My Beautiful Man (美しい彼)

I wanted to be an idol when I would be grown up.

On TV, everyone is smiling.

Unlike me, the latchkey kid of a single-mother

who was always alone, they seemed to have fun.

I wished I could also become one of them.

When I was a 3rd grader, my mother remarried.

The happy times with kind parents

lasted only for a short while.

A younger brother was born, a younger sister was born,

and my place was gone in no time.

To be an idol on TV and offer my whole self

to the outstreched hands of enthusiastic fans

seemed a little scary to me, but I thought to be longed-for so much

must be a cheering feeling.

What if someone longed so much for me too?

I don't know the reason myself.

But,

when I noticed you, my eyes followed you.

I love you.

I just can't help it.

Okay.

Say it again, "I love you".

I love you.

Somehow it doesn't come across.

Seems Kiyoi-kun wouldn't say that. "I love you" or such.

Shut up.

I love you.

I love you.

But, I've really never said it.

Hi, Hi, Hi, Hi...

Is there really a name like "Hi"?

When I saw him,

I thought, "You're finished" and dismissed him as a worthless judge after one second.

I'm Kiyoi Sou.

But, he gazed at me with a look

as if in his world only I existed.

Kiyoi...

What a creepy surprise.

Is he sleeping?

I didn't care about this guy.

There was just a little curiousity

what to do with this guy who was always staring at me.

That was all.

Beautiful...

Such a straightforward and passionate comment

I received for the first time.

I wanted him to look at me with these eyes again.

That's what I was longing for.

I didn't know the name of this feeling yet.

I love you.

As always, whether I wanted or not,

various guys gathered around me.

Simply put, they were using me.

But, that was better than spending the time alone.

At first, it was just a whim.

Oi! Oi! I mean you!

You will line up!

- Good idea! - Good idea.

I wanted to make sure what this guy expected from me.

What kind of emotions were hidden behind these eyes.

Don't tell the other guys.

About the dance training.

I wouldn't talk even under torture.

And if you'd be killed if you don't talk?

I'd let them kill me.

Can I trust them? These eyes.

Is he different from the other guys?

I can hear my heart beating.

Why?

Gross.

I wanted to make my dreams come true,

but as soon as the contest showed that I was not special,

everyone left me.

But, he alone did not.

Don't ignore me!

When will you finally get it, commoner!

Say something!

Shirota!

Calm down! Calm down!

I guess religious fanatics must look like this.

It reminded me of the enthusiasm of the idol fans I had seen a long time before.

- What do you want! - Let go of me!

- You're not quite right in the head! - Shirota!

For my sake, he fought with full commitment.

Hi-kun!

There is no good name for my relationship to him.

But, I think because Hira was there,

I was looking forward even if the air still smelled stale.

Step by step, in a straight line,

the last high school day came.

So you came, stalker.

You know, isn't there something you should tell me?

Even though my question was as accommodating as possible, he stayed silent.

- Never mind! - I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

This might be the last time.

You love me, don't you!

I was begining to panic.

Then, see you.

I couldn't believe what I had done.

Why did I do such a thing?

It was my first kiss.

I'll surely remember it from now on for the rest of my life.

My first kiss,

full of passion, with that guy.

When I now think of him,

I couldn't even imagine.

In a sense, Hira was a selfish person.

And I was not aware of it.

All that time, he didn't even want to know my feelings.

Since graduation, no sound from him.

Oi, you...

The number you called is currently not in use.

Please check the number.

At the time of the graduation, I didn't think he would stop chasing after me.

Despite that unique expression

with which he was staring at me.

I didn't want to go to his house

and I certainly didn't want to ask someone for his telephone number.

Aren't you happy that your brother has found a boyfriend?

Well, nowadays it's not so unusual,

but to think my own little brother...

What kind of guy is this boyfriend?

Some classmate from college. I think Hira was the name.

What's wrong, Kiyoi?

- No... - So, Kiyoi, what's your opinion?

My brother said he's a nice guy.

- Don't you have a photo? - Sure, I have.

- I want to see it. - Show us, show us!

You're all mighty curious, aren't you?

Well,

this is my brother, and this is his boyfriend.

Hira was smiling.

At first, I couldn't believe it.

In addition, what a plain looking guy next to him!

For this creepy Hira he's the perfect match,

but to break off contact with me for such a guy?!

- Doesn't he look pretty cool? - Huh?

You could say he has a special aura.

I guess if he gets serious, he would change completely.

What do you know about Hira!

I wonder what I shall do.

How about you try meeting him?