

We could snuggle in.

Yeah, a month and some change,

and I'll be in our bed before you know it.

I miss you.

I miss you more, darlin'.

Mm. No. No good.

Where are you?

- Baby! What... - Mommy!

Oh, my God, what did you...

It hurts! It hurts!

Put your feet in there, sweetheart.

Shit.

- It hurts. - I know it does, baby.

I know it does.

911. What's your emergency?

My daughter, she's burned.

Her leg...

They've got me on a time to climb, 70,000 feet, nose-up,

35,000 feet, Mach 2.4 heading towards a compressor stall.

No payload. Just me and a clean bird.

Follow a Rutowski profile, I'm pulling back 68, 69,

and then push 2,000 past the test point,

have a near-full stall,

nose down into my dive to the center of the earth

until I got back to my restart altitude.

- 72, huh? - 72.3.

Fuck.

Highest I've been in a F-15 is 60.

Well, this was 5,000 beyond my highest.

So how much of a massive hard-on did you have?

At 72?

Hey, watch it with the language.

Oh, hey, Denise, don't draw on the walls, honey.

- Let her me. - Denise, come here.

Come here. We don't do that.

If she wants to draw, let her draw.

Yeah, we've got coloring books for that.

Come here.

Here.

Color all you want. Use these.

I don't... I don't like those.

I know, but we don't draw on... Diane.

What are you doing? Diane.

Sorry.

- Anywhere you want. - Really?

I got tasked domestically flying

just so that I could be home more.

- That doesn't make you happy? - We're suffocating here.

- I'm... - "We're suffocating"? No.

You might be. I'm not. Denise isn't.

She is when you try and stifle her and put her into boxes...

I'm not putting her into boxes.

She's drawing on the fucking walls with crayon.

It's not crazy for me to ask her...

- You didn't ask her. - You ordered her.

- I'm not dismissing... - Get out of here.

You should listen to what I have to say.

I'm a good mother.

Yeah, like when you had to take her to the emergency room

'cause she pulled a pot off the stove

when you're not watching her.

You and Mommy are gonna like this much better.

And we're right across from the same river where I grew up.

You can start with one chair and see how it goes.

Look, darlin'. Here's Mommy's new tattoo parlor.

Mm-hmm.

Whoa.

It's so big.

Pretty cool, huh?

Yeah.

- What do you think? - Wow.

Where's my room?

Right there.

And guess what.

What?

You can draw all over this.

Go ahead.

- Want to join her? - Yeah.

- Can I do it, too? - Mm-hmm.

How's it going over there?

You know, this is a lot harder than I thought.

Let's see.

Okay, like this.

Slow and steady.

Good.

Can I see it?

Oh, that's really cool. You design that?

Well, the banana is from the Velvet Underground album.

It's my mom's favorite.

- The Velvet what? - Are you serious? The ba...

- No? - I don't listen to bands.

Oh, my God. Okay, you...

you have to listen to "Some Kind of Love."

- It's incredible. - All right, I'll listen to it.

- Oh, my God. My dad finding out. - No, you didn't.

- Yeah. - It's not a spur-of-the-moment.

It's deliberate, Diane.

If I didn't do it, she would've had someone else...

Yeah, okay, so when she wants a fifth of whiskey,

we'll buy her a bottle? That's totally different.

- It's the same thing! - Wow. He's pissed.

You're allowed to put your foot down.

- It's her body. - Oh, my... "It's her body."

- It is my body. - What do you want?

- Me to control her? - She's right.

- No, I want you to protect her. - Oh, here comes the best part.

- She's 15. - He's still going.

- It's permanent. - "She's 15."

You show up just to drop into my bed at night,

you don't get to fucking decide...

Oh, my God, his face, right there.

She's a goddamned child.

And, apparently, I'm a goddamned child.

- Wow. - That's crazy.

...here, in New Orleans,

where Captain Hagerty's wife and daughter

are watching this historic moment

from their second-story home

as he joins the ranks of a very privileged few

who have left their footprints on the lunar surface.

Pull the drapes.

This is the first of several EVAs.

Right now, Hagerty is testing

the performance of a space suit.

Let's go right back to him now,

transmitting live, directly from his helmet cam.

There it is, just out there on the edge of the horizon.

Just starting to rise. Wow.

As astronauts... when we're on Earth...

I think our heads and our hearts are so often in space

that we... we distance ourselves from our own world.

Up here, 250,000 miles away,

just seems closer somehow.

Intimate.

It's incredible.

...you can see the rim of the Kepler crater.

I'm heading that direction to retrieve some rock samples...