Too Close

Abigail.

'I have had it with you!'

Abigail?

Abigail.

Abigail! Abigail!

Don't say it.

Say what?

The job's too much for me.

Wasn't going to.

You said you needed to be up early.

I am absolutely fine.

I know what day it is, love.

How on earth did we all squeeze into there?

I'll see you downstairs.

Heavy goods vehicle.

Cool. I am on a roll.

Caravan...

Will you please just fuck off?

Oil tanker...

Ah, Dr Robertson! I need your advice.

Would I be able to talk to you about night shifts at some point?

Not right now, Addy, thank you.

Good morning, Constance. Let's get started.

I'd like you to take a look at these.

You're being very assertive today.

Very Helen Mirren.

It's quite sexy.

You need to try and remember anything at all from that night.

I've been looking at the weather reports.

That storm was pretty severe.

The rain would have been blowing across the bridge in strong gusts.

However insignificant, Connie, it doesn't matter.

What is it?

You're not going to throw up again, are you?

I don't think DCI Tennison would have done that.

You still don't get it, do you?

Right now, your alternatives are looking pretty grim.

Life in prison, or life in a psychiatric hospital.

Did you sleep badly?

You're being very irritable. OK.

Ah. I can see that you started on the antidepressants three years ago.

And then in May, you were put on corticosteroids for hair loss

and lorazepam for extreme anxiety and insomnia. Is that correct?

If you say so.

Did you know that hair can fall out from stress?

Or shock.

Can it?

Had something happened?

Just one little question first. Of course.

Who's Kenneth Baines?

OK.

Let's get back to Ness.

What do you want to know?

Did we have sex?

I'm jolly glad to see this.

It's very important, darling...

a healthy sex life.

Yep. Is anyone gonna get that?

God knows, I'm slacking.

Your father and I hardly ever do it these days.

Well, maybe once a fortnight.

It's all right, I'll get it

Hello! How nice to see you!

What's up? Come in, come in.

Are you all right? Um...

Are you all right? What's wrong?

She's gone. Leah's left us.

What? Shit!

Darling, why don't you go upstairs? Annie's up there.

Darling, go on. Connie?

It's all right, Mum.

What happened?

She says she's miserable.

Well, she's always bloody miserable. Mm.

Oh, darling, it's all right.

Oh, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. It's all right.

I'm gonna be one of those single people

no-one invites to dinner parties.

We'll invite you.

You can have dinner with us every night.

Am I unlovable?

Ness, no, don't be silly. Of course not!

Connie! Connie!

Why doesn't she come?

Who? Ness? No, my mum. Where is she?

I need to see her. I feel all... wobbly without her.

I'll give you something for the anxiety.

Sit down, I'll get you some water.

Where did you get this?

It's mine.

Underneath that chilly veneer, I reckon you've got quite a temper.

What are you so angry about? Don't talk to me like you know me.

You do not know me. No?

I know you got pretty wrecked at dinner on Thursday.

And I know you ordered a bad of cam-free sh“ on Ocado.

I also know when “Si hubby“ has orchestra.

So you can have a furtive fiddle to some MILF-y porn.

Hide notifications, Ems. Schoolgirl error.

- You can be very tedious, Connie. - Oh, "tedious", am I

I'm sorry, have I lost my gloss

Do you think it's inevitable in female friendships

that after all the stories have been told and secrets have been shared,

that a kind of sisterly irritation takes hold?

I'm not your sister, and I'm not your friend.

I'm your forensic psychiatrist.

And let's not forget,

I'm not the one who drove a car into the river...

You've wanted to, though, haven't you?

With children in the back. No!

That is not what fucking happened!

What did fucking happen, then, Connie?! I'm waiting!

There...

I knew you had a temper.

Emma?

Emma Davies?!

Oh, my God - Dougie Thompson!

I thought I recognised that girl!

Do you live round here? Yeah, it's me, Em. You look great!

Oh, I've put on weight and...

I saw your name in the paper. You're working on that case.

Yeah, they should never have got my name.

Amazing work you do. Oh, not sure about that.

Well, you actually make a difference.

You were always gonna do well.

Your mum once told me that you were far too good for me.

Oh, my God. My mother was a racist narcissist.

I still see the old crowd. Seriously?

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Um, Jim, Pete, Sally.

Sally P? Oh! How is she? Oh, she's great.

She's having a birthday party on Friday at The Bell.

You should come. She'd kill me if she knew I'd saw you and didn't ask.

How are you, Dougie? Me? Good. Good.

Yeah, um, married, mortgage, kids. The works. You know. And you?

Yeah.

How many?

Um... just the one, actually.

Sensible. Hm. What flavour?

Girl. Girl.

How (Ad?

She, er...

seven, today, actually. Aw!

Is she, um... is she here? Um... No, she's not. Um...

I've got to go, Dougie.

Yeah, yeah. Are you on Facebook?

No, I'm not, actually. Look, I've gotta go, too.

Get on it! All right, I will.

Get on it.

I can't wait to tell Sally. Bye, Dougie.

Bye... Emma Davies.

I'm very sorry...

for the way that I reacted in our previous session.

It's often difficult for patients to understand, but...

the line has to be kept very clear.

This is a professional relationship.

You try so hard, don't you, Doc?

To do everything right.

To keep everything in its place.

But you know as well as I do that life is a messy business.

So...

did Karl find out about your feelings for Ness?

Questions, questions, questions.

That's my job, asking questions.

Did he?

You don't have to, Connie.

I want to.

Don't you?

Dunno.

What's the matter?

I really don't know. I just, erm...

just feel like, erm...

What?

Just feel like I fell in love with you all those years ago

because you were this livewire.

This artist, with big dreams.

Full of energy. Wildness.

Wow.

I notice you're using the past tense!

Well, yeah, bubs.

Sometimes I feel like I might have clipped your wings.

You haven't, Karl. I've...

I've just had to grow up.

Don't you feel like you're not living any more,

you're just going through the motions?

Maybe it's the antidepressants.

I think they make me feel a bit numb.

Yeah, that's it, numb. I feel numb.

Don't you wanna feel alive again?

Are you having an affair?

No, I'm not having an affair.

But you fancy other people?

Well, do you?

Yes.

Now you.

Yeah.

OK, well...

I mean, we shouldn't beat ourselves up about it.

It's natural after 15 years together.

You're brilliant, you are.

God, why are these things so hard to talk about?