Dickinson

I do.

Emily.

You're at Ben's grave again.

Yeah.

I don't remember you being this sad when any of Dad's other assistants died.

Just leave me alone, Lavinia.

But it's the wedding day. You have to help.

- I'll be there in a minute. - You said that an hour ago.

Cool, yeah, it's just, I don't know what kind of ghost etiquette

- I might be violating if I leave now. - Emily, please.

Just be normal for one day.

Do it for our family.

No, thanks.

Fine.

Then do it for Sue.

It's too goddamn cold for this.

Now, the house is perfect.

And Betty's made me the most beautiful dress.

I even washed my hair last week.

Just one last little touch.

What's that you got there?

Atropa belladonna.

Come again?

It means "fatal beauty."

Looks like poison.

Well, it may be slightly poisonous.

But these drops are gonna make my eyes look as dewy as a young bride's.

But you're not the bride, madam. You're just the mother of the groom.

I still don't understand why we hired you.

Girls, you're here.

Oh, we have so much to do.

Mom, your eyes look super weird.

And by "weird" do you mean beautiful?

They just look so black.

They look like the eyes of a raven.

Which is pretty cool.

Never mind about my eyes.

Vinnie, please, let's get moving.

I need you to iron these napkins. We can't have a wrinkle in this wedding.

Do you hear me?

No accidents.

No mistakes.

I hate to say it, but we have a problem with the falcon.

Oh, God! What?

It's too tight, isn't it?

Don't worry, honey.

We'll make it fit.

Have you told anyone yet?

Then we'll make sure no one finds out.

I don't know. I just look... I mean, I look so...

You look like a beautiful bride.

- - Who's that?

- It's me. Can I come in? - Yeah.

I'll give you two a moment.

You look... gorgeous.

I do?

Don't say "I do" to me.

Save it for Austin.

I wrote you something.

I had a feeling you would.

It's too small to read.

Yeah, I know. I did that on purpose.

It's funny, looking at the two of us.

Now you're the one in black.

Yeah.

Oh, Emily.

I'm sorry. I know how much you miss him.

You're the only one who understands.

You've lived with so much grief.

And I never understood.

I never imagined how heavy it could be.

And the whole time I've known you, you've been carrying that weight.

I guess it's made me strong.

I never knew how strong you were until I lost him.

And I felt... so weak.

You really loved him.

Yeah.

Almost as much as I love you.

Well, I'm still here.

And I'll always be here now.

Be right next door.

Yeah.

Right next door and a whole world away.

I have to tell you something.

What is it?

I'm pregnant.

Nobody else knows yet. I haven't told anyone.

I mean, Betty figured it out, but no one else.

Sue.

You'll be a mother.

You'll be an aunt.

I think I'll be really good at that.

You can't tell, can you?

No. No. No.

Oh, God. I don't think I can do this.

You mean get married?

I mean all of it. Marriage and motherhood.

It's... It's too much.

It's all too much.

I hate the fact that...

That what?

You are not doing it with me.

Is that your bouquet?

Yeah.

I know a way I can be there with you.

Walking down that aisle.

What do you mean?

Sue, let's go outside.

Ta-da!

Mom, you look amazing.

Oh, thank you, sweetheart.

I'm so happy that Betty chose this particular shade of yellow.

Um, that dress is pink.

- - Watch out!

Did this table suddenly get bigger?

Be careful with that knife.

What knife? It's a ladle.

- I just wanna taste the stew. - Mom, why don't you sit down?

Yes, I don't think those belladonna drops are meant for much besides sitting.

Oh, no.

You used belladonna? That makes people go blind.

Blind?

Sorry. I'm nodding. Yes. Blind!

Oh, God.

It's the old Norcross curse.

It's acting up again.

It always happens on special occasions.

Like the tragic day when Grandmother Norcross accidentally lit herself on fire.

- - Oh! Oh! Oh!

Put it out. Put it out.

There's no water in here!

Emily forgot to fill the buckets.

Fire!

Emily.

Careful of the cacti, George.

- Ooh! Ow! -

Mm.

Why are you here so early?

The wedding's not until this afternoon.

I'm actually not coming to the wedding.

You're not?

My wagon is leaving today.

What do you mean, your wagon?

I'm going out west, Emily.

To California. To find gold.

Wait. You can't push that back, like, a few hours?

Uh, the wagon is already packed.

The horses are fed and ready.

Emmons is coming.

And Pennock with his wife and their baby.

Hm.

There's room in the wagon for just two more.

- Me and... - Ellen Mandeville Grout.

Of the Princeton Grouts.

No.

I was hoping... you, Emily Dickinson.

Listen, I thought a lot about the mistake that I made,

proposing to you in the way that I did.

I shouldn't have asked for your father's permission.

Neither of us should be dependent on our fathers.

That's why I'm going to California.

To make my own way in the world.

To show my dad that I don't need his money.

And I've come here today to ask you,

as your own woman with your own freedom.

I'm asking you to make your own choice.

Come out west with me.

- Make a new life. - George, I...

Come with me, Emily.

It'll be fun.

Road trip.

I can't.

- Why not? - Because...

I can't be your wife.

So you're just gonna stay here alone?

I won't be alone. I have Sue.

She's gonna be my sister now.

Sister?

I see.

And a sister is good enough for you?

It'll have to be.

George, wait.

Stay for the wedding.

I can't.

Give Austin my regrets.

One Sister have I in the house -

And one a hedge away...

There's only one recorded -

But both belong to me.

One came the road that I came -

And wore my last year's gown -

The other as a bird her nest

Builded our hearts among.

She did not sing as we did -

It was a different tune

Herself to her a Music

As Bumble-bee of June.

Today is far from Childhood,

But up and down the hills,

I held her hand the tighter -