Lost Boys

I make my way once again.

From the barred steel door to the concrete wall that frames this room.

There is no exit, and the fluorescent light is constantly lit.

The wall becomes an endless corridor

that always ends up where it had begun.

Somewhere outside, the cops are going through all the videos I shot...

Where my cell phone has been and even all the notes I have made.

Looking for evidence that would support their story.

But the truth of what happened cannot be seen from the outside.

In March, Jani got out of jail.

With him and Antti, I traveled to Southeast Asia...

to celebrate the occasion.

I came back with the return ticket.

They skipped the flight to stay in Cambodia.

Two months later, they stopped all contact.

I return to Bangkok.

It has been more than two months since they went missing.

On the surface everything looks the same,

but the whole place feels completely different...

Like an alien landscape.

Jani's sister called.

She told me that Jani was found dead in Cambodia.

Strangled with an electric cord.

Antti is hospitalized here in Bangkok

after having an epileptic seizure.

We just came here to party.

Say hello to Santa Claus!

Here we are in Thailand.

My future wife is here next to me.

Life laughs, as you can see.

He bring me the ring. See, he show me this ring.

And he wear it inside here.

The ring is a very big one on my nails, and I told him to wear this size.

He have one, I have one.

He said: "My darling, this one is very cheap",

"but when I come back I will buy you a new one." Something like that.

Hey, two beers, coming up.

You think my boyfriend is a boy?

What? Spice girl? What did you say?

You think my boyfriend is a boy so that you can order anything that you want?

He's my boy.

But he's my husband. You step on me.

The door swings both ways. Me and Jani ...

Oh yeah?

It's like this.

When you're speaking to me, it's like this. Oh yeah! Oh yeah!

Not like, "Oh yeah, oh yeah..."

I have my passport in my pocket. I can not...

If I go, you go too. - No no...

I promise you, you go too.

Please, the phone is there, c'mon!

This was Jani's first trip outside of Europe.

We scored some drugs and hit the red-light district.

In the Gogo bars, Jani was all smiles.

The girls swarmed us, showing us their bodies

and dancing to the pulsating rhythm.

You could skip all the courtship rituals with a pile of cash

and do whatever you pleased.

Line them up, pile their bodies any way you want.

Make a fucking pyramid of whores.

But it took only a week before

Jani was engaged to one of the Gogo girls.

Buying her clothes and jewelry.

It looked like he was confusing the fantasy for something real.

Is it starting to kick in?

Don't make the air, OK?

Slam, slam, slam.

Yeah, baby, slam it.

Oh yeah, it's nice.

Do it. Finish, finish!

You did finish! You have finish it, you know?

Now we keep him alive until the day after tomorrow!

OK, now it's yours.

I'll add a little more. - Okay.

I told my husband he have to take it easy, before he... everything.

This is kinda nice.

Maybe we can help you enjoy doing it all day, all night!

All night long!

You have so many things to talk. Your mind working very well.

Good. - Suck, suck, suck.

Suck it. Suck, suck, suck.

He pulled everything. - Yes.

Now you gonna make "heeheehee" like a mouse.

Now you gonna make "heeheehee", like mouse! -Don't release even a little bit.

Now, I want him to do it. - Yes.

How are you feeling? - It's all good.

Yeah, I believe you, for sure.

It's so fucking hot in here.

It just tastes stronger and stronger.

Yeah, it's too hot though, right? For sure.

No, no, I don't smoke that shit. - Of course you smoke.

No, no fucking way. - Yes, then. It feels good.

You smoke it. - No way.

Half a pill. You smoke it.

Yes, of course. - Never back down, man.

Otherwise you will not get a 016 tattoo.

Hi, come try it.

You will know how it feel like you want to fly.

You get some power, and your mind is thinking.

There is so many thing to do.

Your mind get smart.

You think that you know yourself.

You are strong, and you got more power.

You can kill people very easily. - You will be like me.

You go kinda crazy, cuz your mind is all working.

Even when sleeping. You try this one, you wake up like, "Mafeee".

Gotta have power.

Then you become like me.

Gotta become like you.

Take this thing. Finish it.

OK? Finish it.

Yeah, baby, finish it. Okay, okay.

You will see how he gonna die.

The pain pills called Yaba are the most popular drug on the market.

It's often used by the construction workers

so they can keep working for days.

Cops call it the drug of madness,

and they're hunting the users like animals.

There were rumors of a blacklist of people to be eliminated by the death squads.

The meth users are locked up for forced

treatments in the concentration camps run by the military.

Thousands of suspected drug dealers have been killed.

We had to bribe Jani out of trouble a couple of times.

But otherwise the drug war seemed to happen in another reality

Antti had checked out from the hospital before I got there.

I walked through the night,

searching the places we used to hang out.

One of the Gogo girls from Soi Cowboys

had seen him a couple of weeks ago.

His face was burned black; his clothes were filthy.

His odd behavior had scared her away.

She kept on repeating, he was not the same.

Eight million people.

It's impossible to find him.

I check into the hotel we stayed 3 months ago.

I send him the location...

Hoping he would find his way here.

Hi. - Alai.

Love. - Love.

Wow, I make like this.

Crazy!

It looks like a woman's part, you know?

Yeah, the one you put dick inside.

I make it nice. Haha, yeah! You saw it?

Yeah, it's the same. That's which is why my husband likes it!

Yeah, he's adventurous. He likes to try all the new things.

All the new things. And me.

The last thing he tried.

What am I doing in this hole?

I rush to the toilet and vomit, my body convulsing.

It doesn't happen too often anymore.

Now that the withdrawals are gone, I miss them.

There is only this room full of nothing.

We grew up in a small Arctic town.

Our paths didn't cross until I started to sell hash.

They were young criminals doing burglaries and stealing cars,

burning all their money on speed and other instant pleasures.

We came from different social realities,

but there was something in their spontaneous way of existence I admired.

The freedom from the norms of society.

In the beginning, the guys helped me sell the dope.

I had the contacts for distribution

and a few junkies to provide the method of transportation.

Put it in my mouth.

When you fuck, do not just grab somewhere

without taking a proper hold, like this.

Or you grab here, and pull like this.

Do you want to test? - Certainly.

An extremely hard and clear feeling.

Then Jani and Antti were locked up.

I moved away, only going back to bring in the dope.

Over the next seven years, I saw them maybe once or twice.

Seven years in jail is a long time.

People change.

We left Thailand and crossed the Cambodian border.

There were dealers pushing drugs and prostitutes on every corner.

When you met a girl in a nightclub, the next morning you still weren't sure

if she was working or not.

The line between legal and illegal was ambiguous,

but as long as you had money, you were always on the right side of the law.

I have the best product. You can test.

You like marijuana, speed, opium, cocaine, ecstasy?

Come and check.

We have everything. What do you want?

Buy 10 and get one for free.

The eleventh was free.

A perfect deal. - Yeah.

A blister pack is 500 milligrams,

so if I take two, it's a thousand.

We'll see what the face looks like after that.

Before and after pictures.

This is what I look like now. What do I look like afterwards?

How many milligrams do you have now?

Jani, how many milligrams do you have now?

Now I take ... - How much do you have in your blood now?

Right now I only have 120 milligrams of codeine.

And some trades from yesterday. - Yes, maybe.

"Maybe"? You've been taking these for several days!

I'll take 1,000 now, and we'll see what happens.

If good things happen, I thank God