Everybody's Everything

-Where's my phone? Where do I go?

-Follow me. Follow me.

-Love you, dawg. -Love you.

We love you!

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-Whoo! -Yeah!

Can this be him?

The one I have waited centuries to see?

How strange.

So far from his path

that I barely see the promise of glory.

Can this be him, this hellboy?

Yo!

So you know I got to run, baby.

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Dear grandson, my prophet...

...my tattooed poet,

the sweetheart...

...the wounds your father gave you,

God did not heal but did close

even if in scars

so that you receive this strength

to stand up against him for yourself,

to declare just as a boy your independence...

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...and determined to grow into your own man.

This is one of your gifts

and wonders that makes me admire you,

makes me happiest about you, for you.

Only I ask you in dead seriousness,

think about what being a man is,

the strength of heart to fight for love,

to defend it over and over and over again.

That's manly.

I love you, too.

-Anyway, it'll be wonderful to see you.

I must look forward to it.

Love, your grandpa, Pack Ack.

-And just straight on through, clip it right there?

-Yeah. -Bada bing, bada boom.

I'll just do it through my jacket.

Fuck yeah.

Look. What I could do maybe...

Nah, I'll do it on the jacket. Yeah.

-You want me to clip that? -Oh, yeah.

-Bro, you're so professional, bro.

-Yeah, I know. This shit is crazy.

-Have all the gear and everything,

and, like, it's nice.

-Hey, can I get you to say something quick?

-Yeah, I just... I was just picking my nose.

I hope you weren't recording.

-How long you guys been working on music?

-Shit. I been working on music,

like, 6, 7, nah, 7 months, 7, 8 months now, bro.

I'm all over the place right now.

Like, I'm gonna be staying here.

I'm gonna be staying in L.A., you know what I'm saying?

I just fuck with my friends, yo.

-This is just some family shit, bro.

-Yeah, it's just some family shit.

-I don't think I have it all in red.

Don't touch because they're very new.

-I touched! -Okay.

Well, you know how to touch gently.

I've seen you do it. -I touched gently.

A very good, gentle touch.

All done eating?

I bet that would...

Let's take a little spongie.

-Like that. -Yeah.

The night that he was born, he opened his eyes

and looked me right in the eye in a way that I hadn't...

was completed surprised by, great big, brown eyes,

and he looked at me like, "Okay, so introductions.

Let's go," and I said, "Hi. I'm your mama, and I love you."

I was like...I'll never forget that moment,

and he was like a little, tiny...

Like the little characters in "Snow White"

or like little Walt Disney characters with these big eyes,

and so he was just like a little peep.

I'm gonna do this.

I'm doing that to talk in.

-You're talking now. I can hear you.

-Uh-huh. -Uh-huh.

I can hear you in the camera.

That's called a microphone.

Go on and grab it.

I want to do the microphone.

Gus had a way about him.

When he would walk into the class,

he was... He always had a smile,

always had a smile,

and the first thing he would say is,

"Good morning, Mrs. Camacho."

You know, one thing that got me was his creativity.

He was a very creative artist and writer,

and I picked up on that very quickly.

-I can't do it. I can't do it.

Yeah, you can do it.

-No, I can't do it. -Yeah, you can do it.

-I can't do it. -Aw, come on.

You can do it. -Nah.

Yeah, come on. You can do it.

-There we go. I'm...There. I'm done.

I'm done. -Okay.

You're feeling a little more shy, aren't you?

I can tell there's mischief in your eyes, and yet...

-But if you meet me in real life,

you'll find out that I'm not very confident,

and I'm a very sensitive person,

and I have a lot of insecurities.

-It wasn't just like, "I'm writing catchy songs."

I feel like Gus talked about the pain, too,

and a lot of people were drawn to it

because he's brutally honest about it.

-I remember we'd, like, go out, and he had all these tattoos,

and he's always like, "Don't you feel weird, like,

walking into a restaurant with me?"

And I'd be like, "Why do you get all these tattoos

if you care so much about it?

Like, if you're going to be so insecure about it,

why did you do that?" because he was.

He was, like... He knew people were judging him,

and it did upset him.

I used to bike everywhere.

Like, where I grew up in New York was a really small

surfing city, surfing community, so we just biked.

Everyone just biked everywhere.

Like, they actually made it, like...

I remember the year I moved,

they made it illegal to be drunk on a bike.

You can get pulled over on your bike.

-A DUI, yeah. -Yeah, yeah, yeah.

I'm also a professional handlebar rider.

I can hop on someone's handlebars if they're going,

like, 30 miles an hour. I'd be like, "Whoo."

-Honestly, a huge reason he did it was, he was like,

"I'm not gonna have, like, a normal job.

I don't ever want a normal job, and I'm going to make myself

not be this, like, normal person."

-Being a normal kid in Long Beach is,

you're going to the beach all the time.

You want to be a lifeguard because that's the coolest thing

you can be in middle school or high school

is that you're a lifeguard, and you're playing lacrosse,

and you're playing beach volleyball,

and it's very much a small beach town.

And Long Beach is almost like a tribalism of,

"We're from Long Beach,

and, like, we do things our way, and everyone else is trash."

-Gus, from the beginning, is a creative and different kid.

Big, like, pink and green Osirises on

that, like, went up to his knees.

So he stood out just from the start,

probably had a Mohawk at the time, too.

He communicated through his image,

and, like, you could tell

that he was different from the rest of us.

Smells good.

-Stop. Stop! Okay, stop.

Aah! -Aah!

-Evan, get off. You're crushing my soul.

Ah, tickles my lips.

It tickles...my lips.

-I remember in 10th grade when we were dating,

and he didn't answer me for two hours,

and I was like, "What the hell are you doing?"

And he was like, "My parents are getting divorced,"

and the day after, he, like, broke up with me,

and we didn't speak for a really long time.