The Expecting

Oh, shit. Oh, God.

Emma, Jesus. Are you okay?

- I don't know. - Are you still bleeding?

- No, it stopped. - Okay.

I can go straight to Dr. Green's.

Actually, everything looks just fine.

- Really? - Yep.

In fact, the baby's growing very quickly,

which can explain the bleeding.

Sometimes, because of that,

there can be slight tears in the uterine wall.

What about, um... all this?

This doesn't look right, does it?

Varicose veins? That can be completely normal.

That can also be a result of the rapid growth.

But I googled it and it didn't say it was normal.

Honey, you can't go to Google for that kind of stuff.

That's just a deep, dark rabbit hole.

Are you still taking your Clonazepam?

I threw it out.

Why would you do that?

I'm just telling you that something isn't right.

I can feel it.

My hair and the nose bleeds. Today...

Listen, sweetheart, no two pregnancies are alike.

The vitamin deficiencies, the weakened vascular system,

many women experience all of these symptoms,

especially if their lifestyle is less than optimal.

There's one more thing.

What? What is it?

Would you like to know the sex of the baby?

What about Holly?

Holly... I do like Holly.

Do you ever think I'm fucked up?

What? What's that supposed to mean?

Like today at Dr. Green's?

I saw the way you two looked at each other.

Like you both thought I was crazy.

Oh, come on. Seriously?

I was just, you know, scared, same way you were.

Yeah.

Yeah, I don't know, I just...

worry 'cause of my mom.

I never told you what happened to her.

She was my age when she was pregnant with me.

And, um...

I guess she started seeing stuff,

stuff that wasn't there, and hearing things,

getting real paranoid, you know?

And the doctor said it was schizophrenia.

Pregnancy made things a lot worse.

Peripartum psychosis, they call it.

And she started hurting herself

and throwing fits.

Went after my dad a few times. He couldn't handle it.

Why he started drinking.

Well, fuck, Em, you never told me about this.

Well, I never told anyone, really.

What ended up happening to her?

After she had me, I... I guess she sort of had a breakdown

and had to be locked up.

She was only in the loony bin for a couple months

before she managed to hang herself with some bedsheets.

Damn.

Yeah. So...

I mean, that's, like, super rare though, isn't it?

Schizophrenia?

It's genetic.

- You good? - I think so.

Thanks for, um, showing up and stuff.

Hey, what are you doing right now? Like, tonight?

- I'm just gonna do some sketching. - Let me cook you dinner.

'Kay.

What about Hazel? It's kinda cool.

Yeah, Hazel's not bad.

Hand me the thing?

I got this.

Not bad, huh?

Whoa.

- Whoa, what's wrong? - Here, come here.

I've never felt her kick like this before.

- Oh, my God. -