Bye Bye Boredom

Feelings are like fireworks.

They explode and disappear as they please.

Most of the time it's dark while I wait for the next bang.

Wait, or I make it happen myself.

MDMA is the best there is - that's why you gotta keep it in check.

I take it max once a week.

I have a system. I put emojis into the calendar on my phone.

MDMA/Ecstasy is a bomb. Amphetamine is a horse.

Z is sleeping pills, benzos, and the stuff you get from the youth psychiatrist.

I buy it in a chat group. Nova gets it for free.

She can't say from who.

It all went down on the same day.

Timmy is going to prison, he shot a guy with a shotgun.

At his farewell party,

I understand who Nova gets it from.

Nova says it won't matter in 10 years what we do when we are 13, 14 or 15.

I totally get that we should stop.

But at least we follow this one rule.

We're never going to use alone.

How many babies will I have when I grow up?

Shit, that's a lot of babies for you.

- Give me. - Mmm.

How many babies will I have when I grow up?

Take the horse, make sure she doesn't eat the pills!

Come.

Timmy's going in tomorrow. We want to hang out, it's his last night.

- Can you give us a lift? - Who's us?

- Me, Nova and some others. - Really?

- Do we have to walk? - Yeah.

Where's your car? I can go get the keys.

It's at the car mechanic's over the weekend.

Where's Mum then?

She worked the night shift.

Looks like we won't be going anywhere. It could be worse.

It would be easier if I had an EPA-tractor.

I agree, but...

She won't allow it before you're 15, right?

- Is it tough that Timmy's going in? - I guess...

I'd have been more sad if you disappeared.

Hey, stand still.

Guess not.

Fuck this car.

Stop nibbling.

Hi Timmy!

- Hi. I fixed it. - Cool!

- But we're staying here, right? - Mum is pissed.

- Put it in the old stable. - In there?

- Yeah. Hi, you good? - Mm. You?

All good actually.

- Timmy, will you miss me a bit? - Yes, a little.

- I miss you already... - Yeah, sure.

- You sure the horse can stay here? - Yeah, it's cool.

- So where are we going? - You'll see.

What the fuck!

- What if someone lives here? - What is this place?

You taking the lead?

I once found loads of dead animals in a place like this.

Oh my God, I want some now.

Timmy, will you be okay without Jackie for two months?

I will miss everyone except you.

How will you live there?

In a room like a small construction cabin.

- How am I gonna survive that? - Ask Ervis who's in the ebola house.

How many of you live in that flat?

Me and Dad?! Two as far as I can count.

Where's the speaker?

- Where're we going? - To the top floor.

Leftovers. Take one.

- What is it? - Tramadol.

Casper is here! Jackie, fix this!

- Hi. - Hello.

- Who's here? - Me, Fred, Timmy, Nova, Ervis.

- I forgot your name. - Jackie.

- Like Jackie O? - The trotting horse. I know.

Jackie Onassis. You know, the US?

- What's your number? - Cash.

Timmy, do you have cash?

Don't you fuck us. Give us the real stuff.

Here.

Have you taken anything else today?

- You sure? - Mm.

- What's that? - The best.

So, what did you get?

Good... If you buy powder it's not pure up here.

- What's that? - Jackie, it's contagious.

Your last night of freedom.

You all have school, you're not free either.

There's a difference between school and a correctional facility.

- Did Casper say anything about me? - He is an old fart, must be like 30!

That doesn't pack a punch. Take the pink one.

You feel anything now? It comes in waves.

Dunno.

My skin is tingling.

You're bleeding.

It sucks that life can't always be this good.

What's up with you and Casper? Are you fucking?

I tried to get with him, he didn't want to.

- We have a game. - Okay, what kind?

Tell me.

- I was named after a trotting horse. - What?

- I'm not baptised. - What?

Aren't you baptised?

You shall bear the name Nova

and bring light to the darkness surrounding the stars.

We name you Nova.

Nova? Hello?

Nova?

Nova?

Ey, Nova doesn't breathe.

Wake up, she's not breathing.

Timmy, Timmy, fucking wake up. Nova isn't breathing, she can't breathe.

There's no pulse.

What are we supposed to do? Maybe call someone?

You feel the pulse on the neck right?! Call 911.

Why aren't you saying anything?

We'll talk at your parents' house.

We need to get a thing at Timmy's first.

What's so important it can't wait?

Are you thinking with your pussy? Where've you been?

What's happened?

It's Nova.

Same as always.

It's just, she's dead.

What did you say?

How are you?

What did you take yesterday?

What's that noise?

There is no noise.

- Yes, there's a sound. I can hear it. - Jackie, what's wrong?

Why did she die and not me?

What is this damn noise?

There is no noise.

- Jackie, what have you taken? - Mum, let go of me.

Leave.

Slow her down.

You decide over her.

When she pulls away, shorten the rope.

Praise her only if she obeys.

You need to do something.

Go for a walk, hold a pony lesson for the kids, anything.

If you just do one thing I won't go on about school.

Hi, this is Nova, don't say anything private or something here.

I will not listen anyway.

Ok, bye!

Hi, this is Nova, don't say anything private or something here.

I will not listen anyway.

Ok, bye!

Jackie.

Did you hear that Aston's horses escaped.

The train drove over two of them.

- Were they insured? - I find that hard to believe.

This village is cursed.

People die, horses are run over.

There's nothing more going on here than elsewhere.

It just seems that way when everyone knows each other.

- How are things in school? - I'm not going.

I thought of something.

If we all took the same, why are we okay?

Maybe she didn't eat properly. Like a bad drunken trip.

I guess it might affect girls and boys differently.

- What about me? - You're not the same.

You're like... real.

She bragged she could pull an all-nighter and such.

Then she should have handled more.

- Casper said something. - What?

Do you know who has the pills? What if someone eats them by accident?

I don't have them.

I won't even take a paracetamol as long as I live.

I think Timmy took them.

How will you dress for the funeral?

What about the dress you got for Christmas? It should fit you now.

- But it's pink, isn't it? - Just a bit.

- Pink is for lame girls. - What do you mean 'lame girls'?

Girls that don't know anything and just wait for others to do things for them.

- You don't have to decide now. - Where are you going?

- Helping Timmy's folks with the tractor. - Are they home?

You're not going anywhere, you know that. Can't they do it themselves?

They don't know the hydraulics.

- Haven't you been drinking? - A sip or cup...

- Goodnight. - Goodnight.

You have the horses tomorrow, Jackie.

I'm going to bed.

- Hello. - Hi.

- Hi. - Meow.

- Is Jenny home? - She's in there.

- It was different before. - Printed T-shirts are on the receipt.

- Hello! - Oh, hello.

- Jesus, you're thin. Don't they feed you? - Yeah, they do.

She eats like a horse.

- I have to fetch a thing in Timmy's room. - Go right up.

Eeny, meeny, miny, moe Catch a tiger by the toe

If he hollers let him go, Eeny, meeny, miny, moe

Fuck off!

Meow, I need the crapper.

Yeah, chill out!

I'm going home now. Maybe we can talk on the way.

Jackie? Jackie, wait.

Jackie?

Hello.

Didn't she fall asleep on the sofa?