Survivor

Previously on Survivor, the three remaining members of Baramundi bid farewell to the Outback.

I don't know why saying goodbye is so hard.

We've been out here for 42 days.

It's made us realize what we take for granted at home.

This really is not about the money, and it's totally fine with me.

Colby won the final immunity challenge and surprised everyone by voting Keith out instead of Tina.

I don't even know that I have a 50-50 shot against Tina.

The two of them face the jury, and in a final twist, the votes were revealed live in Los Angeles.

Tina was the ultimate survivor.

Tonight, the final adventure into the private lives of 16 survivors back from the Outback.

The game is over, and 16 lives have been changed forever.

Tonight, we're going to take you where you haven't.

Inside the homes and hearts of 16 ordinary people now living extraordinary lives.

It's not just children who have dreams.

Adults have dreams, too.

We'll learn who found love.

He just kind of, like, got down on one knee and took out this box, and I'm

screaming, and I was like, oh, my gosh, like, is this happening?

Who didn't?

Knowing him now, I'd have to say no way in hell.

Who is searching for answers?

I asked God why.

Why would he do something like that?

Who is searching for peace?

If I could do it all over again, I wouldn't do it all over again.

And some surprising spin from last year's survivors.

I was in love with Colby.

He would play Jerry like a violin.

Every player has a different take on the survivor experience.

We begin with two who want to set the record straight.

One who wants to put it all behind her.

And one who is just loving life and living like mad.

I'm probably Outback, but I'll be happy to koala you later.

Since I've been back from the Outback, same old farm, same old Maryland,

same old Mad Dog, I keep telling you, nothing's really changed.

I went from basically your average street cop to the Outback on the number one show in America.

How bizarre is that?

But some things don't change.

I still have to muck out my own donkey stall.

This was then.

She's still my sister, but she is a different Mad Dog.

This is now.

She is out there, very much out there.

I've lost a total of 20 pounds.

I've got two tattoos, a kangaroo on my right calf, a wraparound crocodile on my left bicep.

I tell you, when I came back from the Outback, I was really tan.

Long about January, I started to fade, and I decided to heck with it.

I want to make my own tan, so I got my sunbed.

All the world is round the corner, watching us everywhere.

Surviving survivor and not allowing it to consume your identity may even be a greater challenge.

Hey, heff, I might shed it all.

The most important lesson that I took back from Australia was that life is short,

so it's so important to live and love every day like it was my last.

We have about 340 inmates here, and they all have color television and cable.

They have seen everything there is about me.

They know as much about me as my own mother, it seems.

Life isn't all a bed of roses after this show is over.

When I come into work, I never know when I walk through this door what I'm going to

get bombarded with, so why don't you just wait a second and see if you can hear what I'm talking about.

What do you think of me and Survivor?

That's what I thought!

Thank you!

What am I saying?

When you come home from Australia after being voted off first in the entire country, it hates your guts.

I don't know.

I wasn't ready for that.

Before Survivor, I was happy.

I was with my husband 20 years.

I loved him for 20 years, and we were together.

He died.

He died.

I fell in love with his son.

He is the best thing that ever happened in my life.

The times I'm the happiest are when I'm here with him and the dogs, the bird.

When Deb got into it, you know, it was fine.

I was behind her 100%.

I just kind of wanted to not be a part of it at all.

But it didn't work out that way.

Somebody at the National Enquirer saw my name, Debbie Eaton, and my boyfriend, Bob Eaton.

Eaton and Eaton, and they're not married?

Whoa, let's check into that.

Maybe it was naive on my part.

I mean, did I know that the public would find out that Bob and I were a couple?

Sure.

But I also thought the public was intelligent enough and understanding

enough that when they heard the circumstances, it wasn't going to be like

a witch hunt, and it's been like a witch hunt.

It's really sad that there are so many people in the world who just get a kick out of kicking people when they're down.

They're kicking you when you're down.

Survivor, for me, has been a double-edged sword.

Did I have some great experiences?

You bet I did.

But it's living with the after effects now.

Was it worth having that experience to be feeling like this?

If I could do it all over again, I wouldn't do it all over again.

That's all.

I wouldn't.

You know what?

Every time I hear the word, Jerry!

Jerry!

I feel like my... I'm dragging my hand down a chalkboard.

Jerry!

My son put something in his mouth.

What she thought was beef jerky.

It just drives me nuts!

I was so relieved when I got voted out.

And I came back to being a soldier again.

Because the army accepted me with open arms.

And they didn't believe the lies.

I knew that I would have to come back to an intelligence community where we base everything upon our integrity.

Radio check, over.

I hold a top secret clearance.

I wasn't going to do anything to jeopardize that top secret clearance.

There wasn't any beef jerky.

I'm being approached by a lot of beef jerky companies, which I find hilarious.

I'm actually going to be making money off Jerry's lies.

I find that the sweetest revenge.

I love it.

One day I walk in, and there's this huge dartboard of Jerry, and it's got her

picture on it, and all the soldiers are just going, they're

so angry, and they're just like, they're hammering this photo.

We've had to replace that photo several times.

I am a very kind, honest, straightforward, creative, artistic, vulnerable person.

Jerry is a bitch.

She is.

But she's a bitch that will be laughing all the way to the bank.

I was being myself.

I was strong.

I was outspoken.

I confronted people when they needed to be confronted.

No, no, no, no, no.

We're going to talk right now.

I was this woman everyone loved to hate.

I didn't like it at all.

I didn't want people to hate me.

I wanted people to like me.

It saddened me more than anything that people's behavior can get so evil,

including my own, my own intentions and intentions in some cases were very selfish.

and self-centered.

Coming back to L.A.

was a little overwhelming just because I remember sitting there and looking around

my apartment and knowing that I couldn't call anybody or have anyone comfort me

because they didn't understand and I couldn't tell them.

It was by far the loneliest experience I think I've ever had.

Long before Survivor, I was struggling.

I was at a total, the total point of bartender burnout from 10 years of bartending and struggling as an actress.

Acting is my lifelong dream.

It's my life.

My dad always used to say to me, what are you going to fall back on?

And I used to tell him, I'm not going to fall.

I was crushed when you were voted off Survivor.

It's nice to know people out there, some people understand me, they don't all think I'm horrible.

I think the major thing that's different in the, in my life after Survivor is that my appointment book is full.

Here we go, this is The Young and the Restless, production number 7142.

I just learned very early on what I wanted to do with my life.

Failure is my biggest fear.

When we come back, the man who took his whole town on an adventure.

I got like a famous guy on my shirt.

And what the Survivors really think about each other.

None of the words I'm coming up with are nice.

But first, here's what one of last year's Survivors has to say about this year's crowd.

Them people had to be pretty dumb to build their camp in a riverbed.

You know, when it rained, it washed away, and they blamed the elements, but I blamed their dumbness.

Welcome back.

Well, for a bunch of people who didn't have much to eat, this crowd sure knows how to dish.

All right, I can't get past the fact that you're you want me, of all people, to talk about people.

Alicia Calaway.

Booyah Booty.

Jeff, that little devil.

Jeff?

None of the words I'm coming up with are nice.

Michael Skupin is just plain nuts.

Kimmi Kappenberg.

Alicia Calaway.

Not my type of person.

We just don't see eye to eye.

I think it's a height thing.

Jerri Manthey.

Jerri Manthey.

Jerri and I are in counseling right now.

Jerri.

God, where do you start with Jerri?

Colby's a very attractive guy.

He's a boy.

I need a man.

Colby reminds me of a cheesy cowboy.

The only thing that comes to mind when I think of Kel is socially inept.

Nick.

Was Nick on Survivor?

Nick.

Oh, Nick.

I'm sorry.

Maralyn, I love her to death.

Amber was the mad pup.

Being on Survivor is winning the lottery in a different kind of manner.

Instead of getting a huge lump sum of money and deciding what I want to do with

it, I get this huge big title, Amber from Survivor.

Do what you want with that.

But a lot of people mess up when they win the lottery and end up spending it all in

one place and regret what they did with it.