Lost (No Longer Human / Human Disqualification / Ingansilgyeok / 인간실격)

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Part 15 Period

What should I do, Father?

Even now,

I still think about

what money is

several times a day.

And

I think that the person who loves me the most

is the one who spends the most money on me.

Like an old habit, I can't stop.

But sometimes,

Juhyeop Bank Deposit KRW 300,000

occasionally,

I sink deep

into the thought of what love is,

which is something

I've never thought of before.

Dad Jeong Jeong-woo, Me Nam Min-su, Mom Nam Hee-sun

Transferred to Name: Lee Gang-jae

Not being at the receiving end of love,

but being the one to give love,

and creating space for that person inside me.

The space grows.

How regrettable.

Then in the end,

I am filled with only that person.

I think about this kind of listless pain.

Though I try hard to be alone,

I can't be alone.

I think about this kind of sweet apprehension.

What can I do for that person?

What can I be for that person?

Maybe not being anything,

or trying hard to be something,

but rather being honest to myself

is the kind of love

that I can give.

We meet again.

In Seoul.

I'll buy this time, too. Let's go!

What?

Come on. Let's go.

I missed you, Ms. Lee Bu-jeong.

This reminds me of our past.

This is the first time we're coming here.

How can this remind you of our past?

I leaned on you a lot like this.

At coffee shops,

on buses, and even subways.

I wanted it to last longer,

so a lot of the times, I pretended to sleep.

Did you know?

I knew.

I think I wanted to torment you.

I wanted you to be upset because of me.

I know.

I don't know the psychology behind that though.

Did you know that, too?

I knew.

What would people say about us?

That we're perverted?

Who cares?

As long as you're comfortable.

I feel like I'm going to cry.

I don't know what I'm feeling.

But

I think today will be the first and last time.

Get some sleep.

I said let's just go home.

We came out to go to the karaoke room.

We can't just go back in.

Then let's go to the karaoke room.

You said you won't be able to sing

because your heart is racing.

What could be between those two?

It wasn't three or four people.

Just the two of them going to a karaoke...

What do you think it is?

What about you?

An affair.

They could be just friends.

We also went to a karaoke room.

But they went toward a motel.

What?

Do you

still think that when you see...

That?

What are you talking about?

You know.

Go inside.

Hmph.

Were you drinking?

No.

You were.

I told you to leave it, but you took it.

I wouldn't have drunk a lot by myself.

Are you drinking with Gang-jae?

Oh, Gang-jae?

He left the moment he came inside.

Now he's not answering his phone.

Oh.

But eventually, he comes back.

Like a real estate agency dog.

A real estate agency dog?

That's what my grandma used to say to me.

Because I'd leave, go around the neighborhood

then come back when she starts worrying.

Oh!

You lived with your grandmother?

I guess Gang-jae never talked about me.

You know nothing.

My mom and dad were both busy,

so I lived with my grandma.

When I became a trainee, I lived at the dorm.

9 years ago,

I almost debuted.

Several times after that, too.

But that time, it was for real.

Anyway,

things were hectic. They divorced,

each got remarried,

and then immigrated.

My dad took only my brother.

Hello? Are you listening?

Yes, I'm listening.

I have a web-drama audition on Monday.

Huh? A web-drama?

Yes.

The role is the girlfriend of an agency's CEO.

Isn't it perfect?

Idol singers are a good drama subject nowadays.

Since it's a national project.

Idol singers are a national project?

Oh, I'm not saying it as a fact.

I'm just saying it's that hot.

Anyway.

Can you pick what I should wear with me?

Tell me what's the cutest.

Me?

Hang up for a sec.

Wait here.

Is there an empty table for two?

- I'll have to clear that up. - Okay.

I think they're full.

Let's go.

Let's go.

That place might seem hectic but it's really good.

It was even more hectic today.

Do you know a place?

A place you went to often

when you worked at your office.

Or a place you want to try.

I don't know.

What do you like?

Oh, you said you don't like anything.

I like everything.

I like it all.

Missed calls Mom

Is it home?

You're awake?

Yeah.

Is it home?

It's Mom.

You're still a good son.

No, I'm not.

She still calls me bastard.

I love you, Jeong-su.

What?

Why, all of a sudden?

I deeply regretted not saying it

in the past.

I should've said it, even if it were as a joke.

The day before my husband died,

I asked him.

I said there's a man I've liked since I was young.

I asked if I could see him.

He started crying.

That means no, right?

Mom

Is it home?

It's Mom.

Why don't you answer it?

It may be urgent.

It's nothing.

She's just calling.

I don't know how others do it.

Do what?

Have an affair.

Many married people meet other married people.

My heart sinks every time you look at your phone.

How do other people have an affair?

I liked you the most, Jeong-su.

I still do.

Don't you have anything to say?

This might be the last.

Or not.

I still

use the same PIN number for my bank account.

It's your birthday.