Lost to Shame (분장)

Vod2srt by Blue-Bird™

Mister.

I'm so sorry, but this is all I have now.

I promise to wire the rest in the morning.

No. No way!

You know how many times I fell for that?

No way! -But I'm an honest person.

You know where I live,

and I'll transfer the money first thing in the morning.

I said no!

You don't have 10 bucks?

But the meter's still running.

Well, I'm not paid yet.

Please sir. Help me out.

If you can't pay in 10 minutes,

I'm going to the cops.

What rotten luck.

My brother .

You should've called before.

10 bucks...

You're something else.

Hungry?

I ate.

Want some fried chicken?

I'm fine,

but if you want some...

Don't tell mom.

It'll only upset her.

Oh right.

I need a favor.

What?

You know "Dark Life"?

The play? -Yeah.

I passed the first round of auditions.

Really? -Yeah.

So I need something choreographed for round 2.

Help me out.

So, feminine movements, like a transgender woman?

That's what you need?

Well, not necessarily.

The play is more about pain.

Femininity and pain.

So I'm hoping you can capture both aspects.

All right.

But what about your competition?

I finish practicing at 4:00 Wednesday and Thursday.

Come to school then. -Okay.

Don't they want famous actors?

Isn't the director someone big?

Kim Tae-baek is directing.

The filmmaker? -Yeah.

June!

Oh, hey.

Long fucking time no see.

I was just chilling with my brother.

Damn! He's a looker.

Better than you.

So you... you work here?

Me? I'm just helping an old friend.

What about you?

What are you up to?

The same, still acting.

Really? -Yeah.

What're you working on?

A few projects.

What projects? What now?

Right now, auditioning.

For what?

"Dark Life."

Yeah, it's good to audition for everything.

But fuck, isn't that aiming too high?

Um, we were discussing something...

Yeah, I think your brother should try acting.

And isn't it time for you to find something else?

If you refuse to give up, you're a burden on other people!

Right, little bro?

What do you think?

Does your brother have any chance as an actor?

Look, we have something urgent to discuss here.

Hey, when did we perform last?

2008? 2009?

Did you play the count, or did I?

You did... -Right.

Delivery boy! -Huh?

You guys eat up and have a good chat.

I'll be back. -Okay.

What the hell are you doing?

Let me know if you need anything.

Okay.

I'll be back in a flash!

Fuck.

What a piece of shit.

We acted together.

He always was an ass.

What can I do?

Should I fight him?

And end up back at the station?

Is he really worth it?

I'm going to make sure you get that part.

Here.

You kidding me?

Good for you.

Smoke, and I'll kill you.

What the hell?

Eat up.

Look,

LOST TO SHAME

I'm human too.

This world is nothing but tragedy.

Can you really say what we shared isn't love?

Can you?

She passed away 3 years ago.

Sometimes I feel guilty for how I treated her.

I miss her a lot.

Wanting nothing more than to be accepted as a woman by her mother,

in the end she had to let her go.

Her life has been one of loneliness and pain.

Hey.

Hey!

Yes?

Got a light?

Oh, here.

What are you doing?

What?

What are you up to?

I'm meeting someone.

Gimme your phone.

Why?

You wanna die?

Huh?

Hurry the fuck up.

Why?

You filming me?

No I wasn't!

Bullshit!

Let's go to the cops.

No, wait. I'm sorry.

Actually, I'm an actor.

Have you heard of the play "Dark Life"?

That play, it's about sexual minorities,

and the pain they face...

I know.

What?

Kim Tae-baek.

Right!

I'm auditioning for that play.

At first I just memorized

the lines they gave me.

But when I said them,

it sounded so fake.

So I tried looking for some

documentaries, and then...

I saw you on one,

and I ended up coming here.

So I arrived and there you were,

walking around.

I was so happy to see you,

it seemed like fate.

But I deeply apologize for filming without permission.

I was driven by only my goal

to give a truthful performance.

I'll delete it right away.

Holy fuck.

Huh?

Nothing.

I'll delete it right away.

What's your name?

Oh Song-jun.

Come with me.

Hey, sister.

Just sit here.

Okay.

Come here.

Come on.

Come on.

What'll it be?

A tequila.

Tequila? -Yes.

Here,

it's on the house.

Thank you.

So with every move, focus on your breathing.

And what's next most important?

Feel your muscles inside you.

Feel them!

So, what's next?

How's it going?

Remember that lady I told you about?

From Itaewon.

She's done everything she can to help me.

I really don't know how to thank her.

Ace the audition.

Easier said than done.

The odds are 500 to one.

Where do all these actors come from, anyway?

Use that feeling there.

What?

That hunger to be recognized...

Isn't it similar to how that character feels?

I don't get it.