What Keeps You Alive

I knew you are a big fixer upper, Jules

but this is worse than I could have ever imagined.

But it's our song.

Since, since when do we have a song?

- Turn that, turn it down. - No.

I think I should probably get a say

if this is our song, don't you think?

- No. - This is it. This is our song.

- Get real. - I mean it.

Oh, my God! Jackie, this place is incredible.

Wasn't kidding when I said it was rustic.

Where'd you say the infinity pool was?

Oh, yeah. No, that would be the, uh, the lake.

Hmm.

I have a confession to make.

I think I love this place more than you.

That wouldn't surprise me.

I mean, I could never, but it's close, like,

really close.

Okay, you go explore and I'll make, I'll make dinner.

Mm-hmm. Yeah, you will.

So my great-great grandpa...

...he got super lucky and, uh...

after Canada confederated

the government was giving people around here land for free

if they promised that they would farm it..

...and years later he built this place.

So can we just live here forever?

Have you seen my insulin anywhere?

Check your bag. Back pocket.

Wow!

Yes!

Alright!

Let there be light.

Crazy.

Oh, yes!

I'm home.

I'm home.

Hey, are these height marks from when you were a kid?

Oh.

Jackie, this place is massive.

I can't get over how beautiful it is.

Jackie.

Jack.

Babe?

Jackie?

What the hell?

Hey. Sorry.

- What were you doing? - Nothin'.

Just...

Looks like the boat house didn't make it.

You're right it didn't.

I'm starving. Let's get something to eat!

I could get used to this.

- You're so fucking hot. - Mm.

Oh, shit!

Hey, it's okay. It's okay. It's probably nothing.

Who would drive out this far?

I don't know.

No. Jackie.

No, no, no, no, no! Don't, don't open it!

It's fine. Just calm down.

Jackie, don't... Jackie...

Can I help you?

Megan?

Jesus! Is that you?

It's me. Sarah.

God, it's been a really long time.

I -- I didn't even know that you still came around here.

Sarah. Yeah.

It's been...

...forever.

Yeah.

Hi.

- Hi. - This is Julie. My... my wife.

Sarah. It's really nice to meet you.

Uh, sorry to come by so late.

No, that's okay, we were just...

...having a drink.

I -- I just, I hadn't seen lights on over here in ages.

We got broken into last summer

so I thought I should come by and check the place out.

You have a place around here too?

Yeah! Yeah just on the other side of the lake.

Megan and I used to get into all kinds of trouble

around here as kids.

Is that right...

...Megan?

Well, I should, I should get going. Um...

You guys have a great night.

Yeah, have a good night, Sarah.

It's really good to see you again.

See you around.

I can explain.

I don't even know what to say right now.

Megan, Megan, Megan, Megan.

Megan.

Fucking Jackie.

Hey!

You wanna take it out?

What do you want?

Whoever you are.

Please.

I never liked the name.

It never felt like me.

And when I figured out who I was..

That I was gay..

...I changed it.

I should've mentioned it to you before.

I'm sorry, Jules.

That's not who I am anymore.

Close your eyes.

Please.

Please.

Okay, open it.

Do you like it?

God, you're so cheesy.

I'm still pissed at you.

I am.

The scope isn't aligned alright.

I still can't believe your dad never took you hunting.

Target practice is enough for me.

Killing for sport isn't exactly my thing.

Killing for sport is not what hunting is.

Trust me.

Straighten your shoulders, babe.

Your form is all wrong.

Holy shit!

I know.

My dad, he used to hunt every summer up here.

One summer...

...he wakes me and my friend Jenny up

at the crack of dawn, and he says to us

"It's time you girls learn a bit about life."

So...

...he hands each of us a rifle

and off we go.

We're crying and complaining and...

And he's giving us hell for being such girls.

Sounds like it.

And eventually I go wondering off on my own

but I get turned around.

The next thing I know...

I find myself face to face

with this massive black bear.

It's just standing there.

Not more than 20 feet away from me

and it's looking right at me.

So I line her up in my sights...

Boom! Down she goes.

I race up to it thinking

how proud he's gonna be, it's my first kill.

But she's still breathing.

She's struggling.

Trying to stand up and... screaming out.

What did you do?

I lined my gun up to do the humane thing.

But it jammed.

So I just... stood over it...

...the next 20 minutes and I...

I watched the life slowly fade from her eyes.

I'll never forget it.

My dad gave this to me afterwards.

Just in case my gun ever jammed again.

He used to say to me...

"You only kill what keeps you alive."

What does that mean?

It means we ate every single square inch of meat

off that bear over the next month.

Nothing went to waste.

That's a pretty fucked up story.

Yeah, I know.

Hey, babe! I couldn't find a pen

so I'm leaving a voice mail.

I know, it's so '90s, right?

Listen, I'm heading into town for a bit to grab a few things

but, uh, I'll be back in the afternoon.

P.S. You looked really cute sleeping this morning. I love..

Julie! Is that you?

Hope you don't mind me popping by.

Oh, God, no, of course not. Just a second.

Let me get you some water. Just make yourself at home.

Daniel, we have company.

- Uh, here. - Oh, thanks.

I -- is this you and Megan?

Yeah, and Jenny.

Ah, you guys are so young.

Does Jenny still have a cottage around here too?

No. No, Jenny passed away.