Fair Haven

I'm better now.

I think it helped.

That's good.

- Have thing's been busy?

- Things are always busy, James.

- I was thinkin', I could just rent a U-Haul

and drive myself to Boston.

That way you don't have to leave the farm.

What do you think?

- We need to talk about you going to college.

James.

That was my money.

You had no right to use it.

Sometimes life isn't fair.

We both know that.

There were hospital bills

and a funeral had to be paid for.

Not to mention your treatment.

Look, I've been puttin' some money away while you were gone.

So, if you can just help me with the harvest next Fall,

then maybe you can go to college in a year.

- I already deferred my enrollment once

to give my spot to somebody else.

I'm doin' my best, James.

Jesus.

- When was the last time

you fantasized sexually about men?

- About four months ago, I guess.

Nothing since then?

No dreams?

Daydreams?

No.

What about women?

I think about women often.

- And what do you think about while you masturbate?

I don't masturbate.

- You looking forward to going home?

- No, I've had a very nice time here.

I'm not trying to trick you.

I'm sure it'll be very nice.

- Have you spoken to your father lately?

He called on my birthday.

Oh, how's he doin'?

Seems fine.

- James, did your father ever seek counseling

after your mother passed away?

He might not have dealt with his grief.

My father's a very strong man.

I don't think he'll need therapy for anything.

- Sometimes even strong people need someone to talk to.

I'm sure he'll be glad to have you around

before you head off to...

Berklee College of Music

You must be looking forward to that.

Yeah, yes, very much.

- When you came here, you said your greatest desire

is to become a concert pianist.

Is that still the case?

Well, I'd still like to,

but it's not the most important thing in my life anymore.

What is now?

God.

I'd like to settle down, meet a girl, have a family.

- Well, I'm sure you can still fit music in there somewhere.

Being away from home, you're going to

find yourself in a lot of new situations.

There's gonna be a lot of temptations out there for you.

I know.

I'll be good.

I'm sure you will.

Well, I think that about does it.

Once more for the road then.

Our Father who art in heaven,

we ask you to bless James as he goes forth from here today,

to watch over him as he walks through temptation,

guide him, help him, deliver him from evil,

lead him on Your path to salvation.

Help him to avoid the sins of the flesh

and to embrace the glory of Your light.

We ask these things in Your name, O Lord, and pray.

Amen.

Amen.

(music drowns out dialogue on television)

God damn it!

You okay?

Yeah, just stupid.

Watch that handle, it's really hot.

All right.

You know, I've been thinking,

maybe taking a course at the community college

wouldn't be a bad idea.

Give you a leg up.

- I don't know what courses they have.

I don't know if Berklee will accept them.

- Well, if I were you, I wouldn't go to Boston.

I'd stay closer to home.

Vermont Tech's a good school.

Yeah, Dad, I'm studying music.

To what?

Be a teacher?

Maybe, or play.

Okay.

It's what I wanna do.

Well, minor in it then.

Look, if I'm paying for this,

I want you to major in either agriculture or business

or something like that.

- Well, then maybe I oughta pay for it.

- How you gonna do that?

Find a job.

Doing what?

Whatever I have to.

- Minimum wage is not gonna pay your bills and school both.

Damn it.

I'll figure it out.

- Why do you have to make things so difficult?

I'm trying to do what's best for you.

You know, one day you're gonna inherit this place.

You're gonna have this place all to yourself.

Yeah, not anytime soon.

Well, we can hope not.

But when you do, I want you to be able to run it.

- When it's mine, I intend to sell it.

- No, you will not sell this farm.

This farm was your grandfather's,

this farm was my grandfather's.

This place is home.

This place is a roof over your head,

it's money in the bank when you need it.

You don't understand that now.

You have no idea, but one day you'll appreciate it.

Why can't you see I'm just trying to do what's best for you?

- I'll take a look at those classes

at the community college, Dad.

I'd appreciate it.

Yeah.

- You can just drive around back

to the loading dock, and beep the horn,

and somebody will come give you a hand.

Make sure you get a receipt.

Can you handle that?

Yeah.

James?

When did you get back?

A few days ago.

How are you?

I'm fine.

They got to you.

Didn't they?

- I need to drop these off and get goin'.

We can't be friends anymore, okay?

Friends.

Yeah, I can't be around you.

I see.

Things are different now.

I'm different.

Sure you are.

I gotta go.

- How are you feeling right now?

Sad.

- Can you expand on that?

Sad.

How?

Describe it.

Alone.

I feel alone.

Lonely.

- Do you miss your mother?

Yes.

Your father?

What about your friends?

Were you close to them?

Did you have any special friends?

You mean like best friends?

- More special than that.

You have a girlfriend?

No.

What about a boyfriend?

It's okay, you can tell me.

Yes.

How many?

One.

What was his name?

Charlie.

Were you intimate?

It's okay, you can tell me.

Sometimes.

- How'd that make you feel?

I, I, I don't know.

Good, I guess.

- Sin makes us feel good while we're committing it, James,

but that doesn't mean it's good for us.

It can really mess us up inside.

And then when we're done, feel bad about it.

Does that make sense?

Yes.