Go Ahead (以家人之名)

Episode 29

Where have you been these days?

You come home so late.

Nowhere

You smell like garbage.

You smell like garbage.

Why don’t you say something?

I don’t want to.

That would make you gloomier.

Come on.

I’m not used to it.

How long

are you going to talk to me in this tone?

And you take everything

in your own hands.

You’d rather take loans from the bank,

rather than from me.

Are we families or not?

Don’t be silly.

Of course we are.

I always believe

that those from the same blood

aren’t bound to be families.

But those who love and cherish each other

can be families.

Doesn’t that mean getting married?

In marriage, we become family

temporarily.

Once we don’t love or cherish the other,

we’ll have to divorce,

like Ms. He Mei and Zhao Huaguang,

and Dad Ling and Ms. Chen Ting.

They’re strangers now, aren’t they?

In your heart,

your dad isn’t even Zhao Huaguang.

It’s our dad.

If you treat the other lightly

because she’s a family,

even the strongest love

can be weakened.

Like a kite,

if you leave it out there

in regardless

of the sun, wind

or rain out there,

one day,

its string will break.

Didn’t the string between us

nearly break in the years

when you and Ling Xiao were away?

Do you know what the problem is?

We didn’t come back.

No.

The problem is

none of us

told the others the true feelings

on our minds.

By true feelings,

I mean not only happiness

but also sorrow.

If there’s no pain as contrast,

then happiness would be meaningless.

I read it

on Zheng Shuran’s Weibo page.

It’s what we achieved by logical argument.

I’m fine, actually.

I just don’t want to

share the unhappy things

with you

and make you unhappy, too.

I wouldn’t be happy if I worried about you.

You seldom talked to me.

My heart hurts.

Really. I mean it.

My heart is made of glass.

It shatters easily.

It often occurs to me

that you’re suffering

alone

and torture yourself

by moral standards.

Then my heart starts

to bleed.

And I think life

is so dull.

He Ziqiu!

What?

You’re making pointless remarks again.

Why is life dull?

I saw you

eat like a horse each day.

You saw? From where?

I can’t see you each day.

So I read your WeChat Moments.

Look at the moments you shared.

Well,

you ate so much.

Even a horse can’t eat that much.

Look, look.

You aren’t good to me at all.

I knew that when we were little

you wanted to be a married-in husband.

You choose Ling Xiao over me.

Can’t I be gloomy for a few days?

If I were happy as usual

like nothing happened,

I’d be a crazy man.

Right.

How many days

are you going to be gloomy?

You don’t talk to me.

It’s agony to me.

I’m uncomfortable everywhere.

Slick.

Never mind.

What does that mean?

How many days?

What are you laughing at?

What does that mean now?

He Ziqiu.

Get the dog.

Ling Xiao, don’t open the door.

What was that?

Haichao Noodles

Dad’s beef is the best.

Let’s make some rules.

Li Jianjian, put them on your mind.

First,

be equal to us.

No partiality.

Second,

if your boyfriend

has conflict with your brother,

take your brother’s side.

Third,

if your boyfriend mistreats you,

I’ll kick his ass.

He Ziqiu...

That’s more like it.

Li Jianjian, do you know?

Ms. Zhang decides

to suit your dad.

She’s got a good eye.

Which Ms. Zhang?

Li Jianjian hasn’t told you?

Grandma Qian introduced

someone to Dad Li.

A teacher, educated,

and looks graceful.

Why haven’t I heard anything from Dad?

I think Mr. Li doesn’t like her.

What did my dad say about it?

He said they didn’t match.

He just doesn’t like her.

Does my dad like gorgeous ladies?

I think he likes

pretty ladies.

I don’t agree.

Possibly.

Jianjian’s mom was pretty.

So is your mom.

Right.

I learned a lot

on this vegetables’ trip today.

I couldn’t stop talking

about cooking.

Ms. Zhang.

Please don’t...

You’re all back?

Ling Xiao doesn’t work today.

This is Ms. Zhang Hongying.

You...

You must be Jianjian.

Pretty girl.

Your dad said

you resemble your mom.

Nice to meet you, Ms. Zhang.

Nice to meet you.

It’s heavy. Allow me.

Too heavy. Leave it.

It’s OK. I got this. Too heavy for you.

Um... I...

Ms. Zhang, let me help you.

Thank you. Thank you.

Two handsome boys!

Which is Ziqiu

and which is Ling Xiao?

Careful. Careful.

Ms. Zhang, I... I’m Ziqiu.

Ling Xiao.

Great.

Be seated.