I May Destroy You

This programme contains strong language

It's not going to go with my outfit, though. It is, I love it.

Whoo! This is you!

Look at that green one. I'm going to buy that right now.

My enemies will be green with envy.

Yo! Yo...

Who's paying for this? Er, it's... Where is she?

Over there.

Hey!

There you go, guys.

Yeah, man, no worries.

Fantastic!

That's a cleaner to Aisle 4.

They got nuts? They've sold out.

We need more cheese.

With you on my black card, can find me in the flat,

lip gloss matte, if the lace wig struggle...

Being a woman is the fuckin' worst.

That'll be 71.98, please.

Do you want to try again?

It's declined.

Oh.

Can I get a selfie, please?

Yeah.

Yeah, you're going to have to remove

all your items off my conveyor belt...

..and put them back in the aisles.

"Prior to being raped, I never took much notice of being a woman.

"I was busy being black and poor.

"Daring to observe the hazard my gender may pose to my freedom

"and survival feels like a betrayal to the council flat I was born

"and raised in, where hardship was no respecter of genitals

"and a little brother was the star

"of the food and love as his sister.

"When I think about the Met Police Force

"and the chronic racism that cripples it,

"the fact that I opened my mouth to tell them

"someone did a little rape in there feels felonious in itself.

"The Bible says you cannot serve two masters.

"Am I too late to serve this tribe called women?

"Do I actually understand what it is to be a woman struggling?

"A little rape in the mouth is a walk in the park when other

"girls are currently being stoned to death for having mobile phones...

"..are bleeding to death after genital mutilation...

"..are looking at a womb irreparably destroyed by militias

"systematically raping them during times of civil conflict and war.

"Are these facts a humbling reminder not to be

"so loud about my experiences,

"or are they a reminder to shout?

"Can my shout help their silent screams?

"Is it time to serve a new tribe?

"I hope one day to know."

I'm thinking more, you know, I'm trying, so...

No, that was... That was fantastic. Wow.

OK. The thing is, erm, we have a contract,

and we...we have to honour, erm, that contract.

So, this is great but, erm...

..you, erm...

You need to finish the draft.

Where...? Where is the money?

With Henny House.

With Henny Ho...? With Susy?

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Thank you so much for agreeing to see me. Of course!

I'm going to let you through and up - all the fucking way up.

Love the hair, by the way. Oh, thank you.

Have a pomegranate.

How's it going in the kitchen?

Is it in the oven, measuring, marinating? When are we serving?

Mm. Well, I started doing what you said. Which was?

Mm...

..I'm starting to write about my experiences.

Rape! Mm.

Fantastic.

No, just different, it's different to my usual.

I'd love you to meet some other writers I look after -

would you like that?

Yes. I would.

I also wondered if, erm,

an earlier transfer of fees was something that was possible?

You haven't been paid?

Oh!

Oh, dear. You should have received a quarter upon agreement,

that's contractual. Oh, no, no, no, I got that. Oh!

Yeah, but that was, like, a year ago,

and cos the content has changed, it's taking a bit

longer to finish the draft, so I just wondered if I could have...

..some of the fees in advance.

You probably signed a contract. Mm?

That makes things tricky.

Contracts, they're a little like things we've agreed?

Mate, you don't even to know what you're saying.

Just read the scripts and pocket the cash. Oh...

No, no, no. Mate, you can't have a party without treats.

Yeah, but this is from... Yeah, I know.

Every time I bring someone in here, right, I get a referral fee.

So I'm all right for a while.

Just give it back to me when I need it.

Hello, this is Happy Animals, we're a vegan grocery delivery service.

Yeah, your details were on our database.

Hey, I'm Dan, CEO.

Ah, wicked, nice to meet you. Thanks for...

Do you know much about Happy Animals, or...? No, no.

Right. Let me just fill you in, I mean, it's a bit dull,

but, erm, I basically spent three years at uni just going

deep into the existential threat of climate change.

So, you know, animal agriculture

and eating meat are THE biggest threat to global warming.

OK. So, I created, er, Happy Animals. Yeah.

So, people who want to buy vegan products

and know what's out there, know what they can buy. Wow.

So, it's kind of like Amazon?

Er, yeah, but kind of ethical.

OK, OK, yeah, yeah, yeah.

I mean, I wondered if you would be interested in...

..er, influencing instead?

Oh, like, Instagram for...? Mm, yeah. Erm...

Double pay? I mean, I'd pay cash upfront as well.

Sure. Yeah, sure. Great. No, yeah, it sounds great. Fantastic.

Emily, can we, erm,

get...? So, yeah, I thought maybe we could start with

a photo of you in the Happy Animals T-shirt and bag?

Would that be cool? Yeah, yeah, can I see what it looks like? Yeah.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Perfect, OK.

Yeah, that is lush.

Would you mind if we do, like, a quick, ten-second video?

Yes, yep. Definitely.

OK, yeah, yeah, yeah. Er, just the phone script.

Hi, this is Arabella from Happy Animals.

The climate crisis is real, we're here to make a change.

Great. Great. Cool.

And would you mind doing, like, a few more?

Yeah. Yeah? Great. OK.

The thing I miss most after the complete ecological

collapse are crops, because crops bring us yummy vegetables.

A bit more playful.

I love it.

Indonesia has to move their capital city because the current...

It is literally... Get your products now.

You know where to go.

Maybe a live stream tomorrow? Great.

Er, cash? Yeah, no, when you clock out, we'll sort that out. Great.

She stopped, by the way...

..smoking - cigarettes and weed.

That's good.

I bought her a vape. It helped - less toxins in her system.

Not sure about that. What?

New research, isn't it?

Vapes are looking more toxic than they thought.

It's better than smoking. It smells better for non-smokers, yeah.

What are you up to today, then?

Well, as you can see, I'm at work right now, T.

On my break.

Did I see you this morning?

What? In the supermarket.

No.

It's my birthday.

I know. Thanks.

Arabella is hosting a party for me tonight,

I'm sure you saw the event circulating on Facebook.

So, you wanted to check that

I wasn't going to turn up with the champs.

It's just self-care guidelines say...

It's better for her that I stay away.

I'm not going to forget, Terry.

You don't have to keep turning up at my workplace

hounding me down to check. I'm sorry.

Self-care. Yep.

Self-care is important in the first two stages,

the only thing more important is...

..to avoid friends...

..who don't affirm or comfort.

Right. This, erm, self-care...

..who's it for? Arabella.

And the guideline says to avoid me?

Yes. Because I left her.

Ultimately, yes.

So, it doesn't matter that I got your approval to leave her.

"Yo, Terry!

"Arabella's twisted,

"and I really need to go and bang my mistress, what do I do?"

I can't verify those are my words,

I was under the influence of tequila and Class A drugs.

You put me in a difficult position.

I wasn't there, I didn't know what to say.

So, instead of just saying, "I don't know," you say,

"Just leave her, this is what she does."

That is not how I said it. That's exactly what you said

and you were sober when you said it.

And then you forced me to lie to her the next day.

What does the past have to do with Arabella's current recovery?

I'm just trying to assess which one of us she should be avoiding.

I'm taking her to yoga, dance class, meditation, painting,

steam room, I listen to her talk, I make her feel good.

No-one else is doing these things. I'm helping.