Gooses

Chilling,

skimmin' Google, looking at stuff,

Lore thought I should learn a little about L.A.

OK, but

and I wanna live and be alive and what I mean is I don't want educations to feel educational or whatever.

The first day I spent by myself, Lore had to work.

She's a cashier at CVS. Got the other days off.

I took a bus to Beverly Blvd and acted casual.

I bought red velvet poppers.

I took photos on my Iphone and sent them to friends.

I told my friends I missed them...

I didn't.

California was awesome, seemed like paradise.

I felt wonderful.

I felt dreamy.

We looked at stars on Hollywood Blvd...

till Lore got bored.

Later she pointed at a Bar and said

'Bukowski liked this bar'

One day we had what she called her regular *

This is when when she was most relaxed.

We had mellow conversations about our parents and childhood and secret things.

She told me she could only be happy looking backwards.

When looking backwards she felt both happy and sad

because her life hadn't been perfect or even remarkable.