Heavy Sweetness, Ash like Frost (Ashes of Love / Xiang Mi Chen Chen Jin Ru Shuang / 香蜜沉沉烬如霜)

"Ashes of Love"

"Episode 59"

Fine, fine.

We, as a fruit fairy,

will not sink to the bird's level.

Phoenix,

I love you.

How I wish I could wash away the vanity, wipe away all the dirt.

I'd have another drink with you and talk until I'm drunk with you.

Never wished to get into dispute.

You are no longer here.

Why should I live in this world?

Memories come and go, but nothing hurts my heart of steel.

I only hope that I have no regrets and to drift away with the flowers.

A bottle of wine, a body covered in dirt.

Memories come back and forth, still I have no regrets.

A story of life and death, vanity and conflicts.

Let's get drunk again when the flowers bloom.

I am Jin Mi.

If you marry me in the future,

you might not be treated fairly.

Would you mind?

No, I won't.

"Edict of Repentance"

Can we still go back to the past?

No.

Maybe...

we can start over again.

Memories come and go, but nothing hurts my heart of steel.

I only hope that I have no regrets, and drift away with the flowers.

A bottle of wine, a body covered in dirt.

Memories come back and forth, still I have no regrets.

The memory of life and death is carved deep in my heart.

As I reminisce on the bits and pieces of our love.

I hope these memories never fade.

Let's get drunk again when the flowers bloom.

Jin Mi.

I hope these memories never fade.

As I reminisce on the bits and pieces of our love.

A bottle of wine, a body covered in dirt.

Memories come back and forth, still I have no regrets.

The memory of life and death is carved deep in my heart.

As I reminisce on the bits and pieces of our love.

After Jin Mi has left,

he has been like this.

He doesn't speak.

He is neither an immortal nor demon.

He only drinks his sadness away.

Xu Feng,

Chief Zhang is here to see you.

I've caused Jin Mi's death.

I've failed her.

I've failed the Flora Realm.

Don't say that, please rise.

Come.

When the former chief gave birth to Jin Mi,

she entrusted her to us.

We've failed to look after her.

We're the one who made unforgivable mistake.

I killed Jin Mi.

It was all my fault.

These few days, I've been thinking about Jin Mi.

Since the love trial is inevitable,

there are a few things that you must know.

The love trial?

Tell me about it.

Before the former chief died,

she had predicted that Jin Mi would face a love trial within 10,000 years.

Her life would be at risk.

When Jin Mi was born, she was fed with the Yun Elixir,

so that she would be detached from love.

The night when Run Yu started the mutiny,

she spat out the Yun Elixir after she had killed you by accident.

I remember so clearly...

the word that you said before I died,

"Never."

I take it as a stern reminder,

it's engraved on my mind.

I took the Yun Elixir,

I had been detached from love since young.

I did not know what love was back then.

The Yun Elixir was real.

The former chief intended to...

help her to avoid the sufferings that romance can cause.

We have never thought that this love trial is inevitable after all.

So I am her love trial.

I caused her to be trapped and wounded by love.

And we've come to the point where everything is beyond redemption.

I thought that she was heartless.

She actually did have feelings, but that she had never realised it.

She didn't know,

and I had never tried to tell her.

I've failed her.

Back then, I followed former chief's order strictly...

and had been standing between you and Jin Mi.

After all these years, I finally realised that,

the love between Jin Mi and you is very rare and profound.

If we want to solve this problem, you'd be our only hope.

Is there a chance to save Jin Mi?

Chief Zhang, what can we do?

I shall do my best.

I'm just holding out little hope.

The late Water Immortal told me that,

he had brought Jin Mi to see Xuan Ling Lord Dou Mu once.

On that day itself,

Lord Dou Mu had already predicted what would happen.

She then gave her the ashes of Brahma to protect her.

Lord Dou Mu might have a way to revive Jin Mi.

Master, I beg you,

please remove the Jialan Seal from my daughter.

For a person who is going to die,

removing Jialan Seal will make no difference.

I wish the ashes of Brahma can save you from the trial.

That's great, Xu Feng.

It is always good to have an alternative.

Okay.

I will go and see Lord Dou Mu now.

Greetings, Lord Dou Mu.

There is no need to beg.

If it's something that can be done, there's no need to beg for it.

If it's something that can't be done, it is futile no matter how you beg.

I do understand this too.

I will suffer the consequences for all the sins that I've committed.

However,

I couldn't let go of all of this.

She seems to be carved in my mind,

I always think about...

how great it'd be if I could just see her one more time,

listen to her say a word.

You also know that, just one glance and one word...

will not alleviate your troubles.

Even if there are thousands of glances and words,

you will never be satisfied.

Everything is fated.

There is a reason for this consequence.

It's hard to disobey the natural laws, why must you force it?

I know that she is already dead,

but recently I always feel that she is still staying by my side.

I have no other request today,

I only hope that you could show me the way.

Living isn't really Life.

Dying isn't really Death

In the heavens, humans world, and demons world,

everything that's alive or dead, love, hatred, sadness, and sorrow...

are just a wild fancy and illusion.

It is just before you.

Where your eyes see, and what your heart feels.

Everything that you see is her,

everything that she sees is what you see.

I don't really understand.

Does Jin Mi have any chance to survive?

Separation and mergence, the beginning and end of fate...

have all been written down.

In this life, you missed each other but could not see each other,

you loved each other but could not stay with each other.

The fate has ended but you are not separated.

The fate has doomed but you are still together.

This is destiny.

Where could I find her spirit?

One silly thought can cut off the wisdom.

One wise thought can lead to the growth of wisdom.

Thank you for your advice, Lord Dou Mu.

Xu Feng sent us a letter.

Lord Dou Mu predicted that Jin Mi's spirit still exists.

He has already embarked to find it. Inform other chiefs quickly.

We will go into seclusion starting from today,

use the strength of Flora Realm to find it.

I will go now.

All the flowers and woods of the six realms, listen,

use all your might to seek for the primordial spirit of Jin Mi.

Sisters, once you locate it,

open up the Flower Lane of Time and do your best to save Jin Mi.

Jin Mi,

where are you?

Ask nothing about spirits. The road from the hell is deep.

Great.

What's so great about it?

Abandon the physical form and achieve the ultimate freedom.

You are not her,

how would you know that she has achieved the ultimate freedom?

She stopped the war between Heaven and Demon on her own.

Isn't this the greatest wisdom and the ultimate freedom?

Yes,

she had always been wise.

But when she was alive, I had never complimented her.

The wheel of life is ever turning.

Back then, she had been looking for you.

And now, you are looking for her.

Why must you leave this boundless regret...

in the River of Unmindfulness with boundless sorrow?

Phoenix.

Phoenix.

Phoenix, please turn and look at me, Phoenix.

Phoenix.

Phoenix!

Jin Mi,

where are you?

Never wished to get into dispute,

but things never go my way.

The flower in my heart wilts away and I can never turn back time.