Shinitai Yoru ni Kagitte (Only on the night I want to die / On Nights When I Want To End It All / 死にたい夜にかぎって)

Please, take care of my grandma.

Hey, I heard from your grandma

when you were in kindergarten

you said to her that you missed your mother

and she let you suck her tits.

What, did grandma tell you that?

I heard that, were you an idiot, huh?

I'm grateful, though.

Do you want a ride?

No, it's okay.

Are you doing ...

Are you doing what you want to do in Tokyo?

So-so, I guess.

- Are you married? - Married?

Do you have a plan to get married or not?

For now I don't think that far.

You have a girlfriend, don't you?

I have.

I have.

You don't?

- I have. - Well, that's good.

Dad, you're getting deaf.

What?

It's nothing.

Women are precious, aren't they?

Women are precious.

You must take good care of her.

Dad, do you still like mom even after she left you?

Well, it's okay if you didn't hear me.

That's good.

- I'll contact you. - Okay.

- Take care. - Yeah. See you.

Women are really precious.

They're just precious to me.

What the hell am I supposed to do with these hands?

Although women are precious and I have a girlfriend I love.

Still putting my hands on a woman in a brothel is a total asshole.

I haven't even done my work yet.

I need to use it for something better.

It hurts. Wait for a second, it hurts.

Oh, I'm sorry.

I tried to make it as a rock style.

Oh, thank you.

Go straight, we'll always be there~

Don't stop, when you start running~

I like it a lot better than before.

You like rock music, don't you?

Thanks for taking the time out of your busy work schedule to listen to it.

You've been working at a fast pace lately.

- About one song a day? - Yeah.

You have to make it when it overflows.

That's amazing, you're a genius.

We have to hurry up and sell it to the music company.

It's not yet the right time.

Okay.

Hey! Hiroshi!

Wake up! Hiroshi!

I wrote a new song.

Hurry!

Alright.

- I will start it. - Okay.

Folk.

They called it compensated dating~

I can only hear electronic sounds overlaid on the guitar.

And it destroying the beautiful melody.

They called it compensated dating~

So, let's help them out more~

Help the sex workers out~

What do you think?

The lyrics are about compensated dating, right?

It's not good?

It's not good, isn't it?

Oh, no.

Sorry, sorry!

If you're trying to understand other person's music

that means you're trying to understand them as a person.

It was what Miles Davis said, and if it were true

then I've spent the last five years not understanding Asuka at all.

Except for you, everyone else understands my music.

I don't need you to understand it.

I'm not going to give up.

- Asuka! - Get away from me!

Maybe that's something I should tell her

that I want to be with her for the rest of my life.

On Nights When I Want to End It All Episode 5 Translation: neet21

Hiroshi, start doing stuff like this, too.

And stop looking at pro wrestling magazines all the time.

I got a lot of them. Take it all.

- This was pretty good. - What?

Also, after listening to it a few times, it's getting better.

I'm not interested in music.

- What is that thing of yours? - Which one is it?

That's the makeup you're wearing, I told you that earlier.

Oh, this is the Rock Spirits.

I won't start the lesson until you remove that creepy makeup!

You're supposed to take off your makeup.

It's not working.

Well, you feel like you know music, too.

In the context of what we're talking about now

you'd say that my dream was already being killed, wouldn't you?

Because music has nothing to do with your past.

Yes, it has.

What's the point?

But why did your father suddenly give you a CD and a bass guitar?

Now that I think about it, maybe he was trying to build my communication skill.

As a high schooler, I didn't talk much.

I listened to a random CD he gave me that night

and found it good.

I looked it up to see who it was, and it was The Beatles.

What? That's a very good way to meet music.

I thought so, too.

Seriously, it's not just about titles and stuff, it's about whether you like it or not.

Come to think of it, your girlfriend is a musician, isn't she?

- What's wrong? - Her music is kinda ...

Well, I'm already seeing her as a girlfriend.

I don't have a flat view of it.

Even if I try my best to look at it flat ...

Yes.

It's incoherent.

It's hard to understand.

You should better tell her that.

She'd like to hear it.

Don't do that with a prostitute~

You know, in this moment ...

Welcome back.

I'm back.

You're late. What's taking you so late?

You know, I've decided to work for an ads company in Shinjuku.

I had an interview today.

I see.

I was able to reduce it to a pill and a half, right?

So, I decided to start working again.

Yeah, that's a good thing.

When will you start working?

- Next week. - I see.

But interviews don't usually take this late, do they?

What have you been doing?

After the interview, I met up with my musician buddies.

- Musician buddies? - Yeah, I had them listen to my new song.

New song? Oh, I see.

What did your musician buddies tell you about your new song?

Well, they gave me a compliment, saying it was new.

Oh, well, that's good.

I'm pretty popular among my peers, after all.

Maybe it's too early for the publication.

But it's been pretty well received by my peers in the same industry.

It's like, you are in a hurry and catch up with the times, aren't you?

Yeah.

- You didn't tell her? - Yeah.

But, I brought her song with me, so take a listen.

Oh~ I want to hear it.

- Let me know what you think. - Okay.

Let me listen to it for a minute.

But if my girlfriend was involved in that kind of work

and I'm not able to understand it, it would be tough.

It feels cold, that's what I'm thinking of.

Yeah.

You should better tell her.

- But, I don't know what to say. - It's okay to say what you think.

What I think, huh.