Heaven Knows What

Please, please, I just need...

Ilya.

Ilya, please talk to me.

Please.

Ilya, I have to talk to you about something really important.

Please, can we go outside?

Ilya, please, don't make me talk about this in the fucking library.

Okay.

What can I do for you to forgive me?

Ilya, what can I do for you to forgive me?

Fly.

Would you forgive me if I die?

Yes.

Okay.

Excuse me, miss, would you spare a quarter, please?

Excuse me, sir, could you spare a quarter, please?

Fifty cents?

Would you spare fifty cents, miss?

Hi.

Hi, um... do you have any razor blades?

Yup.

Ilya dearest,

I need you to know that I love you, baby,

and I need you to know how sorry I am,

really.

I never wanted to die.

I don't know what will become of you now,

and I won't ever know if you'll really forgive me.

I'll always love you, even in death,

and I'm so sorry that things had to come to this.

Love forever, Harley.

Goddamn you, you...

How much? $600...

I paid 600 each for Madison Square.

Fuck!

Goddamn the fucking slash double fucking... (INDISTINCT)

But they were... Yeah, this is the...

this is the first fuckin' album. This is the best album.

This is the best album of his.

Listen to this.

Yeah, I'm gonna look up...

I'll show you, I'll show you.

Ilya.

I'll show you the fucking best.

You'll see it, as it's going on. Ilya.

Yeah, one second, Skully, one second.

And you'll see it,

but you have to read the word as you hear the...

Ilya.

Ilya.

I got the razor blades, okay.

I don't think you're taking me serious about this.

I'm sorry, okay?

But I am about to die right now,

and I really want you to be there.

If you don't want to watch, just,

please, just, at least read this after I die.

Yeah.

Okay.

Stop, please, Ilya.

I've been listening to you for a long time

talk about how you're going to do this,

and I'm getting really fucking tired of it,

so why don't you go fucking do it.

- (HARLEY WHIMPERING) - Okay?

Go fucking do it, okay?

Fucking cunt.

Fuck her, man. Fuck her.

Why would you want to get with some douchebag, black metal, fucking dirt bomb?

Honestly, my mother killed herself in suicide, okay?

On some serious tip.

That how you want to be, on the floor, dead?

Yep.

I mean, why would you want to get with some fucking

piece of shit that treats you like shit?

I need you.

- Yeah? - Yeah.

You need me? 'Cause you care about me?

Yes, of course, 'cause I care about you.

Why would I be here in the freezing cold,

getting ready to go buy you some E and J?

I know you want that.

Promise you won't leave, and I'll go get us some E and J.

- Yeah? - Yeah.

You can pay for it?

Yeah. I'm going to steal it.

I ain't gonna pay for it.

- All right, whatever works. - All right.

You better fucking be back here though.

Don't disappear on me.

- I'll be here, all right. - I'll be right back.

Harley!

Harley!

Harley!

Everyone told me that you were a fucking whore,

that you're a sucking scumbag,

that you're a fucking whore.

Evan, Jimmy, Dark Mark, even Skully told me.

Everyone told me that you're doing this shit again.

If you love me,

you would have killed yourself by now.

You hear me?

If you love me you would have killed yourself by now.

You know how much you're killing me?

You know? Do you?

So why are you still here?

You want me to do it, Ilya?

- Yes. - Yeah?

Yes. Do it in front of me.

I want to see. I want to see you do it.

- I want to see you do it. - I'll do it right now, okay?

Please. Please, please, please, please, please.

Yo, watch this shit, what this, watch.

Watch.

- Yo, yo, yo. - She's got a razor blade.

I know, she's going to do it.

Come on, come on, come on.

Please, please, please.

Come on. Please. Please.

For me, for me. You love me?

Please. Please. Come on.

Bro.

You fucking idiot. What the fuck is wrong with you?

You're both fucking nuts, man.

I told you I'd commit suicide! Is this what you want?

Evan! Evan! Evan!

It hurts! Oh, it hurts!

Evan! Evan!

- Oh, fuck... - John, call an ambulance!

Call a fucking ambulance!

- (SIREN WAILING) Can you stay with me?

Can you look at me?

Can you look at me? Eyes open. Good.

Can you take a deep breath for me, nice and easy?

Harley, I'm not going in with you.

I can't go in with you.

Why? Ilya.

Ilya, please. Don't do this to me now.

- I can't, I can't be with you. - What?

- I can't. - Are you fucking kidding me?

Then why the fuck would you save my life?

Yo! Harley!

Yo! What's up?

Skully.

Yeah, I was inside there, then they tried to kick me out.

Skully, how did you know I was here?

...looking at me like I'm crazy in there.

- Where have you been? - Where'd you get my stuff?

I thought you was coming out yesterday.

Why isn't this in the bag?

This was in the bushes.

You want this shirt, this nasty shit?

Take it to the fucking Laundromat and clean it.

No, this is all fucking moldy.

What are you doing with that?

You need like a quarter for that to clean it.

You got stitches?

Uh, yeah.

How many stitches you got?

Fourteen.

- Huh? Let me see. - Fourteen.

- Show me, I want to see. - You really want to see?

Ugh.

What the fuck?

What is wrong with you?

So what's up? How are you feeling now?

All right, I guess.

Show me some love, what's up?

I feel like you hate me or something.

I don't hate you, Skully, you know that.

Okay, so what's up?

We're gonna kick it today?

I got sticks.

I got everything you need.

Some liquor we can get.

I mean, I got a lot of stuff to do today.

And I'm gonna come with you.

Who are these people?

They're my friends.

Huh?

They're my friends

Friends? Nice friends.

Hey.

- Hey, what's up? - Oh, you got out?

Yeah.

Guys, anyone seen Mike around?

- No. - Not since earlier.

Not since we talked with you hours ago.

Fuck, man.

He's probably at Starbucks locking himself in the bathroom.

Well, I hope he fucking comes to the park.

Yeah.

What's up?

Oh, hey, hey, you got a shot?

No.